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I wish you enough

2011-04-02T16:06:00.001+07:00

Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, “I love you, and I wish you enough.”

The daughter replied, “Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom.” They kissed and the daughter left.

The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there, I could see she wanted & needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy, but she welcomed me in by asking, “Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?”

“Yes, I have,” I replied. “Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?”.

“I am old, and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is – the next trip back will be for my funeral,” she said.

“When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, ‘I wish you enough.’ May I ask what that means?”

She began to smile. “That’s a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone.” She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and she smiled even more.”When we said, ‘I wish you enough,’ we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough goo d things to sustain them.” Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.

I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

She then began to cry and walked away.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them; but then an entire life to forget them. TAKE TIME TO LIVE…..

(A friend e-mailed this story to me, I don't know whether it's a true story or not but I find it quite touching.. =) )

Super (Romantic) Hero

2010-12-10T03:05:00.004+07:00

I'm not a fan of super hero type of movies.. On this department, I can proudly say that I'm a total girly girl.. LOL! I almost don't give a tiny rat's ass about the übercool fighting scenes, scary monsters/mutants/crazy scientist/robot/alien whatsoever, or all those spectacular special effects thingies that lots of people go ga ga about. Those are the things that make me snore during the movie. Want me to stay awake?? More drama, please! Put on some romantic scenes with heartmelting dialogues and I shall guarantee you my undivided attention. Less frames of the super hero trying to kill the monsters, and more of the super hero taking his girlfriend out to a romantic dinner! Haha. Yeah, you got the idea.

Well, since the romantic scenes are basically all I care about from super hero movies, here I am posting the lines which, I think, are the most romantic lines from all of the superhero movies I've watched so far. It's from the last scene of Spiderman 2. =)

Mary Jane: Peter. I can't survive without you.

Peter Parker: You shouldn't be here.

Mary Jane: I know you think we can't be together, but can't you respect me enough to let me make my own decision? I know there'll be risks but I want to face them with you. It's wrong that we should be only half alive... half of ourselves. I love you. So here I am… standing in your doorway. I have always been standing in your doorway. Isn't it about time somebody saved your life?

Mary Jane: Well, say something…

Peter Parker: Thank you, Mary Jane.

Ah, if I were a guy, I'd definitely marry someone like MJ.

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(I've had) Enough

2010-12-01T03:35:00.003+07:00

I forgive you, not because I want to become a saint but because I do not want to endure this hatred. This tiresome hatred.

Now leave us alone.

Ten

2010-11-21T02:47:00.002+07:00

Whoever said that love is easy, must has never been in love;
Sometimes it's a land mine, one wrong step and it blows up;
A word, a look, lights a hidden fuse.

It's hard to see just what you have, when you're seeing red;
And it's easy to do something that you know you both will regret;
Better stop, think, count to ten before I leave.

One, I still wanna hate you;
Two, three, I still wanna leave;
Four, searching for that door;
Five, then I look into your eyes;
Six, take a deep breath;
Seven, take a step back;
Eight, nine, I don't know why, we even started this fight;
By the time I get to ten, I'm right back in your arms again.

Words thrown so callously like weapons when we fight;
But when they cut too deep, I wanna leave it all behind;
That I've to count to ten, before I cross that line.

You can lose what you're not thankful for,
I don't want that to happen to you and me,
Better count my blessings.

One, you still move me;
Two, three, you send chills right through me;
Four, you keep me wanting more;
Five, when I look into your eyes;
Six, you're my best friend;
Seven, that will never end;
Eight, nine, I don't know why, but thank God it happens everytime;
By the time I get to ten,
By the time I get to ten,
I can see how blessed I've been.

I'd chose you all over again...

(Jewel Kilcher)

Misiii.. saya mau merepet dulu..

2010-11-08T04:07:00.010+07:00

Sesuai judul postingan kali ini.. I'm wrilly2 in the mood for merepeeutt aka curcol gila2an.. eits, gak curcol juga siih secara panjang ya, bok!

Kalimat di atas itu adalah warning yaa, so kalo sodara-sodari hadirin-hadirot sekalian punya hajat yang lebih penting ketimbang baca repetan saya, disarankan buat close aja window nya..karena eh karena sumpah deh postingan ini rasa2nya kurang bermanfaat buat kemaslahatan umat..

Eh tapi kalo emang lagi segitu mati gaya nya ga ada kerjaan sih sok atuh manggaaa menyaksikan saya merepet..

Baiklah tanpa lebih banyak congcings mari segera dimulei.. Pusat permasalahan kehidupan eyke akhir2 ini rasa2nya bersumber di satu kata deh.. KAWIN! hahahahahaha.. (tertawa frustrasi) Maaak, umur udah lewat seperempat abad iniii.. udah masuk masa2 krisis pengen ngerasain kewong! Rambut pun udah mulei beruban satu dua helai..

Pujaan hati pun insyaAllah udah tersedia..udah mantep lah ini hati segala macem pokonya mah insyaAllah kami siapppp (dan ngebet..hahaha) lahir batinnn.. Keluarga punnn insyaAllah udah sreg di hati..saya sudah (pede) diterima ama keluarga sang pujaan hati..secara pendekatannya juga udah nyaris 10 taon.. dari adeknya masih esde sampe udah mau lulus SMA!! Lama yeee.. iye!

Nahh,,terus kenapa dong dong dong gak kawin kawin jugaa?? Pan katanya situ ngebet?? Huhuhu.. Masalahnyaaa, karena suatu hal berbau tradisi adat-istiadat yang krusial (buat keluarga, buat gw mah kagak!), sang pujaan hati eyke masih belum bisa merasakan apa yg saya rasakan dengan keluarga doi.. singkatnya, belum diterima. Kasiaan yaaa.. Sepuluh taun jek.. Kemane ajeee ente??! hahaha.. (terlalu banyak tertawa mengindikasikan perasaan miris yg ditutup2i)

Segala daya dan upaya rasa2nya udah kami lakukan deh untuk menggoyahkan kekerasan hati yang paduka raja padang pasir (baca: eyke punya bapak moyang), karena niscaya kalo hati sang paduka sudah luluh mah anggota kerajaan yg lain dijamin manut2 ajee.. Tapiii, ya apa mau dikata..namanya juga ujian yah..mungkin emang belum waktunya juga sehingga saya dan sang pujaan hati harus luar biasa sabaaaarrrrrrrrrrr..sembari menahan hasrat yg kian membuncah untuk membina bahtera rumah tangga.. ahuhuhu.. Tapi teteeupp haqqul yaqiiiiinn insyaAllah kalo saatnya tiba my daddy daddy bala bala akan rontok juga hatinya sama calon menantunya iniii.. Aamiin..

Hey Daddy, if you read my blog..percayalah tidak ada lelaki di luaran sana yang bisa mencintai, menjaga, membahagiakan, membimbing dan memimpin anak gadis sematawayang-mu ini sebaik dia!! =)

Sabar sabar sabarrr.. itu sihh inti dari perjuangan cinta kita berdua.. Caelah.. Dari mulai saya ditembak di depan lab kimia SMA kita bulan Januari 2001.. ahik..ahikk.. Terus ditinggal kuliah di luar negeri enam bulan sesudahnyaa.. Long distance lima tauuuunnn.. Dari mulai beda waktu 1 jam sampe 12 jam..udah tau rasanya! Teteupp mesti sabaaarrr.. hahaha.. Walopun akhirnya saya sempat cemen dan ngerasa lelah pacaran jauh2an yg berujung kita putus (di status, di hati mah gak pernah kali yaa??hahaha.. najis!)

Tapi insyaAllah kalo jodoh gak kemana2 emang.. setelah hampir 3 taun jalan sendiri2, ya kok bisa2nya di'pertemukan' lagi dalam kondisi yang rasa2nya terlalu menakjubkan buat dibilang kebetulan.. Prikitiiiwww! (Afterall, kita percaya nggak ada yang kebetulan di dunia ini.) Saat itu juga, we instantly know..this is it..we're meant to be together and nothing can ever come in between again, insyaAllah!

Eits, tapi emang ga boleh jumawa berlebihan..hahaha..pasalnya, sungguh ironis..beberapa saat setelah kita nyambung lagi ituuu, sang pujaan hati harus beremigrasi ke negeri kumpeni buat mengejar cita2nya menjadi ilmuwan dan menguasai dunia! Maaakk, ditinggal lagi doong eykeeee.. Halo, long distance relationship apa kabarmu..kita berjumpa lagii! *nangis guling2an tujuh hari tujuh malem!*

Ehh, apa tadi kuncinyaa?? SABARRR.. tuh ditulis gede2 di karton manila berhias glitter, ditempel di cermin samping tempat tidur biar tiap bangun pagi bisa terapi menghipnotis diri sendiri.. Lagipula, insyaAllah jauh2an kali ini nggak sampe selama dulu dongg.. ya iya kan pengennya cepet2 kawinnn.. huhuhu.. Segala daya dan upaya punn digencarkan untuk mencapai tujuan itu, terutama mendapat restu sang paduka raja padang pasir.. Tiada hil yang mustahal kalo atas izin Allah kan yaaa.. jadi insyaAllah penolakan2 beliau selama ini gak bikin kami gencar melainkan semakin kekeuh sumekeuhh..

Walaupun demikian, saya dan pujaan hati teteeup manusia biasa yaaa.. Kadang2 saya juga jiper, galau, stress, capek, nangis guling2an, apalagi ngeliatin orang2 pada kawinnn semuaaa..aaaa gw kapaann??!! Nanti giliran eyke yg udah sembuh, gantian sang pujaan hati yg sutresno.. ganti2an ajaaa gitu.. Tapi Alhamdulillah bisa saling menguatkan kalo yg satu lagi lemah, dia bisa menahan saya kalo pengen guling2an di rel kereta Lenteng Agung, dan saya juga bisa nahan dia untuk gak lompat ke dalem kanal di Delft sono.. Hihihi..

Teteuppp berdoa dan ikhtiar sekekeuh mungkin lahh.. Dan insyaAllah kalo kondisi kejiwaan ini memungkinkan, kita sekarang sih udah ga mau stres2an lagi mainannya..udah ga mau galau2an lagi meratapi nasib.. huhuhu.. Buang2 waktu dan enerhiii.. (buat yg belom tau, percayalah nangis dua hari dua malem itu jauhh lebih CAPEK daripada main dance dance revolution dua hari dua malem non stop!) Jadi, daripada nelongso mewek2an mengasiani diri sendiri, mariiiii kita semangattt '45 buat menyusun strategi menuju tujan yang diimpi2kan yaituuu..tak lain dan tak bukan adalah MENIKAH! Menjalankan sunnah Rasulullah saw, menyempurnakan separuh agama, membangun keluarga yang sakinah mawaddah warahmah.. InsyaAllah.. Aamiiin ya robbal alamiiin..

Semoga sesegera mungkin kalo bobo' ada dia yang nemenin..Hihihii.. Meskipun suara ngoroknya dijamin tidak hanya menggetarkan jantung hatiku..ihiiyy.. tapi juga tembok rumah tetangga!

nyuwun pareng

2010-10-29T01:29:00.001+07:00

Kepada dia yang menggenggam kehidupan

kupanjatkan maaf tiada terputus

mengemasi satu demi satu serpihan tanya

pergi mencari benar yang tak hanya di kepala

Dari dia yang bersinggasana dalam terang

kudapati keharusan menelan kata

mengikat erat2 renjana dalam pikiran

membiarkan mimpi penuh luka melepuh perih

Kepada dia yang berkalang hujan

kuletakkan salam yang mulia baginya

bersama racau doa meski tak sempurna

sebanyak sayang tak pernah hilang

Dari dia yang membentuk rupa jiwa

kuyakini hati untuk kembali suatu hari

mengais remah-remah atas nama restu semesta

menangisi senyuman di ujung penantian

Tentang Perempuan

2010-10-15T02:11:00.004+07:00

Dia yang diambil dari tulang rusukmu.

Jika Tuhan mempersatukan dua orang yang berlawanan sifatnya, maka itu akan saling melengkapi. Dialah penolongmu yang sepadan, bukan sparing partner yang sepadan. Ketika pertandingan dimulai, dia tidak akan berhadapan denganmu untuk melawan tetapi dia akan ada bersamamu untuk berjaga-jaga di belakang saat engkau berada di depan atau segera mengembalikan bola ketika bola itu terlewat olehmu; dialah yang akan melengkapi kekuranganmu.

Dia ada untuk melengkapi yang tidak ada dalam laki-laki: perasaan, emosi, kelemahlembutan, keluwesan, keindahan, kecantikan, rahim untuk melahirkan, mengurusi hal-hal sepele; hingga ketika laki-laki tidak mengerti hal-hal itu, dialah yang akan menyelesaikan bagiannya sehingga tanpa kau sadari, ketika kau menjalani sisa hidupmu, kau akan menjadi lebih kuat karena hadirnya di sisimu.

Jika ada makhluk yang sangat bertolak belakang, kontras dengan lelaki, itulah perempuan. Jika ada makhluk yang sanggup menaklukkan hati hanya dengan sebuah senyuman, itulah perempuan. Ia tidak butuh argumentasi hebat dari seorang laki-laki tetapi ia butuh jaminan rasa aman darinya, karena ia ada untuk dilindungi. Tidak hanya secara fisik, namun juga emosi.

Ia boleh jadi tidak tertarik kepada fakta-fakta yang akurat, bahasa yang teliti dan logis yang bisa disampaikan secara detail dari seorang laki-laki, tetapi yang ia butuhkan adalah perhatiannya, kata-kata yang lembut, ungkapan-ungkapan sayang yang sepele namun sangat berarti baginya; membuatnya aman di dekatmu.

Batu yang keras dapat terkikis habis oleh air yang luwes, sifat laki-laki yang keras ternetralisir oleh kelembutan perempuan. Rumput yang lembut tidak mudah tumbang oleh badai dibandingkan dengan pohon besar dan rindang, seperti juga di dalam kelembutannya, di situlah terletak kekuatan dan ketahanan yang membuatnya bisa bertahan dalam situasi apapun. Ia lembut bukan untuk diinjak, rumput yang lembut akan dinaungi oleh pohon yang kokoh dan rindang.

Jika lelaki berpikir tentang perasaan wanita, itu akan menyita sepersekian dari hidupnya. Tetapi jika perempuan berpikir tentang perasaan lelaki, itu akan menyita seluruh hidupnya.

Karena perempuan diciptakan dari tulang rusuk laki-laki, karena perempuan adalah bagian dari laki-laki.. apa yang menjadi bagian hidupnya, akan menjadi bagian bagi hidupmu. Karena kau dan dia adalah satu. Dia adalah dirimu yang tak ada sebelumnya. Ketika pertandingan dimulai, pastikan dia ada di bagian lapangan yang sama denganmu.

JUNE OH JUNE!

2010-06-21T04:19:00.003+07:00

JUNE BLOODY JUNE!!

This month is definitely insane..

between the high-pressure deadline,

the lack of time (or my poor time management, to be honest)

the non-cooperative team,

and my obsession over every teeny tiny detail,

I'm screwed!! Pretty much.

The only three things that stop me from using my sharp pair of scissors to stab someone are praying, THE 2010 WORLDCUP, and the fact that my handsome boyfriend is coming at the end of the month!! WOOOHOOOOO!!!

WHAT FOLKS ARE MADE OF

2010-06-10T04:32:00.004+07:00

What are little babies made of, made of?

What are little babies made of?

Diapers and crumbs and sucking their thumbs;

That's what little babies are made of.

What are little boys made of, made of?

What are little boys made of?

Snips and snails and puppy-dog tails;

That's what little boys are made of.

What are little girls made of, made of?

What are little girls made of?

Sugar and spice and everything nice;

That's what little girls are made of.

What are young men made of, made of?

What are young men made of?

Sighs and leers and crocodile tears;

That's what young men are made of.

What are young women made of, made of?

What are young women made of?

Rings and jings and other fine things;

That's what young women are made of.

What are our sailors made of, made of?

What are our sailors made of?

Pitch and tar, pig-tail and scar;

That's what our sailors are made of.

What are our soldiers made of, made of?

What are our soldiers made of?

Pipeclay and drill, the foeman to kill;

That's what our soldiers are made of.

What are our nurses made of, made of?

What are our nurses made of?

Bushes and thorns and old cow's horns;

That's what our nurses are made of.

What are our fathers made of, made of?

What are our fathers made of?

Pipes and smoke and collars choke;

That's what our fathers are made of.

What are our mothers made of, made of?

What are our mothers made of?

Ribbons and laces and sweet pretty faces;

That's what our mothers are made of.

What are old men made of, made of?

What are old men made of?

Slippers that flop and a bald-headed top;

That's what old men are made of.

What are old women made of, made of?

What are old women made of?

Reels, and jeels, and old spinning wheels;

That's what old women are made of.

What are all folks made of, made of?

What are all folks made of?

Fighting a spot and loving a lot,

That's what all folks are made of.

Robert Southey (1774-1843)

Re: something special

2010-06-05T05:51:00.002+07:00

dear errr..what's your name again?,

there you go again, nice touch with those songs and personal stuffs.. we thought you finally got tired or hit by a bus or something.. good to know you're alive, dear..

we're not gonna lie here, your emails did bug us at first..but now we simply see them as hilarious and quite entertaining.. it's amusing, really, to see how hard you're trying to piss us off.. your little evil mind must be getting a bit tired by now, no? we sincerely hope you haven't run out of ideas yet..

we'd like to thank you for sending us those "free entertainment", and basically for your existence , you know, give us something to laugh about since there's nothing good on tv these days.. your existence has also been a great reminder for us to be more grateful for everything we've got.. to be honest, we never truly realized before how lucky we are for having a healthy healthy healthy mind and emotions, unlike some people.. ;)

well, we think that's all we need to say to you.. looking forward to your next move, dear..

warmest regards,

nisa+fatwa

ps. oh by the way, we happen to know a really good shrink, like..a really good one! let us know if you need the number..you know, if somehow you ever get too depressed or have an urge to kill yourself or something like that..we'd be more than happy to help! ;)

the moment of truth

2010-06-02T17:45:00.002+07:00

"Daydream delusion
Limousine eyelash
Oh, baby, with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet cakes and milkshakes
I am a delusion angel
I'm a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don't want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we're going
Lodged in life, like branches in the river
Flowing downstream caught in the current
I carry you, you'll carry me
That's how it could be
Don't you know me?
Don't you know me by now?"

A very beautiful poem from one of my all time favorite movies, Before Sunrise.

--
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old and boring

2010-05-20T05:44:00.002+07:00

Malam ini, mendadak gw kepikiran hal-hal yg suka gw lakuin beberapa tahun yang lalu. Waktu ngelakuinnya dulu sih terasa biasa-biasa aja, bahkan sama sekali ga kebayang kalo suatu hari gw akan menengok ke belakang dan merindukan itu semua.

Gw kangennn nyetir malem2 muter-muter Bandung sendirian, tanpa tujuan dan sengaja nyasar-nyasar dan ujungnya justru bikin gw makin ngerti jalan. Ke Lembang pagi-pagi buta cuma buat minum yoghurt, atau tengah malem jalan kaki nyusruk2 di kebun tomat (lagi-lagi di Lembang) cuma biar dapet spot yg bagus buat ngeliatin bintang.. Main kembang api di lapangan Gasibu, bertingkah konyol seolah-olah ga punya beban.. Jemput temen gw di kost-nya jam 4 pagi cuma ngajakin minum kopi aceh sambil ngobrol2 ngalor-ngidul.. 'Kabur' dari rumah abis subuh ke Ancol, duduk di pinggir pantai, belum mandi, sendirian sambil makan kentang goreng dan ngeliatin orang2 jogging.. Nyetir dari airport menuju rumah dan somehow ended up di Taman Safari (ha!).. Dan masih banyak tindakan-tindakan sejenis yang dulu biasa gw lakuin.. Kangen kangen kangenn!!! Kangen itu semua!

The point is: I miss being impulsive! When I look back at that time of my life, I remember how impulsive and spontaneous I used to be. Somehow I think I still am, deep deep down inside. Like it or not, as I grow older and gain more responsibilities, it gets harder and harder to be impulsive, to be reckless and do those spur-of-the-moment kind of things. Too many things and/or people to consider, too many priorities have got to come first, hence too many crazily impulsive "ideas" to put aside. *sigh*

I hate the fact that now I'm just plain old and boring. Ack!

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menangislah!

2010-05-15T02:10:00.003+07:00

Sometimes in order to help He makes us cry

Happy the eye that sheds tears for His sake

Fortunate the heart that burns for His sake

Laughter always follow tears

Blessed are those who understand

Life blossoms wherever water flows

Where tears are shed divine mercy is shown

[Jalaluddin Rumi]

question marks

2010-05-07T02:09:00.005+07:00

Do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives or if the moments in our lives make us?

If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment, that you've always wanted back.

The Comet

2010-05-05T04:38:00.002+07:00

The girl saw the comet and she felt as though her life had meaning. And when it went away, she waited her entire life for it to come back to her. It was more than just a comet because of what it brought to her life: direction, beauty, meaning. There are many who couldn't understand, and sometimes she walked among them. But even in her darkest hours, she knew in her heart that someday it would return to her, and her world would be whole again.. And her belief in God and love and art would be re-awakened in her heart.

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kangen kamu.. :'(

2010-04-29T23:32:00.007+07:00

Wonder if this constant aching pain in my heart is ever gonna go away.

I miss him.

Terribly.

It hurts when I think. It hurts when I breathe. It hurts when I talk. It hurts when I cry. It hurts when I walk. It hurts when I'm surrounded by other people. It hurts when I laugh out loud. It hurts when I pretend to be all fine. It hurts when I try to sleep. It hurts when I wake up. It hurts when I stand still. It hurts when I'm alone. It hurts when I write. It hurts when I keep silent. It hurts when I run. It hurts when I fake a smile.

GOD!

I miss him so much.

I don't even care if this post makes me look like a stupid dramatic teenage girl.

the same deep water as you

2010-04-26T02:10:00.008+07:00

I've been re-watching early seasons of One Tree Hill these past few weeks.. And there's this one episode in season 4 where Brooke broke up with Lucas for good.. I don't know why, but I find the lines rather heartfelt..

BROOKE: "Listen, I know it’s been difficult for you lately, losing Keith and your heart condition and giving up basketball.. I feel like I’ve been keeping you close to me to try to protect you from those things.. like I’m hanging on to the two of us for you..but not for me."

LUCAS: "I’m sorry I kissed Peyton.. I should’ve told you."

BROOKE: "It’s not about that, Luke.. It’s not.. I thought that it was but this is not about her this is about me.. I love you, Lucas and I probably always will.. But we go days without having a meaningful conversation.. and I used to miss you so much when that happened.. But it never seemed like you missed me and I guess because of it I stopped missing you.. I mean, look at today.."

LUCAS: (v.o) I guess I should’ve said something, anything, I mean, for a guy who wants to be a writer it suddenly seemed like no words had ever been written.. but when someone tells you they stopped missing you.. you’re pretty much screwed no matter what you say.

BROOKE: "There was an accident and you..called me afterwards.. But making a mix with Peyton? Sharing a laugh with Peyton.. It shouldn’t be, should it?"

BROOKE: "..shouldn’t be like this, Luke."

LUCAS: "Brooke.."

BROOKE: "I’m sorry.. I can’t do this anymore."

LUCAS: (v.o) See but there had to be something, right? Something that no one had ever said in the history of the world.. something that could change this.

LUCAS: "Brooke.. I’m sorry."

BROOKE: Yeah, me, too.

Whoa.. It breaks my heart.

Someday

2010-04-24T04:11:00.003+07:00

It's the biggest storm in years they say.
Couldn't take a plane so I hopped a train
I'd like to stay, in a stormy winters day
so I'll come back to you someday

As the states rolled by
its all so clear
I'm everywhere but never right here
It's always the same
constant change.
But I'll come back to you someday

So close so far
so long the world
spin me away

I drive all night just to see your face
The way you touch the way you taste
Even if only for a day
I'll come back to you someday

I speak the truth its all i know
As your tears fall to the snow
and we both know
That tonight I can't say that I'll come back to you someday

blast from the past

2010-04-22T03:23:00.008+07:00

“Aku adalah perempuan yang menghitamkan pelangi, yang merubah sayap cantik kupu-kupu menjadi seonggok debu. Menghancurkan semua yang pernah kusentuh, meluruh bersama guyuran hujan. Aku adalah dosa yang membayangi kemana kaki melangkah. Menyesakkan setiap milimeter ruang dalam paru-paru yang berusaha menghirup udara. Adakah aku layak bertahan dalam hidup, yang bukan milikku, yang bukan untukku.

Pernah singgah masa dimana aku merasa merajai dunia. Melihat semua warna-warni yang pernah dibuat Sang Maha Pencipta. Meraba seluruh permukaan halus sempurna yang terpahat pada setiap sudut waktu. Ketika itu aku merasa bumi terlalu sederhana untuk dipijak. Gravitasi tidak lagi menarik hatiku karena ia dapat mengepakkan sayap nya terbang bebas, kapan saja ia mau, kemanapun ia suka. Mengapa harus memaksa kaki melangkah jika hanya dengan satu jentikan jemari aku dapat melayang ringan, menjelajahi ruang dan waktu. Mengapa harus menahan senyum saat aku bisa tertawa, terbahak-bahak memamerkan keceriaan. Mengapa harus memejamkan mata saat aku dapat terjaga memandang hamparan keindahan yang terbentang luas, tanpa batas.

Namun sungguh kesempurnaan bukan lah sesuatu yang sempurna karena ia tak dapat tergenggam selamanya. Bukan berupa gumpalan zat padat yang dapat kudekap erat dekat dengan debaran jantungku. Bukan pula cairan yang dapat kuteguk untuk selamanya mengalir dalam darah. Ia bahkan lebih ringan dari udara. Tak terlihat. Tak tergenggam. Hanya terhirup sesaat untuk kemudian terhembus pergi.

Aku telah merasakan remuk redam. Menjadi serpihan tipis yang melayang tak tertangkap oleh sepasang mata manapun. Dunia tempat kaki ini biasa berpijak seketika meluruh ke kedalaman tanpa dasar. Menyisakan lubang hitam menganga tanpa sejentik pun cahaya. Dan aku, sang serpihan tak berbentuk, terus saja melayang-layang di dalamnya. Semakin dalam. Semakin gelap. Semakin aku melawan naik, semakin jauh aku terhisap ke dalamnya. Maka kupasrahkan diriku tanpa daya. Aku berdamai dengan gelap. Aku bersahabat dengan sunyi. Dan aku meratap bersama ia yang lebih pekat dari hitam, lebih legam dari malam. Ia lah sang duka.

Sang duka mengajarkanku menangis, dan ia memperkenalkan aku pada air mata. Sungguh janggal bagiku merasakan butir-butirnya meleleh dari sudut mata, menjalari pipi, dan kemudian meninggalkan kecupan di bibirku. Kecupan yang sesekali masih terasa, meski masa datang silih berganti.”

I wish I could just erase all of those dark and painful memories. If only I could just drop them, leave them behind and never look back. But that's the thing about memories, they stay with you for as long as you live. Just like a glimpse of the beautiful ones can still make you giggle or smile goonily, a flash of the painful ones still hurts.

at the risk of being cheesy..

2010-04-19T03:18:00.002+07:00

"Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores

you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you

still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry."

Been there, done that.

Sent from my mobile device

bold what applies to you, or so I was told

2010-04-16T03:46:00.005+07:00

You like showers better than bubble baths. You cannot stand pop music. You have a sister. You are an only child. You have black hair. You have blonde hair. You have red hair. You have glasses. You wear contacts. You like TV more than movies. You don’t talk on the phone often. You like to shop. You like emo music. You are tall. You are short. You are average height. You have long hair. You have medium length hair. You have short hair. You use AIM. You use Yahoo IM. You have more than 3 pets. You like sushi. You love sushi. You are on a diet. You are currently on the second floor of your house. You have a small room. You are in high school. You have 1 little brother. You have an older brother. You are allergic to something. You have a boyfriend/girlfriend. You have a current crush. You have many crushes. You have been kissed. You have kissed another girl. You laugh a lot. You have lots of friends. You are lonely. You are depressed. You are listening to music. You are doing homework. You have school tomorrow. You are sick. You hate your teacher. You think your teacher is OK. There is drama in your school, constantly. You are wearing sweat pants. You are wearing socks. You are wearing a T-shirt. You have lost a loved one. You hate your school. You loved your school. You have been picked on. You have been yelled at. You have gotten in a fight. You have said a bad word. You shop at Abercrombie and Fitch. You play basketball. You play softball. You play baseball. You play soccer. You play football. You hate sports. You get manicures. You shop at Pac Sun. You go to the mall a lot. You are close with your family. You never fight with your parents. You have been grounded. You have driven a car. You are listening to your iPod. You are watching TV.You are watching a movie. You are listening to the radio. You are singing. You are happy. You are sad. You are blah. You are anxious. You are about to go somewhere. You haven’t been out of your house for over 3 days. Someone besides you is in the same room with you. You love your natural hair. You hate your eye color. You wish you were never been born. You write your own songs. You write books. You hate to write. You hate your hometown. You love your hometown. You are smart. You are average. You are dumb. You get good grades. You enjoy having people at your house. You love going to the movies with a lot of people. You like to go bowling with your friends. You have ice-skated before. You like popsicles. You think Vanilla is better than Chocolate.

i don't share.......you.

2010-04-15T22:02:00.001+07:00

Saya tidak akan membagi kamu. Tidak dengan dia, atau dia-dia lainnya. Yang saya tahu kamu milik saya, utuh. Tanpa ragu saya akan menyentil, menepis jari-jari itu, yang ingin mencuil-cuil kamu. Satu serpihan kecil pun saya tak rela membagi.

Kamu hanya untuk saya. Cuma saya. Bilang sama mereka percuma mencoba-coba. Mungkin kalau nanti kesabaran ini sudah di ujung tanduk, saya terpaksa menempelkan karton putih bertuliskan PRIVATE BELONGING OF NISA ALATTAS. Dengan spidol merah tebal, huruf kapital. Atau mungkin dengan Bahasa Indonesia saja, kalau-kalau ada yang perlu buka kamus untuk cari tahu artinya.

Ih, biar saja mereka iri dengki. Siapa suruh mata-mata jelalatan itu dipakai untuk memelototi kamu. Dengan kerongkongan turun naik menelan liur. Biar saja mereka gigit daun pintu melihat kita bersama. Biar sampai habis mereka gerogoti. Biar saja kuku-kuku tajam mereka mencakar menggaruk-garuk aspal. Saya tidak peduli. Dan kamu..ah, terlebih-lebih kamu.

Mungkin tampang saya kurang seram dan perawakan saya kurang sangar, ya? Masih saja ada yang nekat coba-coba mengganggu kamu. Mencoba mencuri kamu dari saya dengan liciknya. Sebaiknya pemilik tangan-tangan jahil itu berhati-hati, kebetulan di rumah saya banyak nyamuk menjelang musim kemarau begini. Apa hubungannya? Tentu saja raket listrik nyamuk selalu siap dalam genggaman. Walaupun pukulan backhand dan forehand saya tidak ada apa-apanya dibanding atlet tennis profesional, tapi dijamin akan cukup menyakitkan. Ditambah sengatan listriknya tentu saja.

Sudahlah. Menyerahlah mumpung belum kehilangan muka. Mau usaha seperti apapun tidak akan ada gunanya. Tidak ada yang bisa memiliki kamu selain saya. Hanya saya. Dan saya tidak suka, dan tidak mau berbagi. Mengerti?

!!!$$###!!^##!

2010-04-13T23:52:00.005+07:00

Have you ever woken up in the morning, all pissed off, wanted to bitch-slap and beat the crap out of someone for something they did in your dream??

Haha. I have. One too many times.

That sort of situation is usually followed by the shame of being stupid. *grin*

(those aren't) Happy Tears

2010-04-10T00:38:00.006+07:00

Banyak sekali berita bahagia yang dateng dari teman-teman dekat gw belakangan ini, sahabat-sahabat gw. Percaya deh, gw bersyukur dan bener-bener bahagia buat kalian. Saat gw senyum dan bilang "Selamat yaaa!!!", itu bukan cuma di bibir aja. InsyaAllah gw tulus, dari dasar hati terdalam.

Tapi tolong maafin gw, kalo begitu gw selesai bales messages kalian, atau tutup telepon kalian, gw mulai ngerasain rasa sakit yang menyesakkan di dada gw. Dan tanpa bisa gw cegah, air mata itu udah mengalir dari mata gw. Gw pengen banget bilang itu air mata bahagia. Gw pengen banget bisa bilang gitu. But I guess that would be a lie.

Gw tau semua udah ada jalannya masing-masing. Gw tau kebahagiaan dan keberhasilan kita gak bisa diukur dengan apa yang dicapai dan dilakukan orang lain. Selama hampir 25 taun gw hidup di dunia ini, rasa-rasanya gw hampir ga pernah berusaha buat meraih sesuatu cuma karena ngeliat orang lain bisa ngedapetin itu. Kalo gw berusaha keras untuk ngeraih atau ngedapetin sesuatu, biasanya karena gw emang pengen, bukan karena si A bisa begini, atau si B bisa begitu. Gw percaya setiap orang punya impian dan harapan yang berbeda-beda untuk dikejar dalam hidupnya. I'm not a competitive person, I believe those who know me will agree on this.

Tapi ini, kebahagian yang lagi menyebar merajalela di temen-temen gw akhir-akhir ini, mimpi-mimpi mereka yang lagi jadi kenyataan itu, itu mimpi gw juga!!! Itu kebahagiaan yang mati-matian gw kejar, yang setiap malam menghantui tidur gw, dan setiap saat gw minta di dalam doa-doa gw. It feels so close, yet far away at the same time. Dan meskipun gw tau semua itu udah ada waktunya masing-masing, gw ga bisa berhenti ngebatin kapan giliran gw dateng. Kapan kebahagiaan itu bisa gw rasain. Dan itulah penyebab air mata itu menetes.

Rasanya menyakitkan. Ya, menyakitkan ketika gw ngerasa orang lain kok jalannya lurus-lurus aja, gampang-gampang aja untuk dapetin kebahagiaan itu. Sementara gw, dan dia, masih harus ngelewatin rintangan yang maha dahsyat sampai entah kapan. Tentunya bodoh banget buat gw mikir kayak gitu, setiap orang pasti punya permasalahan dan cobaannya masing2 yang gw belum tentu tau, kan. Apa yang keliatan di permukaan belum tentu yang sebenarnya, dan ga ada yang bener-bener tau kecuali ya mereka sendiri yang ngejalanin.

Sabar dan ikhlas, rumus paling klise, paling susah, sekaligus paling bener buat semuanya. Ga ada yang namanya kebetulan. Semua hal yang terjadi dalam hidup kita pasti ada alesannya, dan pasti ada hikmahnya. Walaupun sabar dan ikhlas kadang-kadang bisa jadi susaaaaaahhh banget, tapi setidaknya gw terus mencoba untuk itu. Ga ada cobaan yang ga bisa diatasin, ga ada ujian yang ga bisa dilewatin. Dengan penantian dan perjuangan maha dahsyat yang harus gw, dan dia, lewatin ini, kebayang dooonggg gimana extra nya kebahagiaannya nanti!!!! Wooohoooo!!! (Hehehe.. usaha menghibur diri sendiri..=p)

Well, bukan berarti gw udah ga 'tertohok' kalo denger berita-berta bahagia itu lagi, sih. Occasional tears might still fall. Hehehe.. Tapi gw berusaha banget buat sabar dan ikhlas dengan keadaan gw saat ini. Meminjam kalimat sahabat gw yang luar biasa, gw berusaha sabar dan berusaha mengerti cara Tuhan mencintai gw. =)

Easy.. =)

2010-04-03T00:53:00.006+07:00

by. Fatwa Firdaus Abdi

it's a long way back to the beginning developing of romancing

conversation on occasional stimulation not knowing our direction

oh who were we then to have known

ain't nothing but a head with mind of own

oh why didn't we care 'bout difference

we simply had our love as tolerance

we've had distance and time difference as a constant separation but we never need no assistance

though our hands are not together they are ready to discover every corner of our future

but why are they here to bother

they said heaven told us to find another

but no it won't stop us from lovin'

as every dreams i've had we're always on the scene

love is nothing but two souls won't mind their tolls

love is easy

love is nothing but two spirits meant to fit

love is easy

we live in hybrid era from the nano to the tera and a supraficial opera

we've got flights supersonic and we drink gin and tonic in a diverse hegemonic

but why two hearts can't be together

for an innocence of having to differ

but no it won't stop us from lovin'

we know these hearts aren't made to blow a sin

He wrote me this song. I really don't have anything left to say.. *teary-eyed*

Demi waktu

2010-03-26T14:14:00.000+07:00

Demi waktu,
waktu yang membawa kita terdiam, berjalan, berlari dan terjatuh
Dan berjalan bersama
Dan terjatuh
Dan berlari lagi
Hanya saja saat kau berlari menantang pusaran waktu
Aku memilih untuk diam terhisap ke dalamnya
Sudah
Sudah habis waktu bagi kita
Sudah
Aku pergi

Demi waktu,
waktu yang menjadikanmu begitu lelah
Mengeraskan urat nadi
Melawan putarannya
Hingga sebelum kau sadar, kau akan
kehilangan segala yang nyata
Berpasrahlah padanya
Dan pada hari yang mengajakmu serta

Dari sini saja aku diam
Dari sini aku diam dan berjalan bersamaan
Dan berlari saat harus berlari
Dari sini saja aku diam
Karena waktu berjalan
Bukan berputar

Kedondong instead of Kepompong

2009-06-08T03:52:00.002+07:00

Quote of the day:

"Persahabatan bagai KEDONDONG, kadang2 manis, kadang2 asem, kadang2 nyucuk.. "

Ouchh.

ketika Bokap gw kelilipan..

2009-04-18T13:14:00.005+07:00

Eh, hari ini hari Sabtu, kan?? Hari penuh kebebasan buat gw.. Huhuhu.. Bebas ga mandi seharian (tapi sore2 biasanya 'terpaksa' mandi krn mau pergi..=p).. Bebas leyeh2 di kamar sambil ntn dvd/baca buku.. Bebas main sama peliharaan2 gw.. Dan yang paling penting, bebas balas dendam bangun siang bolong.. That's what I love the most about weekend..

Sayangnya hari Sabtu ini berbeda..

Pagi2 tadi, dikala gw sedang asik2nya berkelana di dunia mimpi.. Tiba2 gw kebangun gara2 di luar kamar gw berisik banget.. Suara Bokap gw bernada heboh ga tau ngomong sama siapa.. Nyokap gw nimpalin dikit2.. Duuuuhh.. Ada apa sih ini berisik bangettt.. Tutup kuping pake bantal, coba merem lagi.. Tiba2.. "Nisaaaaaaaaa.. Nisaaaaaaa.. Sini, Nis!!!", suara Bokap memanggil. Pengen pura2 ga denger sih tapi ntar dosa.. huehehe =p Bangun lah dari tempat tidur, kucek2 mata, buka pintu kamar, dengan mata kriyep2 nyamperin Bokap yang lagi duduk di sofa sama Nyokap..

Gw: "Iyaa.. kenapaa..?" Suara bantal mode : on.

Bokap: "Ini sini coba liatin nih di mata Aba' (panggilan buat bokap_red) ada apaan?? Kayak kelilipan kemasukan apa nihh.."

Gw: "Hmmmhh.. Iyaaa" Masih setengah merem.

Nyokap: "Gak tau tuh, tadi sih udah mama liatin ga ada apa2, Singgih (karyawan bokap) juga udah disuruh liatin kayaknya ga ada apa2 deh.."

Yasudah coba lah gw mengangkat2 kelopak mata kanan bokap mencari harta karun.. Huehehe... Ga ada apa2 sih, at least sepenglihatan mata gw yang jelas2 bukan dokter, apalagi dokter mata.

Gw: "Gak ada apa2, kok.."

Bokap: "Ah gak mungkin, coba liat lagi yang bener!"

Laahh.. Gimana ini.. Yaudah coba liat lagi.. Kali ini di teras belakang biar lebih terang di bawah sinar matahari.. Tetep gw ga liat apa2..

Gw: "Ga adaaa.. Coba dicuci aja pake cairan pembersih mata.. Biar kotorannya keluar.."

Bokap: "Oh gitu yaa.. "

Langsung heboh nyuruh Singgih buat ke apotek beli cairan pembersih mata.. Panik kayak mau diserang pasukan sekutu yang diboncengi oleh NICA.. (ok ga nyambung, tiba2 gw inget pelajaran sejarah SD =p) Sementara itu gw bersiap balik ke kamar ngelanjutin tidur.. Ehhh.. Bokap gw berisiiiiikkk bangeettt.. Mondar-mandir ke seluruh penjuru rumah sambil ngedumel2..

Bokap: "ini gak mungkin nih kalo ga ada apa2.. pasti kemasukan sesuatu.."

Nyokap: "iyaaa..makanya udah tunggu aja cairan pembersih matanya.."

Gw: "iyaaa.." Mengangguk2.

Bokap: "coba kamu liat lagi, Nis.. Coba disapu dalem kelopaknya pake cotton bud.." Nyodorin cotton bud.

Gw: "He??? pake cotton bud???"

Bokap: "Iya udah cepetan diusapin gitu ke dalemnya, nanti kan kotorannya keangkat!" dengan nada gak sabar.

Gw (dalem hati): "Buseettttt.. ngeri amaaatttt.." *menelan ludah"

Gw: "ga mau ahh, serem.. ntar malah kenapa2.. cotton bud kan ga steril.. lagian nanti malah luka.. udah tunggu Singgih aja bawa pembersih mata.."

Bokap: "ini gak papa sini pake cotton bud!" Maksa.

Gw: "ga ahh ga mau sereem.. " Terus duduk di sofa samping nyokap.

Gw (bisik2) : "Ih, Aba' rewel banget sih klo sakit dikit aja.. hebohh.."

Nyokap (bisik2): "Iya tuh emang.. Lebay.. Ngalah2in anak kecil ajaa.."

Lalu kami berdua cekikikan..=p Sementara itu bokap masih panik mondar mandir sambil ngomel2 tentang matanya.. Kali ini sambil ngoceh2 kenapa si Singgih lama banget ga dateng2, padahal mah perginya juga baruuuu aja. Buset deh..

Akhirnya bokap gw ga sabar nunggu Singgih.

Bokap: "ayo anterin Aba' ke dokter mata!! Buruan!!!"

Gw: "Yaudah ayo.."

Langsung ke kamar mandi, cuci muka, gosok gigi, boro2 mandi..bisa2 kamar mandi gw di bom sama bokap gara2 dia ga sabar.. huehehhe..

Langsung cabcusss ke Jakarta Timur Eye Center di deket rumah gw.. Sepanjang jalan yang paling cuma brapa menit aja tuh baweeeel bgt bokap gw. Uring2an gitu. Pas nyampe parkiran RS nya penuh bgt, bokap ngomel2 lagi. Akhirnya dia turun duluan sementara gw cari parkir (yg mana akhirnya gw kena omel lagi krn katanya parkirnya kejauhan.. duhh.. nasiiibb nasiiibb.. emang RS nya punya gw apa gw boleh parkir seenaknya!?)

Hmmm.. Hasil dari ke dokter itu adalah mata bokap gw kemasukan kotoran doang, jadi cuman dibersihin aja n dikasih obat tetes mata gitu.. See, biasa aja kannn?? Padahal doi hebohnya udah kayak kebakaran jenggot.. Ckckckckck..

Dari RS, pulang ke rumah lewat jalan tikus biar lebih cepet, emang sih banyak polisi tidurnya.. Tp gw juga nyetir pelan2 aja gak begajulan.. Tiba2 kena lagi gw ama bokap yg lg rewel.

Bokap : "ah, cuma sebentar aja disetirin kamu Aba' udah mual gini.."

Gw : *SIGH* Dalem hati, "buseeettt.. kena lagiiiii.. perasaan dari sekian banyak nya orang yg gw setirin lwt jalan ini baik2 ajaaa.. sabaaarr.. sabaaaarr... he's in a crappy mood.. fiuhh.."

Sampe rumah bokap lgsg msk kamar terus tidur, capek kali ngomel2 dari pagi.. Huehehhe.. =p Nyokap langsung nyamperin gw dan berkasak-kusuk.

Nyokap: "sakit apa kata dokter mata nya??"

Gw: "cuma kemasukan kotoran doang.."

Nyokap: "tuh kannn.. gitu aja hebohnyaaaaa.." Geleng2 kepala.

Huahhh..rusak sudah kenikmatan tidur gw di sabtu pagi yang cerah gara2 bokap yang klo sakit dikiiiiiit aja hebohnya ampun2an.. Siapa yang nyangka kan klo liat sosok bokap gw yang badannya gede, tampak berwibawa (cenderung serem kadang2.. =p hehehe).. Ternyata mata kelilipan doang rewelnya kayak anak kecil.. Huhuhuhu..

as blue as my fingertip.. ;)

2009-04-09T10:47:00.005+07:00

Turns out I'm not THAT much of an apathetic..

I VOTED!!!

Ha!

1st Election Paper :
I voted for the one I had voted on the previous election..

2nd Election Paper :
I voted for one of the "newbies".. For the teeny tiny part of me that somehow is curious of what all the fusses are really about.. I hope I won't have to regret it in the future.. *fingers crossed*

3rd Election Paper:
I voted for the one my Dad actually had told me to.. Hahaha.. Since I got no idea at all.. So I figured, "yeah, why not.. spare me the trouble anyway" *grin*

4th Election paper:
I voted for my cat, Nonie, to be queen.. Haha.. Ok, there's no such thing..

That's it.. I voted.. And PRAY HARD.. For this so-called-chaotic country to get better, somehow..

Or if that's too much to ask, at least for it to not get any worse..

ps. Anywaaaays, can someone tell me how to get rid of this blue ink on my little finger??? It goes against my beliefs...in coolness.. hahahaha.. =p

Love In The Time of Cholera - A Major Disappointment

2009-04-07T02:23:00.005+07:00

Ok, gw bener2 bertanya-tanya.. Bagaimana sebuah film yang diadaptasi dari novel terkenal karangan penulis peraih Nobel, bisa jadi sangat sangat sangat mengecewakan??

Silakan sebut gw basi, tapi gw baru aja nonton film Love in The Time of Cholera yang diadaptasi dari novel berjudul sama hasil karya penulis Columbia peraih hadiah Nobel, Gabriel Garcia Marquez. Novelnya sih gw lumayan suka.

Intinya novel ini bercerita tentang seorang pemuda (Florentino) yang jatuh cinta sama seorang gadis (Fermina) dari kelas sosial yang jauh di atasnya, dan karena 'beda kasta' itu lah cinta mereka ditentang ayah sang gadis yang akhirnya memilih menikahkan anaknya dengan seorang dokter tampan (Dr. Urbino) yang lebih 'sederajat' dengan keluarga mereka. Florentino yang tetap nggak bisa melupakan cintanya terhadap Fermina memilih 'mengobati' sakit hatinya dengan berpetualang dari satu wanita ke wanita lain (sampai ratusan wanita!) sambil menunggu berharap suatu saat suami Fermina akan meninggal dunia dan dia bisa mendapatkan cintanya itu. Dan finally, setelah 53 tahun, 7 bulan, dan 7 hari dalam penantian, Dr. Urbino, suami Fermina (yang udah jd nenek2 =p) meninggal, dan Florentino dan Fermina akhirnya bisa bersama2.

Pathetic ya? Hehe. Emang. Sinting? Tentunya. Tapi dengan rangkaian kata2nya Marquez dan caranya membangun cerita, gw harus mengakui walaupun pathetic dan sinting tapi cerita ini sangat2 romantis.. How long would you wait for love kali yaaa intinya.. Desperately romantic lah..

Tapi begitu di adaptasi jadi film.. Wow.. It's almost laughable!

Pertama, kelihatan bahwa film ini berusaha banget untuk jadi seperti aslinya, termasuk ke urut-urutan ceritanya dan gaya hiperbola ala Marquez. Menurut gw ini blunder banget, karena gaya bahasa novel jelas ga sama dengan film.. Dan tugas film lah buat memvisualisasikan kata2 yang ada di novel kan, bukan justru terus menerus mengutip kata2 di novel untuk membangun cerita..

Kedua, gw tau meringkas alur cerita selama setengah abad dari hampir 350 halaman novel menjadi sekitar 2 jam saja bukan perkara gampang, tapi karena film ini dibuat sangat 'patuh' terhadap alur ceritanya, jadi terkesan kayak nonton ringkasan cerita doang.. Emosi penonton gak kebangun sama sekali.. Seperti dipaksa untuk sedih, terharu, dll, tapi gak ada landasan yang kuat buat merasa seperti itu.. (Reaksi gw saat tokohnya nangis atau sedih adalah "He??? Lebaaayyy.." Huehehehe)

Ketiga, akting pemain-pemain utamanya ga ok.. Terlebih Javier Bardem, aktor Spanyol yang memerankan tokoh Florentino Ariza.. Duh!!!

Keempat, lousy make ups!!! Sumpah yaaa make up tokoh2nya ketika mereka bertambah tua itu jelekkkk bangetttt.. Berasa nonton sinetron-sinetron dalam negeri yang suka maksain pemain muda jadi kakek2 atau nenek2..

Padahal sutradaranya (seharusnya) cukup ok lho, Mike Newell, British Director yang menggarap beberapa film di antaranya Four Weddings And A Funeral, Mona Lisa Smile, Donnie Brasco, dan Harry Potter And The Goblet of Fire. Bahkan skenario adaptasinya digarap sama Ronald Harwood, yang pernah meraih Oscar untuk skenario The Pianist!

Tapi kenapa oh kenapa filmnya jadi jelek beginiiii..?????

Satu2nya yang lumayan di film ini menurut gw adalah soundtracknya.. Hehehehe.. Coba dengerin Despedia yang dinyanyiin sama Shakira di sini. Terbukti lagu ini masuk nominasi Best Original Song - Motion Picture di Golden Globe 2008.

Udah ah.. cape juga ngoceh2 tentang betapa mengecewakannya film ini buat gw.. Semua ini murni pendapat gw aja loh.. Kalo ada yang setuju atau ga setuju ya silakan aja..

The boy who jumped into a cathole.. =D

2009-04-05T20:07:00.008+07:00

Last night I watched Slumdog Millionaire for the 2nd time with my mom (this time on dvd), and still found the movie's simply mind blowing.. The story is genius! But no, I'm not gonna talk about the movie..

It's about Ayush Mahesh Khedekar, the Indian child actor who played youngest Jamal Malik.. He's soooo cuteeee.. Last night, once again, I fell in love with this little guy..

How can anyone not fall in love with him..

Slumdog Millionaire owes some of its big success to this innocent lil' face!!

Oww.. look at him.. He's sooo adorable, isn't he??

With Rubiana Ali, who played youngest Latika, attending the 81st Oscar!

He's just too cute..

even when he's all covered with shit..* LOL..

Oww, Mammaaa.. Can we please go to the store and buy a lil brother for meeee.. I WANT ONE!!! I want one that's just like him, please!!! LOL.. Not that I don't have little brother.. In fact, I have two.. But they're not cute and sure as hell are NOT little anymore.. *shrug*

*) I found out later that the 'shit' was actually made of chocolate and peanut butter.. So I bet the little man had a lot of fun doing that scene.. Hehehe..

faith..

2009-04-03T00:56:00.002+07:00

"faith
is
believing
when
there's
nothing
else
you
can
do"

- Karen Roe (One Tree Hill) -

¡uʍop ǝpısdn s,ʇı ˙˙sssddoo

2009-04-01T01:53:00.002+07:00

˙˙ɹǝʇɐן noʎ ǝǝs ¡ʍou pǝq oʇ ɟɟo

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Earth Hour '09!!!

2009-03-23T22:51:00.001+07:00

Earth Hour 2009!

It's that time of the year again, guys! After an extremely, extremely successful EH 08, we will once again be "hosting" Earth Hour.

On March 28, 8:30pm your timezone, wherever you live on planet earth, simply switch off your lights for one hour!

For additional information click here;
http://www.voteearth2009.org/home/

Hope you will participate!!

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My personal notes:

I have no doubt, the first Earth Hour was a good opportunity to draw attention to the need for energy efficiency.. But then somehow I think that the spread of Earth Hour derivative events have turned it into an excuse for people to feel good about suspending their bad consumption habits for an hour, then starting them up again.. :( *sigh*

This year, beside turning our lights off for an hour, how about we also use Earth Hour as an opportunity to make a permanent change to our energy consumption habits. It's not gonna be easy.. But we can at least try.. Earth loves us sooo much, let's love it back a lil bit more.. ;)

sekarang tolong jelaskan..

2009-03-16T00:02:00.003+07:00

kenapa saya harus membagi gelisah jiwa saya

pada sejalin ikatan yang simpulnya mengurai

pendar-pendar rasa yang terbawa angin

pada kata-kata saya

toh tak dapat terlihat oleh matanya yang nyalang

panas nafas saya yang menderu

pun tak dapat menyentuh lembut kulitnya

lantas kenapa saya harus terus meracau

melagukan risau, cita, dan perih

ketika risau saya tak tertangkap penglihatannya

ketika cita saya luput dari genggamannya

dan ketika perih saya tak tersentuh manis kecupnya

Guy "Phrases" (Translated) wink

2009-03-11T15:31:00.004+07:00

Dating

1. He says: "I'm pretty much single."
He means: "I have a girlfriend, but you're hot."

2. He says: "We should hang out sometime."
He means: "I'm afraid you'll say no if I ask you out."

3. He says: "I'm not looking for a relationship."
He means: "I really just want to do you."

4. He says: "Shall we split the check?"
He means: "I'm not that into you."

5. He says: "Here's an idea: Why don't I just meet you at the restaurant?"
He means: "I'm not gonna pull out all the stops just yet, so I'm not picking you up at your place."

6. He says: "You're such a great friend."
He means: "I never want to date you."

7. He says: "How long was your last relationship?"
He means: "Are you up for a fling or looking for something long-term?"

8. He says: "I'm still getting over a breakup."
He means: "I plan to get over my breakup by dating lots of chicks."

9. He says: "I don't play games."
He means: "I'm a master at game playing, but I don't want you to play them."

10. He says: "I'll call you later."
He means: "I may or may not call you at some point between now and three months from now."

11. He says: "My ex is crazy."
He means: "I screwed her over, and she got upset."

12. He says: "I'm not good at relationships."
He means: "I don't think you're important enough for me to put in much effort."

13. He says: "Let's not rush into things."
He means: "I'm still deciding whether you're girlfriend material."

14. He says: "Your friend is great!"
He means: "If I weren't seeing you, I would go for your friend."

Relationships

15. He says: "My family has been asking about you."
He means: "We are definitely a couple."

16. He says: "My friends loved you when they met you!"
He means: "I think I may love you too."

17. He says: "He seems like a good friend of yours."
He means: "Was there ever a thing between you?"

18. He says: "I'm sorry i haven't called."
He means: "I'm not sorry, but I don't want to deal wit your wrath."

19. He says: "I've never been with someone like you."
He means: "How did I manage to land you?"

20. He says: "My mom is like that around new people."
He means: "My mom isn't a fan of yours."

21. He says: "I'm not going to change."
He means: "I don't have the balls to break up with you, so I'm going to force you to dump me."

22. He says: "Seems like a lot of your friends are starting to get married and have kids."
He means: "Uh-oh, you're going to start freaking out soon."

Dude Behavior

23. He says: "I thought I knew her."
He means: "I was checking her out."

24. He says: "It's a guy thing."
He means: "If I tell you, you'll think I'm an animal."

25. He says: "It's a long story."
He means: "It's a story that makes me look bad."

26. He says: "I don't get why girls like him."
He means: "I'm feeling insecure, so say something reassuring."

27. He says: "I was good on boys' night."
He means: "Good is a relative term...but I didn't cheat on you."

28. He says: "My friend is so whipped!"
He means: "I'm a little hurt that my buddy is choosing a chick over me."

Appearances

29. He says: "You look hot."
He means: "Can we have sex later?"

30. He says: "Isn't that a little revealing for girls' night?"
He means: "I don't want guys hitting on you."

31. He says: "Do I look okay?"
He means: "I'm not going to change, so this better be okay."

32. He says: "That's a new look."
He means: "You look weird."

33. He says: "I really like those shoes."
He means: "I am in so much trouble. I'd better make nice."

Serious Discussions

34. He says: "I just need some space."
He means: "I want out."

35. He says: "I didn't know it would upset you this much."
He means: "I knew it would upset you a little, and that's why I didn't tell you."

36. He says: "Don't you think that's a little bit unreasonable?"
He means: "You're off your rocker, lady."

37. He says: "Why are you being so emotional?"
He means: "Why are you acting like a psycho?"

38. He says: "Yeah, I guess you're right."
He means: "I disagree, but more than anything, I want to end this."

39. He says: "It's not a big deal."
He means: "It's a big deal, but I'm hoping I can fool you into thinking it's not."

40. He says: "That's not what I meant."
He means: "That's totally what I meant, but now that I see you're mad, I wish I hadn't said it out loud."

41. He says: "You're being such a girl."
He means: "I don't understand you at all."

42. He says: "It's fine."
He means: "It's not actually fine, but I'm in no mood to discuss it."

43. He says: "Can we talk about this later?"
He means: "I never want to talk about this again."

Sex

44. He says (in bed): "I love you."
He means: "I love the sex that I have with you."

45. He says: "I don't want the night to end. Want to hang out some more?"
He means: "Let's cut to the chase. Am I getting lucky tonight?"

46. He says: "How many guys have you been with?"
He means: "Tell me I'm the best you've had."

47. He says: "I don't masturbate all that often."
He means: "I masturbate more often than you wash your hands."

48. He says: "I want to watch you touch yourself."
He means: "I am having trouble figuring you out and need pointers."

49. He says: "Did you finish?"
He means: "I hope you finished, because I finished and, boy, am I sleepy!"

50. He says: "You've never done that before--where did you learn it?"
He means: "Have you been hooking up with other dudes?"

Taken from : Cosmopolitan Feb 09

Hate to admit, but I think most of them are trueeeee!!!

Hmmm.. # 1, 6, 7, 15, 17, 18, 20, 25, 26, 27, 30, 31, 35, 36, 37, 39, 40, 41, 42.. BEEN THERE..*sigh*

Whoooops.. Wait.. #42.. been there, DONE THAT, actually.. =p

So how bout you?? Any..umm.. 'experiences', maybe, Girls?? Boys.. defense?? LOL..

Let's hear them out.. ;)

you know, it's almost like... .

2009-03-10T16:46:00.007+07:00

It's almost like you had it planned
It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said
"Hey, I'm about to screw you over big time"
And what was I supposed to do?
I was stuck in between you and hard place
We won't talk about the hard place

But I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life

It's how you wanted it to be
It's like you played a joke on me
And I lost a friend
In the end
And I think that I cried for days
But now that seems light years away
And I'm never going back
To who I was

Cause I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life

I think that I cried for days
But now that seems light years away
And I'm never going back
To who I was

Cause I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life

That life seems like light years away
Light years away
And that life seems like light years away
Light years away

(Light Years Away - Mozella)

There is definitely no other song that can possibly describe it all as perfect as this one, don't you think?

ps. I HEART Mozella so so so so MUCH.. Her voice simply blows my mind!!!!

a thank you note ^^

2009-03-05T00:24:00.007+07:00

dear you,

Cuy, makasi yaaaaaaaa lo dateng ke Jakarta di saat yang sangat tepat.. Di saat gw sangat sangat sangat butuh lo.. Atau mungkin lebih tepatnya gw harus berterima kasih ke bos lo karena udah nugasin lo ke Jakarta di saat yang pas banget sahabatlo lagi 'ancur2an' di sini.. Hehehehe.. Ya ya ya gw tau lo dateng buat urusan kerja.. Ya ya ya.. gw tau lo dateng cuma dua hari doang.. (hiksss.. coba sampe Senin depaaan!!!)Tapi gw teramat sangat bersyukur bangeeetttttttt lo dateng.. Dan gw bisa ketemu lo.. Dan gw bisa 'numpahin' semuanya sama lo.. Dan as always, lo bisa buat gw senyum (bahkan ketawa), di tengah semua 'kekacauan' ini.. THANK YOU!!

It sucks big time that you live far far away.. I miss you a lottttt! Gw (dan nyokaplo.. dan oma lo.. hehe) berdoa gila2an biar lo bisa ditempatin di Jakarta lagi as soon as possible.. Amin amin amin aminnnnnn..

Love you so much, best friend!! *hugs*

Pick another song, Cupcake!

2009-03-02T23:25:00.003+07:00

Lihatlah sebuah titik jauh di tengah laut
Makin lama makin jelas
bentuk rupanya
Itulah kapal api yang sedang berlayar
Asapnya yang putih mengepul di udara
(Kapal Api)

That was one of my favorite songs as a kid.. Damn I'm getting more and more disturbed seeing children singing adult songs these days. The time will come, Kiddos, when you can sing any song about love (between a man and a woman), cheating, heartbreak, separation, you name it. Trust me, the time will eventually come. Until then, can you please pick another song that's much more appropriate for your age, Sweeties?? Mommies, Daddies, Nannies, anyone out there.. can you help them out??? THANK YOU!

My bail is $295.. =p

2009-02-27T17:05:00.003+07:00

I've been so swamped with works these days.. It gets more stessful by the day.. no.. by the minute!!! So here I am taking my ten minutes break, trying to put my mind on something else.. I first read this sort of "test" on my friend's facebook note, and I'm putting it on my blog now.. Let's see how much your bail is.. ;)

1) Smoked pot — $10

2) Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk –$50

3) Cheated on your significant other — $10

4) Been in love with two people or more at the same time — $50

5) Said you love someone but didn’t mean it — $25

6) Went streaking — $5

7) Went streaking in broad daylight — $15

Kissed a co-worker– $ 20

9) Kissed your boss –$50

10) Been arrested — $5

11) Spent time in jail — $15

12) Peed in the pool — $0.50

13) Played spin the bottle — $5

14) Done something you regret — $20

15) Slept with your best friend >– $20

16) Been in love with a stripper — $20

17) Went skinny dipping — $5

18) Been slapped– $5

19) Slapped someone– $5

20) Beat up someone — $20

21) Been jumped — $10

22) Ever had sex in a library — $25

23) Dated someone you met on My Space — $25

24) Cheated on test — $50

25) Vandalized something — $20

26) Slept with someone in your parents’ bed — $100

27) Crossed dressed — $10

28) Given money to stripper — $25

29) Flirted with an officer to get out of a ticket– $30

30) Been with someone 15 years younger — $90

31) Kissed some one who’s name you didn’t know –$10

32) Had sex while at work– $75

33) Ever drive drunk (you stupid ass) — $20

34) Used toys while having sex — $30

35) Got drunk, passed out and don’t remember the night before — $20

36) Had sex in a pool — $20

37) Masturbated — $.10 x each time

38) Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend –$20

39) Done oral — $5

40) Got oral — $5

41) Done / got oral in a car while it was moving– $65

42) Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you– $40

43) Stole something — $10

44) Slept with someone who has been in jail — $25

45) Made a dirty home video — $150

46) Published a dirty home video on the internet –$250

47) Had a threesome — $120

48) Had sex in a public place– $220

49) Been in the same room while someone was having sex — $25

50) Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars –$20

51) Had sex with someone 10 years older — $20

52) Kissed a teacher while you were still a student–$80

53) Lied to your mate — $5

54) Lied to your mate about the sex being good — $25

All you got to do is tally up your answers.. and that is how much your bail's worth..

TELL ME.. HAVE YOU BEEN BAD????? *evil grin*

sleeping beauty

2009-02-20T21:43:00.013+07:00

Well.. well.. well..

it looks like somebody's getting a little too comfortable on my bed.. ;)

Sleep tight, baby.. Don't pee..

Are You Making Judgements.. or Being Judgemental??

2009-02-09T15:38:00.005+07:00

Judgemental, prejudiced and biased individuals make far-reaching pronouncements based on limited information. We all know such people. Their false and extreme generalizations give them away. "Anyone who uses curse words is obviously stupid and uneducated!" "Rock-and-roll fans don’t know the first thing about music!" "People who don’t regularly attend religious services are heathens!"

Most people realize that being judgemental is an unattractive trait. If you look around, you’ll find that most judgemental people are disliked and avoided. The answer to Mom’s reproach, "Why don’t you call your mother more often?" if truthful would probably be, "Because you’re judgemental and tend to pick on me, so it’s unpleasant to talk to you." When people stop being judgemental, they often discover a level of personal happiness that had eluded them.

Yet none of us can help forming opinions of other people. So how does judgemental thinking differ from making judgements? Judgemental people state their views and observations in authoritative terms; they decree what is right and wrong, what should and should not be, what is good or bad. Making a simple judgement, however, does not carry these ominous overtones. "Billy has poor table manners" is a judgement. The judgemental person would add something, such as "Therefore, he’s a slob who was raised by cavemen!"

We make judgements constantly. "He’s good-looking." "She dresses well." "He seems to lack a good sense of humor." "She’s overweight."

In forming opinions or making judgements, there is no moral overtone, no further conclusions are drawn, no inferences are made about the person’s character. We just have the observation or the perception.

As soon as we add "therefore" to the observation, we are likely to be judgemental. "He talks very slowly," is an observation, "therefore, he must be stupid" is a judgemental conclusion.

If you look out for your own "therefores" you are less likely to sit in judgement over your fellow human beings, which will be all to the good for you and them.

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Adapted from The 60-Second Shrink: 101 Strategies for Staying Sane in a Crazy World, by Arnold A. Lazarus, Ph.D. and Clifford N. Lazarus, Ph.D. Available at online and local bookstores or directly from Impact Publishers, Inc., PO Box 6016, Atascadero, CA 93423-6016. Phone 1-800-246-7228.

LOST

2009-02-08T14:48:00.003+07:00

Was it you? Screaming out inside my head
Enormously loud but I could barely hear
Painful as if it were poisoning my blood
Desperate like there were no such thing as an end
Earthbound as all angels lost their wings

Was it you? Crawling in the dimness of my consciousness
Craving to be seen
Exhausted from the fight with the beast inside
Torn as the whiteflag I once refused to raise
Trembling but unwilling to surrender

Was it you?
Are you still there?
or have you given up?
I’ve made peace with myself
Are you still there?

-Jatinangor, April 22, 2006-

let me tell you how it feels

2009-02-07T21:33:00.003+07:00

it feels

like

standing in line for a day, all psyched,

to get Alanis Morissette ticket

and two minutes after you had finally got it

they told you

that the concert got cancelled

:,(

Sara Melson - Never Been Hurt Before

2009-02-06T23:23:00.003+07:00

This song has a magical healing power for me.. I love her voice as well..

doubutsu uranai thingy.. (hmm, whatever that means =p)

2009-02-05T02:57:00.005+07:00

Aniysah
22/07/1985

You are Blue Panther, who is cheerful, lively and light hearted person.
You can keep reason and emotion at a good balance.
You are gentle and peaceful too.
You have deep and wide relationships with people, and there are some whom you would have a long relationship with.
You possess fashionable sense and are well dressed that make people turn around in the street.
You are not good at objective way of thinking.
You rely on your preferences, and the instinct of that moment.
Therefore you cannot accumulate plans.
You are also weak on making quick solutions and coming out with conclusions through careful and strict analysis.
You tend to not be able to find your life objective.
You find your objective through the situation you are in, and by the support of the people around you.
This makes your life divide into two sections, and there may be a possibility that you may lead a totally different life.
You are extremely sensitive and possess natural sense of instinct.
You think too much about people's opinion, and are always feeling unsettled.
You are a romantic sort of person in that you lead your life according to your beliefs rather than depending on talent and capability.
Even after you get married, you should keep your career that requires your good fashion sense.
You will be a good but rather obstinate wife and a mother.

Get yours here.

sakit =,(

2009-02-03T23:35:00.005+07:00

Hari ini tepar sajaaaaa di rumah. Hiks. Penyebabnya adalah hal2 di bawah ini:

First day of my period, yang seperti biasa "dimeriahkan" dengan cramp super duper dahsyat bikin gw guling2an di tempat tidur seharian. Posisi kayak gimanapun salaaaaah aja bawaannya. Gw iriiiiiiiiii sama cw2 yang nyantai2 aja klo lagi having period!!! Period gw hampir selalu diramaikan dengan cramp yang gila2an sampe suka ga bisa ngapa2in gitu.. Dokter gw sih nyaranin untuk check ke spesialis obsgyn.. Tapi gw takuuuuuuutt.. Huhuhu..
Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Beuhhh. Nyiksa bangeeeeetttt rasanyaaaaaaaaaaaa!! :(
Fever. Last time I got checked, it was 39.5 degree Celcius.

Sudah minum 3 macam obat plus satu vitamin. So far sudah mendingan walaupun masih menunggu obatnya bekerja penuh (come on, hurry please!!!). Maunya sih tidur biar sakitnya ga terasa. Tapiiiii, seharian ini udah tidur LUMAYAN banyak, jadi sekarang ga ngantuk sama skali.. :,(

Hmm..

Get well soon, Me!!!

do nothing, please..

2009-01-31T11:14:00.006+07:00

I didn't start all of this, you know..

I didn't.

I barely even knew you.

So.. let's just go back to where we did not know each other.

Everything was perfectly fine before the whole you're-trying-to-be-"nice"- to-me scenario, remember? Didn't anyone tell you that your little trick was such a lame-o, girly girl? Oh,well..

I admit, I was a bit pissed off.

But hey, I moved on.

And now..

I don't give a tiny rat's ass about you, dear..

I really don't.

And if I removed you from my friends list, that's because, let's face it, we're never friends.

As simple as that. Is it too hard for your pretty little head to understand, huh?

Do nothing would be your smartest move.

Do nothing.

DO NOTHING.

Can you do that instead of adding me back over and over again (even after I ignored you)?

Can you do that, dear?

lagi lagi..

2009-01-28T18:43:00.006+07:00

Hmmm..

Lagi-lagi blog baru.

Entah berapa blog udah gw buat (dan kemudian tinggalkan) dalam beberapa tahun belakangan ini. Dari jaman masih pake seragam putih abu-abu lengkap dengan kisah cinta berjuta rasa khas abg labil. Jaman awal kuliah dengan euphoria nya sendiri. Jaman patah hati dan (sok) gak percaya sama yang namanya cinta.  Jaman jatuh cinta (lagi). Kemudian jatuh (lagi). And the list goes on and on and on and on.

Yup, that's me.. Si anget-anget tai ayam, my mom calls me. =p

Dan hari ini, blog baru lagi.

Apakah akan bertahan atau bernasib sama seperti blog-blog gw sebelumnya?

Let's just wait and see.. (and hope ;) )

facts about my fav songs (part 1)

2007-04-02T13:00:00.002+07:00

Whoah.. How's life? Mine's been pretty uptight lately.. It's fun though.. I experienced few things that i'd never had the chance before.. Finally I could make my brain a little useful.. hehehehehe...

Just browsing around on the internet today, and i found this very cool site www.songfacts.com where you can find the simple little facts about soooooo many songs.. Like who wrote it, what inspired it, where was it wrote, et cetera.. Pretty cool, isn't it?

Here are some facts about some of my favorite songs...

1. Till There Was You - The Beatles

Facts:

This was written in 1957 for the Broadway musical The Music Man. It was written by songwriter Meredith Wilson, who also wrote "76 Trombones" for the same musical as well as the seasonal favorite "It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas."

Paul McCartney loved show tunes and wanted to cover this. His favorite version was Peggy Lee's.

The Beatles played this song, along with "She Loves You" and "Twist And Shout," at the Royal Command Performance of 1963. Paul credited it to their "Favorite American group, Sophie Tucker."

The Beatles performed this on their first Ed Sullivan Show appearance, February 9, 1964. This was a huge event, as Beatlemania had just come to America. This was the only song they played that night that was not one of their hits - they put it in to appeal to the older audience that was tuned in. As they played, the camera zoomed in on each Beatle and superimposed their first name. When it got to Lennon, it read, "Sorry girls, he's married."

This was also performed during the Beatles appearance on the Royal Variety Show on November 4, 1963. It was probably also appealing to the older audience and it provided a break between the up-tempo numbers, "She Loves You" and "Twist and Shout."

2. You Were Meant For Me - Jewel

Facts :

Jewel wrote this with Steve Poltz from The Rugburns. He also appeared in the video with Jewel.

This was Jewel's second single. "Who Will Save Your Soul" was her first.

This was the most played song on US radio in 1996.

The video was directed by Sean Penn in 1996. It featured Jewel in a couple scenes shedding her clothes. Jewel has said the "shedding" symbolizes "being free with a lover or friend. Being stripped and surrender yourself to them."

3. The Drugs Don't Work - The Verve

Facts :

Verve lead singer Richard Ashcroft wrote this. It's partly about the death of his father when he was 11, but it also refers to he and his wife's life.

This was The Verve's only #1 hit in the UK.

4. The Way - Fastball

Facts :

This is based on the true story of Lela and Raymond Howard, an elderly couple from Salado, Texas who drove to a nearby family reunion and kept going. She had Alzheimer's disease and he was recovering from brain surgery. When they disappeared, a reporter from the Austin American-Statesman wrote a series of articles about the missing couple. Fastball bassist Tony Scalzo came up with the idea for the song after reading the articles (the band is from Austin). He says, "It's a romanticized take on what happened" - he "pictured them taking off to have fun, like they did when they first met." However, he found out after writing the song that the couple had died. They were found at the bottom of a canyon in Arkansas about a three-day drive from their destination.

5. Champagne Supernova - Oasis

Facts :

Noel Gallagher got the title when he misheard the name of the Pixies album Bossanova. He was watching a documentary about champagne at the time.

Noel Gallagher has a house in North London that he named "Supernova Heights."

Paul Weller, former frontman of The Jam, played guitar on this.

This was one of the few Oasis songs released as a single in the US. It went to #1 on the Modern Rock chart, and for a while it looked like Oasis was going to break through in The States.

Noel came up with the phrase "Caught beneath the landslide" when he saw a sugar jar in his girlfriend's kitchen. You can see this peculiar jar in the disk booklet where the lyrics are printed.

6. Losing My Religion - R.E.M

Facts :

The title is a Southern expression meaning "At my wit's end," as if things were going so bad you could lose your faith in God. If you were "Losing your religion" over a person, It could also mean losing faith in that person.

This won the Grammy in 1991 for Best Pop Performance by a Duo or Group with Vocal.

The video was the first to show lead singer Michael Stipe dancing. The director hung out with the band to get ideas, and when he saw Stipe's spastic dance style, he thought it would look great in the video.

The band claims this is not about religion, although the video is full of religious imagery. Some Catholic groups protested the video.

In 2003, Stipe told Entertainment Weekly, "Losing My Religion was a fluke hit. It was a 5 minute song with no chorus and a mandolin as the lead instrument. So for us to hold that as the bar we have to jump over every time we write a song would be ridiculous."

The video is based in part on Gabriel Garcia Marquez' A Very Old Man with Enormous Wings. The novel tells the story about an angel who falls down from heaven and how the people who make money displaying him as a "freak show."

7. Ironic - Alanis Morissette

Facts :

The events described in the song (rain on your wedding day, a traffic jam when you're already late, etc.), are not examples of irony. Irony is the use of words to convey the opposite of their literal meaning. The one actual, ironic statement in this song is, "As the plane crashed down he thought 'well, isn't this nice'..." Sarcasm is an example of irony, and this thought, clearly, was a sarcastic one.

At the end of the song, Alanis says life has a funny funny way of helping us out - in spite of all of the bad stuff that we have to go through. The bad stuff helps us get to where we are going, and that is ironic.

This was Morissette's third single and first Top-10 hit. Her first single, "You Oughta Know," is probably her best known, but no one had heard of her when it was released and it only hit US #13.

Glen Ballard produced this and wrote it with Alanis. He has also worked with Dave Matthews and has a history of radio-friendly production. Morissette moved from Canada to Los Angeles to write and record with him.

This is one of 5 hits on the album, which has sold over 16 million copies. The others are "You Oughta Know," "Hand In My Pocket," "Head Over Feet" and "You Learn."

This was nominated for Grammys in the categories Record Of The Year and Best Short Form Music Video.

In 1996, this won MTV Video Music Awards for Best Female Video, Best Editing, and Best New Artist In A Video.

This was the first album Morissette released in America, but as a teenager, she released 2 dance albums in Canada. Her stage name at the time was simply "Alanis."

8. The Man Who Sold The World - David Bowie

Facts :

This is about a man who no longer recognizes himself and feels awful about it.

For years, Bowie struggled with his identity and expressed himself through his songs, often creating characters to perform them. On the album cover, Bowie is wearing a dress.

Some of the lyrics are based on a poem by Hugh Mearns called The Psychoed -

As I was going up the stair, I met a man who was not there, he wasn't there again today, I wish that man would go away.

The actual man who sold the world, at least Bowie's world during this phase of his career, may have been Adolf Hitler. Bowie's fascination with this topic is evident in his '70s move to Berlin and his return to Victoria Station in 1976 in full SS uniform, complete with salute and open top Mercedes.

Some lyrical analysis: "We passed upon the stair" is a figurative representation of a crossroads in Bowie's life, where Ziggy Stardust catches a glimpse of his former self, (being David Bowie) which he thought had died a long time ago. Then he (the old David Bowie) says: "Oh no, not me. I never lost control." This indicates that Bowie never really lost sight of who he was, but he Sold The World (made them believe) that he had become Ziggy, and he thought it was funny (I laughed and shook his hand). He goes on to state, "For years and years I roamed," which could refer to touring. "Gaze a gazely stare at all the millions here" are the fans at concerts.

The album is one of Bowie's least-known, but over the years many fans have come to appreciate it and a lot of bands have covered songs from it.

British singer Lulu ("To Sir With Love") recorded this in 1974. Bowie produced her version and played saxophone on the track. It went to #4 in the UK.

Nirvana recorded this for their 1993 MTV Unplugged performance. Months after that show, Kurt Cobain was found dead. The acoustic set was released as an album in late 1994.

9. Heaven - Los Lonely Boys

Facts :

Guitarist Henry Garza wrote the lyrics as a prayer. When he was 18, his son died of sudden infant death syndrome (S.I.D.S). It's about the pain he felt and wanting to escape this world and see his son.

Los Lonely Boys are 3 brothers from Texas. They are bilingual - some of the lyrics to this are in Spanish.

This won a Grammy for Best Pop Performance By A Duo Or Group With Vocal. Los Lonely Boys perfomed at the 2005 show.

10. Creep - Radiohead

Facts :

In the album version, lead singer Thom Yorke sings, "You're so f--king special." For radio, he recut it as, "You're so very special." Yorke regrets changing the line for the radio version, saying it disturbed the "sentiment of the song." According to him, the song lost its anger as a result.

Yorke says this is about being in love with someone, but not feeling good enough. He describes the feeling as, "There's the beautiful people and then there's the rest of us."

Yorke wrote this in 1987 while he was a student at Exeter University in England. He first recorded it acoustic.

This was written before the band formed. Yorke gave his demo version to Colin Greenwood, who joined him and helped put the band together.

This wasn't released in the US until Radiohead's debut album in 1993. The band finished college and signed their record deal in 1991.

Yorke based this on a song called "The Air That I Breathe," which was written by Albert Hammond and Mike Hazlewood in 1972. After "Creep" was released, Radiohead agreed to share the songwriting royalties, so this is credited to Yorke, Hammond and Hazlewood.

This did well in the US, but not in their native England. When they released their third album, O.K. Computer, it was huge in England but not in the US.

When this was first released in England in 1992, it flopped. It did well when it was re-released a year later, after Radiohead grew a fan base.

The first country this charted in was Israel.

The video was recorded at a club in Oxford called The Zodiac.

posted by. niSa.. --<---<@

what is your irrational fear???

2007-03-18T13:19:00.002+07:00

You know they say every people in the world must’ve had at least one irrational fear or widely known as phobia.. Me myself, I’ve got two.. I’m insanely afraid of rhodents (rats, mice, even hamsters, etc) and crossing the street. Some find the second one a bit ridiculous.. But it’s true.. Everytime I stand on the side of the street, try to cross it by myself, my knees tremble and my hands get cold. Few times I forced myself to cross the street alone, and what happened was I ran across the street, with my eyes closed.. Then I realized I could’ve killed myself..

Just the other day, I searched the site www.phobialist.com and O MY GOD I’ve just known that there are sooooo many types of phobias in the world.. I can’t even imagine that some of them are really experienced by any people.. You can go and check the site yourself if you want to search through all those phobias.. But here I post some of them that might be useful for your knowledge.. and also I post some of the most ridiculous or odd ones (from my opinion..=p).. Well, just read below... ^^

Achluophobia- Fear of darkness
Acrophobia- Fear of heights
Ailurophobia- Fear of cats
Alektorophobia- Fear of chickens
Antlophobia- Fear of floods
Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single
Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders
Arithmophobia- Fear of numbers
Aviophobia or Aviatophobia- Fear of flying.
Atychiphobia- Fear of failure
Batrachophobia- Fear of amphibians, such as frogs, newts, salamanders, etc.
Belonephobia- Fear of pins and needles. (Aichmophobia)
Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces.
Coulrophobia- Fear of clowns.
Dromophobia- Fear of crossing streets --- this is me...
Enochlophobia- Fear of crowds
Hemophobia or Hemaphobia or Hematophobia- Fear of blood
Insectophobia - Fear of insects.
Melanophobia- Fear of the color black
Necrophobia- Fear of death or dead things
Nosocomephobia- Fear of hospitals
Obesophobia- Fear of gaining weight (Pocrescophobia)
Ophidiophobia- Fear of snakes
Pediophobia- Fear of doll
Phasmophobia- Fear of ghosts
Scoleciphobia- Fear of worms
Thalassophobia- Fear of the sea
Trypanophobia- Fear of injections
Xyrophobia-Fear of razors
Zemmiphobia- Fear of the great mole rat ---and this is me again...

And here are the odd ones.. hehehe..

Ablutophobia- Fear of washing or bathing
Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth (hahaha)
Barophobia- Fear of gravity
Bibliophobia- Fear of books
Cacophobia- Fear of ugliness
Caligynephobia- Fear of beautiful women
Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting
Chrometophobia or Chrematophobia- Fear of money
Cibophobia- Fear of food (Sitophobia, Sitiophobia)
Coprastasophobia- Fear of constipation (hahahahahahahaha......)

Decidophobia- Fear of making decisions (huh????)
Didaskaleinophobia- Fear of going to school
Eleutherophobia- Fear of freedom
Epistemophobia- Fear of knowledge
Euphobia- Fear of hearing good news
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words (yea, it’s scary how long the word is.. hehehe..)
Hypengyophobia or Hypegiaphobia- Fear of responsibility
Ideophobia- Fear of ideas
Logophobia- Fear of words
Mnemophobia- Fear of memories
Nomatophobia- Fear of names
Geliophobia- Fear of laughter
Ouranophobia or Uranophobia- Fear of heaven
Panophobia or Pantophobia- Fear of everything
Peladophobia- Fear of bald people
Philemaphobia or Philematophobia- Fear of kissing
Phobophobia- Fear of phobias
Phronemophobia- Fear of thinking
Somniphobia- Fear of sleep
Sophophobia- Fear of learning
Testophobia- Fear of taking tests

Well, tell me... which one are you???? Hehehehehe...

posted by. niSa.. --<---<@

The New Look.. Yaaaayyy...!!!!

2007-03-01T00:34:00.001+07:00

Still working on this new look of my blog.. What do you think?? I kinda like it simple.. (uhm, more because my html skill is very “cupu” actually.. hehehehe) The picture on the top was taken while I was driving on one sunny afternoon with my friends Uty and Kendy.. Kendy took it from the backseat without telling me.. I almost forgot bout the pic til I open the pic folder on my laptop recently.. I thought I could use it for a banner with a simple little touch.. Mmm, okay enough bout that..

Next is some stuff I found while I was blogwalking the other day.. How to play is 1st you should shuffle/randomize your songs playlist (WinAmp, iPod, mp3 player, etc) and just simply answer each question with the title of the song that’s playing at the moment. No skipping, even if the song title doesn’t match the question. That’s the fun of it.. And of course you can add some comment after each answer, whatever you like.. Let’s play..

1. How are you feeling today?
>>Tony Rich Project - Nobody Knows But Me
(huhuhuhu... "i'm crying inside..and nobody knows it but me???" really??? )

2. Will you get far in life?
>>Five For Fighting - Something About You
("it's been a long time comin'.." so i guess yeah..i'll get far.. hehehehe)

3. How do your friends see you?
>> Pas Band ft. Bunga - Kumerindu
(uuuuhh.. so they miss me, huh?? so sweeeeeeetttt..... =p)

4. Will you get married?
>> Weezer - No One Else
(I want a MAN who will laugh for no one else.. then i'll get married.. huhuhuhuhuhuhu...)

5. What is your life's theme song?
>> Serieus - Jomblo Jomblo Bahagia
(hahahahahahaha...... this life's theme song would be really cool if I were jomblo.. )

6. What is the story of your life?
>> Will Smith - Summer Time
(my life's been like summer time so far.. it's HOT.. *in Paris Hilton style* hehehe..)

7. What was high school like?
>> Foo Fighters - No Way Back
(yeah.. i know.. there's no way back to highschool.. it can never happen again.. those sweet old times..)

8. How can you get ahead in life?
>>Weezer - Across The Sea
(huh?? by crossing the sea?? i've gotta befriend with popeye the sailorman first then.. hehehe..)

9. What is tomorrow going to be like?
>> 9 Matahari - Puisi # 12
(hmmm, i wish i won't be that pathetic tomorrow.. hehe)

10. What is the best thing about your friends?
>> City & Colours - Save Your Scissors
("there's no way that i want you to be left behiiiiiiind...." yeah, they won't leave me behind.. i know that for sure..)

11. What is in store for the next weekend?
>> C'mon Lennon - Aku Cinta J.A.K.A.R.T.A
(hmmm... maybe i'm coming home then..)

12. What song best describes you?
>> Alexander Klaws - Sunshine After The Rain
("i'll be your sunshine after the rain.. when the sky turns to grey..you know that i’m not far away".. hmmmm..)

13. How is your life going?
>> Bonjovi - Runaway
(yeah, i'm a little runaway...)

14. What song will play at your funeral?
>> Rialto - Underneath a Distant Moon
("goodbye world.. adios.. this is where i'm getting off.. they say i'm lost..but i'm happy here.." I wish I'm happy “there” when my time comes.. amiinnn..)

15. How does the world see you?
>> Ash - Shining Light
(it sees me as shining light.. huhuhuhuhuh.. cool...)

16. Will you have a happy life?
>> All 4 One - Someday
(hehehehehhe... "someday, when we are wiser.. when the world's older, when we have learned.." yeah, i'll have a happy life then..)

17. What do your friends really think of you?
>> Avril Lavigne - Anything But Ordinary
("sometimes i get so weird, i even freak myself out.." hehehehe.. yeah i guess i also freak my friends out sometimes.. )

18. What song describes the person you're attracted to?
>> Michael Buble - How Sweet It Is
(yeah, "how sweet it is to be loved by you...")

19. What message would you like to tell the next generation?
>> GIGI - Lailatul Qadar
(speechless, hmm.. really good message anyway..)

20. Do you have a deep dark secret?
>> Ari Lasso - Lirih
("bersama rembulan...aku menangis.. mengenangmu... sgala tentang muu.. kumemanggilmu..dalam hati liriiihh...")

21. Do people secretly lust after you?
>> All 4 One - Smile Like Monalisa
( They secretly lust after me everytime i smile like monalisa? duhhh..)

22. How can you make yourself happy?
>> Elliot Yamin - Trouble
(by looking for trouble i guess.. just love pumping that adrenaline.. hehehe..)

23. Will you ever have children?
>> Weezer - Only in Dreams
(what????????????????????????? T_T )

24. What's the good advice for you?
>> Corrine Bailey Rae - 'Til It Happens To You
( "you won't believe what love can do til it happens to you..." well, okay.. thanks for the advice..)

25. How will you be remembered?
>> Destiny's Child - Bootylicious
(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA... "my body's too bootylicious for you, babe"...)

26. What is your signature dance song?
>> Beyonce - Naughty Girl
(good song for dancin'..)

27. What do you think of your current celeb obsession?
>> Bryan Adams - Heaven
(hmmmmm.... JOSH HARTNETT... sweet heaven o' mine.. you're all that i want, baby... hehehehehe..)

posted by. niSa.. --<---<@

for your eyes only... ^_^

2007-02-18T01:55:00.002+07:00

yang terindah bukan ketika dua pasang mata bertemu,
atau jemari menyatu..
yang terhangat bukan saat senyum terulas,
atau kau mencoba mengerti..
yang terbayang bukan saat tawa mengurai,
atau maaf terulur..

hadirmu adalah keindahan yang menghangatkan dan membayangi
kemana jiwaku melangkah

i'll think of you 'til then.. 'til we meet again..

2007-02-17T15:01:00.000+07:00

I've been missing some friends of mine for some time now.. Some of them have been very busy lately that we can't seem to find the time to hang out, or even to chat on the phone...

First, there's my 'brother' back in highschool, we actually go to the same uni and (technically) live less than a mile apart.. We're close and he always considers me as the little sister he's never had.. We used to tell each other everything.. But now, I haven't seen him for months!!! It's like we're living in the two completely different worlds.. We've been busy and can't seem to find the right time to meet and chat face to face.. I miss him.. I miss the old times..

Then there's one of my girl from epals (my so-called-gang back in highschool.. hehe..).. We go to the different uni and different city.. Not that far, actually.. But still.. The only place where we probably could get together is Jakarta.. Sadly, most of the times that she goes back to Jakarta, I'm not there.. And by the time I go to jakarta, she's not there either.. It's been years since the last time I met her.. Sometimes we catch up by phone.. But it's way less than enough.. :(

And the last one is 'the bestfriend of my life'.. We've been bestfriends since junior high.. She graduated last year and has been working in a bank since then.. She's been soooo busy with her job plus the working-hour is so damn long (she usually gets home by 10 p.m.!!!).. Not to mention she's been having some problems with her boyfriend for some times.. I understand completely that her life may be get a bit messy nowadays, that she feels terribly exhausted.. But as her bestfriend, I want to be there for her.. I want to support her.. I want to listen to her.. But how can I possibly do all those things when she didn't even tell me that she'd changed her cellphone number??? Everytime I called her I just got her voicemail.. I found out her new number anyway, and she apologized.. Still, it made me a bit upset..

Well.. the point of this post is that I miss them.. Badly.. I miss my 'brother', my 'e' from 'epals', and last but definetely not least.. 'the bestfriend of my life'..

'Til we meet again, then..

posted by. niSa.. --<---<@

i'm a pro?? hehehe..

2007-02-16T19:48:00.000+07:00

See, this quiz result says that I'm a professional girlfriend.. hahaha.. Should probably get paid for being a pro, huh??? But maybe that'll make me a professional b*tch.. hehehe...

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

posted by. niSa.. --<---<@

in those hands of Yours..

2007-02-05T20:34:00.001+07:00

In those hands of Yours
My immortality should lay
Far beyond boundaries
Sail on the river of tears
Upon a million prayers

In those hands of Yours
I shall find a path
For mine to be somewhere
Beneath the merciful thoughts
Lighten as I stumble

In those hands of Yours
My born was written
Through their hands of saintly
The ecstasy has been gathered
And the nuisance has been healed

In those hands of Yours

-Jatinangor, Februaray 2 2007-

posted by. niSa.. --<---<@

craving for existance, huh??! =p

2007-01-29T10:45:00.001+07:00

Yesterday, my mom asked me "what is a blog?" .. Then, after I explained to her, her second question was "why do you blog?" .. Mmm.. took me a while to think of an answer..

Why do I blog..? Well, apparently I blog for no specific reason.. I just love having a place where I can put anything I like.. My random thoughts, my stories, my stupid poems, basically anything.. I like to keep them some place else beside in my own head.. I like to share them, even if nobody cares to read.. I don't give a damn of how many people read my post.. And I don't care whether people like it or not.. I blog simply because I want to blog..and I enjoy doing it.. Hell with _quoting a friend =p_ craving for an existance whatsoever.. Hehehehehe..

Anyway.. enough about that.. The rain is pouring down outside.. And the big breakfast I had this morning's kinda showing its effect to me.. I'M SLEEPY.. Ughh.. I think God's punishing me for eating like a pig.. Hehehehe..

-the kinda look of my face after the big breakfast..=p-

posted by. niSa.. --<---<@

straight jacket feeling

2007-01-27T12:49:00.001+07:00

I remember a few months ago.. There was one windy night, me and some friends hung out together.. We wanted to cheer my broken-hearted friend.. We talked.. We laughed.. We sang.. Tried our best to make him smile..

From all of the songs we sang that night.. There's one song that I remember the most.. There's one that until now, everytime I hear that song.. I remember him.. My broken-hearted friend.. And I remember that night.. The night I saw true pain in his eyes.. Eventhough he finally smiled, he just couldn't hide the sorrow..

Here's the song... Straight Jacket Feeling from The All American Rejects..

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel

Try this on, straight jacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win

Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when the memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away

Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

Sadly, I've never seen him again since that night.. I don't know how he is right now.. Hopefully his pain's healed.. He's a good man.. I pray for him to find his true love.. I pray for him to be happy.. No matter where he is right now.. No matter what he's doing.. Simply because he deserves it..

posted by. niSa.. --<---<@

little low..

2007-01-21T21:59:00.001+07:00

It's raining outside.. This kinda cold weather usually makes my mood a little low.. But now , it's not the weather.. It's just me..

Let's just say..I heard someone mentioned a name.. The one that I'd never expected to hear on that kinda conversation we had.. Well, actually I've had no reason to be upset whatsoever.. From the beginning I knew I wouldn't have a chance when it comes to this matter.. From the beginning I knew it would come up eventually.. I thought it wouldn't bother me this much.. But I guess I was wrong.. It does upset me.. A lot..

Well... maybe I've just got to get used to it.. *sigh*

posted by. niSa.. --<---<@

new template.. no earthbound...

2007-01-21T06:21:00.001+07:00

Still can't sleep.. :(

I've got a new template.. I'm kinda bored with the old template so I put this new one.. Actually I don't really like the colors.. But I love the picture of the angel above.. Mmm.. maybe next time I'll search for another template.. I wish I could make it on my own.. I've had tons of idea in my head.. Unfortunatelly I'm just too stupid to put them in html whatsoever.. TT

posted by. niSa..--<---<@

staying up all night..

2007-01-21T04:46:00.001+07:00

Well..well..well.. it's 4.30 in the morning.. and I am not feelin' sleepy at all.. Err, I got up at 12 p.m yesterday.. Maybe that's the reason why I can't manage myself to sleep now.. While waiting for my eyes to get tired, here I am doing some blogwalking, filling out some craps at bulletin boards, and singing along.. huhuhu..

Here's one of the q/a thingy I found in one of my friends' blog.. So not important.. I don't even know why I'm posting it here.. Though none of my posts here is important.. hehehe..

1.Story behind your fv song?
foolish games.. mmm..just love it..
2. What month were you born in?
july
3. Where do you live?
jakarta-and this middle of nowhere called jatinangor

D E S C R I B E Y O U R . .

4. Wallet:
mmm..long..corduroy..retro printed
5. Dream car:
mmm ford ranger.. prefferably red..=p
6. Toothbrush:
oral-b
7. Jewelry worn daily:
rings
8. Pillow Case:
white with blue dots
9. Eyes:
mmm..little.. =p
10. House color:
uhhmmmm...mostly white, green, and the natural color of bricks
11. Love life:
perfectly fine =)
12. Cologne/Perfume:
mmm..now?? after sunset-peach
13. CD in stereo:
none
14. Piercings:
none

W H A T A R E Y O U . . .

15. Wearing:
skinny jeans, maroon t-shirt, dark blue sackdress
16.Wanting:
mmm..good grades this semester..
17. The last thing you ate?
caramel pop corn
18. Something you are afraid of?
rat, crossing the busy street
19. Do you like candles?
very much..
20. Do you like the taste of blood?
puhlease!!!come on...
21. Do you believe in love?
very much indeed
22. Do you believe in soul mates?
yup..
23. Do you like seafood?
very very very much..
24. Do you remember your dreams?
sometimes
25. Do you consider yourself a study freak?
nu uh.. not at all..
26. Do you like tattoos?
like to see it on other's body.. not on mine.. hehehe..
27. Do you believe in miracles?
mmm..sometimes i guess..
28. Do you burn easily in the sun?
yup.. my face will turn red like boiled crab
29. Do you speak another language?
mmm.. does body language count??
30. What's something you wish you could understand better?
people around me
31. Are you shy around your crush?
hehehehe... sometimes..
32. Got any plans for the weekend?
nope..just go where the wind blows.. hehehehe
33. Do you miss anyone?
yup.. my peeps..
34. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
nope..
35. Orange juice or apple?
definetely orange..
36. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with?
danan
37. What was the last text message you sent?
masih,... knapa?? kmu blm bo2?
38. Lucky number?
11/24
39. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
mmm..few months ago i guess..
40. Have you ever won a trophy?
yup..
41. Are you a good cook?
eerrr... not really...
42. Have you ever eaten a snake?
nope..
43. Do the Chinese really use cats in their food?
what?? i mean..really?? never heard of it.. i hope they don't..
44. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
yup.. from kindergarten til highschool..
45. What was the last movie u saw in the cinema?
blood diamond
46. Would you rather find true love or be a millionaire?
what if he's a millionaire??? hehehheh..
47. Do you believe in love at first sight?
well i thought i did.. but i don't anymore..
48. What is/are your favorite animal(s)?
dog,cat,horse
49. Who is the second last person to call you?
my mama
50.What do you like about yourself?
there's no other me.. ;)

panic! is my middle name..

2007-01-18T12:57:00.001+07:00

Right now I'm working on my ass.. whoops.. I mean my final ASSignment for my Media Planning subject.. And I'm stuck.. So here I am..blogging.. hehehehe.. The deadline is tomorrow morning, by the way.. But what the hell.. What's wrong with all those lecturers who think of us as the real media planner.. Hellooo.. We're not.. We're just some 4th-year undergraduate students who've been working our asses off to graduate as soon as possible.. Please don't hold us back.. Please, Sir..and Ma'am..

Ughhhh.. GOD.. My Merciful GOD.. Please please please let me graduate this year.. Hopefully next semester... *crossing my fingers*.. And also let me pass the "kapita selekta komunikasi" subject which final exam last tuesday was my worst exam ever.. Hiks.. Uhhhm GOD, do I ask for too much?

if only i could write a song..

2007-01-13T11:21:00.001+07:00

aku mengenalmu dengan sejuta rasa

yang menjadikanmu lebih nyata

dari sekedar mereka yang mengaku cinta

dengan berbagai rupa tawa itu selalu ada

mengiring waktu yang mengukuhkan

hari-harimu dalam genggaman jemariku

inilah masa yang kuharap bisa

menjadi beku oleh beningnya pagi

di mana kau menyapa

meski hanya sedetik kuharap kau untukku

today is the day...

2007-01-07T21:44:00.002+07:00

hmmm... today is absolutely the day.. i don't even know where to start.. well, let's just say that i'd been earthbound for quite a long time.. and now.. i'm officially spreading my wings to fly and soar above the sky.. above all my fears.. above all my nightmares..

i guess you don't get what i'm talking about, do you? hehehe.. sorry.. it's just too hard to express how i feel when all of the sudden i'm back up on cloud #nine.. *wink*

i said i was happy..but i lied.. i was much more than happy.. and i am much much much more than happy now..

hmmm... eventhough i've got cold and terrible headache.. eventhough i've only slept for 2 hours.. eventhough i've got tons of readings to catch up.. eventhough my assignments are waiting to be finished.. but i can't feel bad at all today.. happiness is without a doubt the only thing on my mind..

i'm feeling like posting a lyric here for someone tonight..

GOODNIGHT MY SOMEONE (Shirley Jones)

Goodnight, my someone, goodnight, my love.
Sleep tight, my someone, sleep tight, my love.
Our star is shining its brightest light,
For goodnight, my love, for goodnight.

Sweet dreams be yours, dear, if dreams there be
Sweet dreams to carry you close to me.
I wish they may and I wish they might.
Now goodnight, my someone, goodnight.

True love can be whispered from heart to heart,
When lovers are parted they say.
But I must depend on a wish and a star
As long as my heart doesn't know who you are.

Sweet dreams be yours, dear, if dreams there be
Sweet dreams to carry you close to me.
I wish they may and I wish they might.
Now goodnight, my someone, goodnight.

Goodnight! Goodnight!

well.. goodnight to you all..

the day of quizes... ;)

2007-01-03T11:00:00.001+07:00

I'm going back to Jatinangor this afternoon.. Hiks.. Sad to leave home, especially knowing that I might not come back soon.. I'll have my final exams next week and my job training at Female Radio will start right after.. So, apparently no break for me until the next semester.. :(

Anyway.. today I took some quizes from www.blogthings.com.. just for killing time.. And I'm posting the results here so you all can see.. But before, i've got to warn you that the stuffs i'm posting are really2 unimportant.. So if you have better things to do.. Just close my blog's window and do your things.. But if you're really that bored and absolutely have nothing else to do.. Keep reading!!! Hehehehe...

It turned out I'm more a cat than a dog.. Miaooww...

You Are: 30% Dog, 70% Cat

You and cats have a lot in common.
You're both smart and in charge - with a good amount of attitude.
However, you do have a very playful side that occasionally comes out!

Are You More Cat or Dog?

I was really excited to find out how gross I am.. Hehehe.. Luckily, it said I'm not that gross.. fiuhhh...

You Are 36% Gross

You're a tad gross, but generally you're a clean, hygienic person.
No one can be perfectly clean all the time, and it's better to be human than a neat freak.

How Gross Are You?

I guess I always know that I'm more a right brained than a left brained.. But still I took this quiz...

You Are 45% Left Brained, 55% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

What is my PERSONALITY??? hmm.. kinda exciting... Eventhough the result said that I'm Idealist???? Huhuhuhu.. I guess it's a little too good to be true.. =p

You Are An INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

What's Your Personality Type?

And finally this one.. I only took all these quizes for fun.. I was so shocked when I found out the result for this one.. Because, it's so damn right.. Everything it said about me is true.. Simply true.. Quite shocking.. Hehehehe...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Fiuhh... actually I took more quizes but I think it's too long to post them all.. Well I guess now at least you know what to do to kill your time beside reading my unimportant post, rite??? Ciao...

2007 has come... wink

2007-01-01T13:33:00.000+07:00

It's officially the first day in the year of 2007.. So far so good.. haha.. It's only been less than 14 hours, actually.. =p

How bout my new year's eve??? Hmmm.. I spent it in the most unusual way.. Totally different from the past years.. But I enjoyed it very much.. It was great.. For those who happened to know what I was doing last night.. Please.. i mean PLEASE.. forever hold your silence!!! hehehehe...

Anyway.. I do have many big hopes for this year ahead.. But I guess I'd better keep them for myself and simply do my best to make them come true.. This year's definetely gonna be the year full of hard works and efforts.. But, hey.. gotta work to get the cream, haven't we all?

Last but not least.. let me wish you all a bright and happy New Year.. o^_^o

me... counting down...

2006-12-31T18:42:00.000+07:00

Hey.. hey.. hey.. 1st of all i'd like to say Happy Ied Adha to you.. Today my whole family gathered at my grand parents' house celebrating the big day.. I ate a lot of lamb.. huhuhu.. Lamb is definetely my fav kinda meat.. Molto delicioso!!! =p

And tonight.. Tonight is New Year's Eve.. Hmmm..I can't believe 2006 is almost over.. There are LOTS of things happened to me this year.. Not only the good ones, but also the terrible ones.. hehehe.. To be honest, this year's been pretty tough for me.. But I'm thankful for everything that happened to me this year.. I believe everything's happened for a reason.. And this "tough year"of mine has made me a stronger..and (hopefully) a better person... =)

Before this year is really over.. I guess I can think back a little while and just answer these questions I've got from FS Bulletin Board.. Just a little self reflection.. ^_^

1) Was 2006 a good year for you?
hmm.. not my favorite year so far..

2) What was your favorite moment of
the year?
my 2 months in middle of nowhere called Sembawa for KKN credits

3) What was your worst moment
hmmm.. that one night (ironically) in the holly month..

4) Where were you when 2006 began?
somewhere around jakarta

5) Who were you with?
fatwa

6) Where will you be when 2006 ends?
somewhere around jakarta =p

7) Who will you be with when 2006 ends?
them!!! lucky me.. ;)

8) Did you keep your new years
resolution of 2006?
didn't even have new year resolutions

9) Do you have a new years resolution
for 2007?
hmm.. graduate with good grade.. amin..

10) Did you breakup with anyone in
2006?
i did

11) Did you make any new friends in
2006?
sure.. lots of new friends.. *grinch*

12) Who are your favorite new friends?
them.. my "second family" for the unforgettable two months

13) What was your favorite month of
2006?
mmm..december i guess..

14) Did you travel outside the country
in 2006? Where?
once.. only to that teeny tiny island over the sea..

15) How many different country did you
travel to in 2006?
look above..

16) Did you lose anybody close to you
in 2006?
kinda..

17) Did you miss anybody in the past
year?
yea.. lotta people i guess..

18) What was your favorite movie that
you saw in 2006?
whoa.. i can barely remember.. i saw tons of them..

19) What was your favorite songs from
2006?
mmmm... another hard question.. there are many.. but i can only think of "again & again - Jewel" for now..

20) What was your favorite memory from
2006?
hmmm...my survival from that terrible 'thing'.. ;)

21) How many concerts did you see in
2006?
errr...3..

22) Did you have a favorite concert in
2006?
yup.. oka.. oka.. oka..

23) Did you drink a lot of alchohol in
2006?
never..

24) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2006?
what kinda drugs? i used some pain killers and some other medication.. hehehe

25) How many people did you kiss in
2006?
hehehehee..how can I tell? =p

26) Did you do anything you are
ashamed of this year?
kinda.. hehehe.. there was one thing i did that i'm very much ashamed of.. but i'd rather not mention it here.. hehehehe...

Well.. I gotta go now.. I do hope your New Year's Eve is going to be some kinda night to remember... Goodbye 2006!!

me... being girl.. o^_^o

2006-12-30T15:01:00.001+07:00

Here I am.. posting again.. huhuhuh.. I know I've been pretty moody with this blog thingy.. Anyway, I'm home now.. Just got back from bandung half an hour ago..

Yesterday I went to nangor to do my media research assignment which has to be collected this morning.. I spent very long and depressing hours doing that damn assignment I almost cried out loud.. I was so happy when I finally finished it..

After that.. eventhough I was exhausted, yet I still couldn't manage myself to get into bed.. So I reached my cell phone and called Uty.. We chatted for over an hour.. After I hung up with uty.. I tried to call Shinta.. But she didn't pick up.. I guessed she'd been asleep.. But then she called me.. She said she'd fallen asleep but my call woke her up.. And then the whole "girls talk" ritual started again.. I looked at the clock when I finally hung up the phone.. It was almost 2 in the morning! hehehehe.. I spent hours talking on the phone with them but sure it didn't feel that long at all..

Talking with my girls is nothing but fun.. fun.. fun.. We tell each other everything.. We share stories..gossips..anything.. We laugh.. sometimes hysterically.. hehehe.. It's always been fun.. I haven't spent much time with my girls lately.. So at least I try to catch up by phone.. Hopefully after final exam, few weeks from now, we can manage some time to hang out together.. I kinda miss them..

Especially for Diyan, Shinta, Uty, Uwhie, Tiwi, and Ita.. If you read this post, babes.. I'm really looking forward to spending some quality time together with you all.. It's sad we can't celebrate new year together as we planned before.. Anyway, hope you all have a very happy new year.. Love you..

Hmm.. I guess that's all for now.. I'll post again soon.. Hopefully before this year really ends.. Ciao!

me... being such an ass..

2006-12-23T01:18:00.001+07:00

i hurt someone today..

i hurt him..

i hurt someone who's been nothing but a great companion..

i hurt him.. simply because i don't want to hurt him more..

for your eyes only.. *) if you read this post.. i know that my apologize will never be enough..

however, i'm truly sorry for all the pain i've caused you..

and also.. sorry for blaming you for all the things i just couldn't do..

you've done nothing wrong but letting me hurt you this bad..

i'm such a big ass..

*) yeah, it's for you, ndi... :'(

me.. and my super fantastic mom...

2006-12-16T10:21:00.000+07:00

Today is my mom's birthday and i'm dedicating this post for her..

My mom was born in Jakarta 47 years ago.. She married my dad on July 1984 and had me, her 1st child, a year after.. I can really say that my mom is a super cool mom.. She's been more like a best friend to me.. We tell each other everything.. Sometimes we fight, but we always make up.. My mom can be very childish at one time, and very wise at the other time..

I can never imagine any other mom would ask her daughter to skip classes so they could go shopping together, for example.. My mom does those kinda things sometimes.. That doesn't make her an irresponsible mom whatsoever.. It makes her fun.. and makes my friends envy me.. hehehehe..

My mom's taught me so many things about life and showed me how to be tough no matter how hard it's treating me.. She's simply my idol..

There are lotta other things that i'm so proud about my mom.. No words are gonna be enough to describe her.. My Mom is absolutely the figure of a mother i wish to be someday.. It's very amazing to have her as my mother.. I can never thank God enough for that, just as i can never tell her enough how much i love her..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MA.. WISH YOU ALL THE BEST.. THANKS FOR BEING SUCH AN INCREDIBLE MOM FOR ME, OGI, AND AI (AND NONIE.. hehehe).. LOVE YOU!!!!

me.. talking about my baby..

2006-12-15T17:33:00.001+07:00

I'm so excited that i'm gonna spend this weekend in Jakarta.. I miss everything back home.. I guess it's a good thing to come home for a while in the middle of my hectic schedules, hope it'll recharge my spirit.. hehehe..

One of the things I hate from living away from home is that I can't be around my baby.. Yea, I've had a baby.. hehehe.. Her name is Nonie.. She's my beloved grey-white angora cat.. I’ve had her since she was a 3 month-old kitten.. She’s a big girl now, 5 years old on last November 16, although sometimes she acts as if she were a kitten… Well, she’s more than just a cat to me, she’s my bestfriend, she’s my baby, she’s definitely a part of my family… So sad I couldn’t be home celebrating her birthday last month.. So this post is dedicated for my Nonie…

Nonie Loves:
Cheese (can’t get enough of it)
Bread
Sardines
Any kind of meat
Any kind of fish (as long as it’s not salted)
Ice Cream (especially chocolate and vanilla)
KFC (even just the smell drives her crazy)
Iced tea (odd cat…huhuhu)
Drinking from the sink
Scratching couches (makes my mom pissed)
Being spoiled
Sitting on the roof at night (seducing my neighbour’s cat..hehe)
Rain
Being scratched on her neck
Hiding in closet, cabinet, cupboard, anything with doors..

...my beloved Nonie...

Nonie Hates:
Being yelled at (believe it or not, she usually yells back..)
Spicy foods
Flies
Umbrella (dunno why)
Lizard
Little kids (she hides from them everytime)
Being alone
Bells
Big rats (actually, she’s embarassingly afraid of them.. hehehe)
Riding in car
Her vitamins

I guess that's all for now about my Nonie.. more post about her in the future.. MIAOW..

me.. denying...

2006-12-10T20:59:00.001+07:00

Aku dan Bayangan

Mengapa harus terucap sebuah tanya
Saat kau tahu kelu yang terasa
Dalam malam yang menemani
Perjumpaanku dengan sebentuk bayangan

Bukankah tawaku telah menjadikannya nyata
Dan air mataku telah membentuk rupanya
Tapi nyata ternyata hanya di kepala

Perjumpaanku dengan sebentuk bayangan
Membentangkan apa yang mereka kata
Semua yang selalu kutepis
Karena hanya aku yang mengerti rasa

Perjumpaanku dengan sebentuk bayangan
Menyisakan ilusi yang indah
Tentang mu

-my comfy litegreen-maroon room, december 10 2006-

me.. and my so-damn-sexy voice...

2006-12-08T11:36:00.001+07:00

woke up this morning with this kinda voice.. hiks.. yeah, i've got flue.. and it's not like i don't know how i get that.. the weather's been awful lately.. very sunny and dry in the day and then non-stop heavy rain in the night.. there are so many people i know who're getting sick from this kinda weather..

for those whose voices sound just as sexy as mine.. for those who sneeze.. for those who've got red noses.. i send you my biggest simphaty.. heheheh.. GET WELL SOON!!!!

me.. on a high..

2006-12-01T17:08:00.001+07:00

huahhhh... i'm so happy!!! finally i have internet connection in my room.. no need to spend hours in warnet again.. hihihii..

this morning, Andin, Ida, and I, went to SMUN 5 Bandung to do some research for our Media Literacy Project.. While waiting for the principal, we wandered around the school.. The building's so amazing.. with its antiquated architectures.. such as very high ceiling, huge windows and doors, etc.. my friends actually found the atmosphere's a bit creepy.. hehehe.. but since i've got huge interest in old buildings, i didn't sense anything wrong.. huahh.. i love the school.. the building.. the atmosphere..

and suddenly i miss being high school student.. i had such a great time back in high school.. made great friends also.. if only i could turn back time just for a day.. i'd come back to one of those days.. just to smile again and then freeze the memories forever..

missing my high school buddies rite now.. missing esti, pipiet, lani, shita, alfred, jack, magma, ichad, dhechan, dewi, dwita, arina, nophe, adhek, and everybody whose face and story stays inside my head.. under the big chapter of High School Memory...

me... short posting..

2006-11-29T19:58:00.001+07:00

It's been a while.. Lotta things happened in the past few weeks.. But here I am.. as good as new.. at the end of November (almost the end, i mean) .. So far this November's been pretty kind to me.. I've got TONS of things to be thankful and to be celebrated.. Alhamdulillah..

Anyway, people keep saying that which doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger... Well, i think that's pretty much true.. Been there.. Done that.. And guess what, I'm alive.. Stronger than ever..

This is probably it for now.. I've got lotta assignments and research to do.. Post again later..

me... leaving you for a while... =)

2006-11-11T22:00:00.001+07:00

JANGAN KIRIMI AKU PUISI

Jangan kirimi aku puisi
Aku jengah dengan kata
Tentang rasa
Tentang hati
Rasa yang bukan rasaku
Hati yang bukan hatiku

Jangan kirimi aku puisi
Terpejam sebelah mata
pun dapat kuraba
Rangkai bias tanpa arti

Jangan kirimi aku puisi
Imaji yang kulihat sejak melek mata
Sampai ku berkubang di dalamnya
Melekat walaupun sudah berkali-kali mandi

Kirimi aku bintang jika langit meminjamkan!!
Hanya
Jangan kirimi aku puisi

-jtnangor, 9th November 2006- on my comfy litegreen-maroon room

me... singing the same song over and over..

2006-11-09T21:51:00.001+07:00

Couple days ago, i was at my friend’s car when he suddenly turned up the volume of the mp3 player and started to sing along.. I’d never heard the song before.. After following a line or two.. I started to laugh out loud.. It’s one of the songs from Pop Circus (the latest album from Project Pop) entitled Ngancem.. Since it’s Project Pop’s, I guess it’s supposed to be funny.. But this one, I found the lyric was so hilarious.. My friend kept repeating the song over and over.. and I just couldn’t stop laughing...

I’m posting the lyric here so you could picture it, though you’ve still got to hear the song your self... You might not find it that funny.. But I don’t know.. for me and my friend that night on the car all the way to Bandung (escaping the black out in this middle of nowhere called Jatinangor), the song was very funny.. Uhmm.. Probably because we associated it with one little story we’re kinda familliar with.. Hehehehehe.. Again, I don’t know..

Ngancem - Project Pop

kalau nanti kau jadi pacar temanku

hati-hati dengan kupingku

jika sampai ku dengar kamu selingkuh

hindari jumpa denganku

kalau nanti kau jadi pacar temanku

hati-hati dengan mataku ya

jika sampai ku lihat wajahnya murung

kupanggil orang sekampung

***aku sudah lebih dahulu coba jadi pacarnya

tapi ku ditolak melulu

cuma bisa jadi sahabatnya

kalau nanti kau jadi pacar temanku

hati-hati jaga dirinya

dia terluka

kau pasti merana

kalau nanti kau jadi pacar temanku

hati-hati dengan hidungku

jika sampai ku cium hidung belangmu

ku belahkan hidung aslimu

jika nanti temanku jadi pacarmu

hati-hati dengan matanya

kalau sampai dia nangis karna ulahmu

ku cukur sebelah alismu

jika kau bosan jadi pacar temanku

jangan coba kau buang dirinya

kembalikan dia kepadaku

kembalikan dia kepadaku

Hmm... it still makes me laugh every single time..

Yesterday, after a very exciting class about Semiotics, I spent long hours doing the “take home” exam with my friends. And right when I felt I was about to explode, my friend Danan called (he’s the friend i’ve mentioned before at the beginning of this post__see..I write down your name on my blog.. ), he said he was bored to death and then we decided to go to Bandung.

First we thought we’d grab a fine dinner at Sierra. But half the way there, i suddenly felt like watching movie.. Hehehe.. So we went to Paris van Java, the new spot located in Sukajadi. I’d been there two times before, watching Departed and Devil Wears Prada. The place’s got Blitz Megaplex with its 9 big theaters and a very cozy atmosphere.. I really like it there..

Without considering Danan’s desire to watch Kuntilanak (hehehe.. sorry babe, you know i never like horrors), we watched The Guardian.. The story’s about United States Coast Guards, starring Kevin Costner and Ashton Kutcher.. Hmm.. Ashton Kutcher’s so damn pretty, huh.. (Lucky you, Demi! ) hehehe.. Overall the movie’s not bad.. We had quite a good time.. The movie finished past midnight and we both walked out the theater trying hard not to scream..HUNGRY!!!! Hehehehe.. We grabbed a bite at CabeRawit, the one in Ciumbuleuit, and then we went home.. Sleepy yet happy.. Hehehehe.. Thanks for the fine night,pal.. Hope it cheered you up..

Today was just fine... I went to an interesting discussion this afternoon, What Killed The Newspaper, it was basicly about the vanishing newspaper nowadays.. After that, i met few friends and then we went to eat.. I met somene who’s completely ruined my “just fine day”.. Someone who’s trying to cut me out of his life for a silly reason.. Hey, could you just grow up and be a man??

Enough from me.. I bet no one’s reading these craps anyway.. Da svidaniya!

me.. trying hard to keep my sanity..

2006-11-07T18:23:00.001+07:00

This week’s just started.. but it’s already been a very busy one.. Tons of assignments to do.. *sigh*.. It feels like my head could explode anytime soon..

Not to mention since I’m about to resign from my work.. it’s my responsibility to train the new person who’s gonna replace me.. while doing my routines as well.. ughh.. It’s Tuesday and already I just can’t wait for Saturday night to come..

Hmm, at least being busy keeps me away from thinking about unimportant subjects.. Such as life, and how awful it’s been treating me lately.. huehehehe.. I’m not complaining.. It’s just like the new roadsign I’ve got on my car.. “LIFE ISN”T FAIR.. GET OVER IT..” I bought that solely because I thought it’d be cool.. Hope I doesn’t sound too cynical.. In fact, I do hate cynics..

Anyway, I've promised my ‘unbelievably annoying’ bestfriend (sorry for using that phrase, bro.. =p) that I will put the lyrics of these songs on my blog.. So here they are… ^_^

Five for Fighting - Superman (It's not easy)

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me
I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see
It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away…away from me
It’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
It’s not easy to be me.

James Blunt - You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
fuckiing high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

me... missing him...

2006-11-03T22:19:00.001+07:00

last night i had that dream

the same dream i had when you left

i woke up trembling and frightened

that was when i realized

i could never lose you twice..

(written in a loving memory of Thomas Rasja Farrez)

I'm wondering... bisa ga yah sahabat gw itu tau apa yang gw tulisin di blog ini dari alam nya yang lain di sana.. Karena gw pengen bilang sama dia kalo gw kangennnn banget sama dia.. i know it might seem unbelievably stupid.. but here it goes..

dear Thomas,

it's been.. what.. almost 3 years now.. and that's how long i've been missing you.. gw pengen cerita2 sama lo lagi.. gw pengen becanda2 sama lo lagi.. gw pengen cela2an sama lo lagi.. gw pengen sama lo.. tadi pagi gw ngeberesin kamar gw dan ga sengaja nemu fotolo.. foto lo, gw, sama adit di DUFAN.. gw nangis.. pasti lo ngetawain gw kalo lo liat.. pasti lo ngatain gw cengeng.. tapi tetep pasti lo bakal meluk gw kalo gw nangis.. kayak dulu.. iya kan?

eh kunyuk, lo tau ga.. gw sempet marah sama lo.. knapa lo ga crita semuanya sama gw? knapa lo simpen semua itu sendiri?? knapa gw ga tau apa2 sampe semuanya udah terlambat???

tapi sekarang ironisnya, baru setelah gw ngerasain berada di posisi yang nyaris sama kayak lo dulu, gw ngerti kenapa lo ga cerita sama gw.. gw ngerti.. karena lo sayang sama gw.. karena lo selalu sayang sama gw.. iya kan?? lo ga mau bikin gw khawatir kan.. lo ga mau bikin gw takut.. karena gw terlalu sayang sama lo..

nyuk, gw sekarang sama kayak lo dulu.. dan gw pengen banget bisa crita sama lo.. karena lo pasti tau persis gimana rasanya.. gimana takutnya ga punya cukup waktu.. damn, THOMAS!!! coba lo ada di sini.. skarang..

gw ga pengen ngerasa takut.. tapi gw takut.. bangett..

hmm.. gimana rasanya di sana? bodoh ya pertanyaan gw.. hehehe.. lo main2 dong ke mimpi gw.. atau kirimin gw postcard from heaven kek kayak judul lagunya Lighthouse Family.. hehehe..

Thomas.. baik2 yah di sana.. someday we'll meet again.. gw sayang dan kangen banget sama lo..

love, nisa.

Gw berharap.. somehow, dia baca tulisan ini.. konyol emang.. tapi gw ga peduli..

me... at the end of holiday..

2006-10-28T21:33:00.001+07:00

Huahh... Time does fly when you're having fun.. Gak krasa banget liburan lebaran udah abis..bis..bis..! Senin lusa udah mulai kuliah lagi.. Udah mesti siap2 midtest.. Udah mesti ngadepin tugas2 lagi.. Hiks..hiks..hiks.. Padahal baru ngerasain seru2nya liburan pas di akhir2..

Hari ini... jalan sama my girlfriends back in high school dulu.. Pipiet, Lani, n Shita (harusnya tambah Esti... hehehe.. next time ya, sti..) Seru banget.. curhat2an.. ngegosip (yeah, we're girls!).. shopping (again, girls!).. Pokonya seneng lahhh..

Left to right : Lani, Shita, Me, Pipiet

Dan.. kalo udah ngumpul.. yang ga mungkin lupa ya.. photo session.. huhuhu.. Jepret.. jepret.. dari mulai pake digicam ampe pake kamera hape.. Sampe diliatin sama orang2.. Bodo amatttt!!! Huhuhuhu... Buat yang tadi sore ada di J.Co Plasa Semanggi dan enek berat sama kelakuan empat cewe aneh banci kamera yang ga tau malu... Maap yahh.. *peace!*

Besok gw balik ke Bandung (or Jatinangor to be exact =p).. Hmm.. Lotta things've been waiting for me back there.. and lotta people also.. huahuahua.. (hello kamuuu.. yg lagi nyengir2 baca postingan ini.. iye2 tenang ajah.. i'll keep my promise..)

Hmmm.. bingung euy mau nulis apa lagi yahhh... Karena gw bingung,berikut ini dengan kurang berkaitan dengan tulisan di atas, gw taro foto gw dan Shita waktu lagi jadi penerima tamu di resepsi kawinannya Wino (Lani's brother).. Gw sangat teramat gak pede dengan make up super tebel yang membuat gw merasa rada2 kayak mau mejeng di Taman Lawang.. huhuhu..

Left to right: Mas Ais, Me, Shita

Anak kecil ndut ganteng dan lucuuuu bgt yang gw gendong itu namannya Mas Ais (Lani's nephew).. Sumpah itu anak lucu bangett.. Pasti kalo udah gede bakal ganteng banget dehh (mupenk ganjen).. Kira2 kalo dia udah gede mau gak yah sama gw??? huehehehe.. Kalo dia gede?? gw udah tante2 kali yeee..

me... menyambut Idhul Fitri... =)

2006-10-23T22:42:00.001+07:00

Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar Allahhu Akbar
Allahu Akbar Walillahilham…

Subhanallah, ga berenti2 gw denger suara takbir dimana2 dari ba’da maghrib tadi.. Malem takbiran tahun ini bener2 indah banget buat gw.. Sempet2 muter2 Jakarta juga tadi sama sodara2 gw.. Nikmatin hiruk pikuknya konvoy dimana2..Pawai dimana2.. Sepintas mirip suasana malem taun baru.. Tapi bedanya, malam ini nyanyian Takbir yang berkumandang dimana2.. Subhanallah..

Udah gitu, pas gw balik ke rumah ternyata bokap udah masang obor banyak banget di halaman rumah gw.. Baguuuussss bangeeetttt.. Cahaya obor2 di malam hari plus suara takbir yang ga putus2 itu nyiptain suasana yang syahdu bangett.. I shed a tear.. Rasanya Allah begitu dekat..

Anyway.. Besok Lebaran.. Saat yang dinanti2kan stelah sebulan menahan diri dari nafsu.. Saatnya merayakan kemenangan itu.. (buat yang menaaang… hehehe..) Saatnya menikmati enaknya ketupat, sayur, opor ayam, semur, rendang, sambel goreng, dan apapun yang dimasak ibu atau istri anda di rumah..hehehe..

Mudah2an kita semua ‘terlahir’ kembali menjadi manusia yang lebih baik.. Dan semoga tahun depan kita semua masih diberi nikmat umur untuk ketemu lagi sama indahnya Ramadhan.. dan nikmatnya Lebaran.. Amin..Amin Allahuma Amin..

Ehm..ehm.. Nisa mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Idhul Fitri… Semoga amal ibadah Ramadhan kita diterima oleh Allah Subhaanahuwata’ala...

Mohon maaf yang sebesar2nya buat semua kesalahan (yang disengaja) dan kekhilafan (yang ga disengaja) gw.. Maaf buat kata2 yang menyakitkan.. Buat becandaan yang kelewatan.. Buat celaan yang menusuk hati.. Manusia ga ada yang sempurna.. Marilah kita saling memaafkan biar ga ada lagi dendam dan penyakit hati lainnya nangkring di hati kita.. hehehe..

One more thing, berhubung operator GSM tampaknya sudah mulai nge-hang.. Jadi gw ga tau apakah semua sms Lebaran yang gw kirim bener2 sampe ke setiap orang.. Buat yang belum terima sms dari gw.. Mohon maaf.. Percayalah, mungkin sms dari gw itu lagi nyasar2 nyari lokasi handphone lo.. Atau coba2 dateng ke rumah tetangga lo, pinjem hapenya, trus cek inboxnya.. mungkin sms gw nyasar kesitu.. hehehe…

Eid Mubarak, Everyone!!!!!!

me... melawan nyamuk2 nakal..

2006-10-22T02:31:00.001+07:00

Adalah rapuh yang menisik helai demi helai
tanyaku untuknya
Adalah sunyi yang menjadi temannya
Bukan bisu yang membuatnya
tak terkata
Bukan beku yang merubahnya
menjadi satir tanpa cela
Kemudian nelangsa mempertegas raut duka
hingga ada

(di tengah macetnya Jakartaku, 20-10-2006)

Lately kok gw lagi lumayan produktif nulis yahh.. dan karena mood untuk bikin coret2an isi kepala itu datengnya ga liat2 waktu.. benda yang paling sering jadi media temporernya ya hp..

Hmm, sekarang jadi bertanya2 sendiri apa jadinya kalo tawaran untuk nerbitin tulisan2 gw itu datangnya sekarang... bukan waktu itu di saat gw lagi di manja sama kenyamanan yang bikin rasa dan isi kepala gw jadi tumpul.. Mungkin..oh mungkin.. gw bakal jadi penulis beneran... Yahh, ternyata bener yang namanya kesempatan itu belum tentu dateng dua kali.. Masalahnya, seperti juga mood nulis gw yang kadang ga terduga kapan munculnya.. tawaran berharga juga suka dateng di saat2 yang paling tidak diharapkan.. Yasu lah yaaa..

Sedikit ga nyambung sama tulisan di atas (sedikit???), gw mau meratapi udara di Jakarta yang sekarang sumpaahhh lagi panas2nya.. Bolak-balik ganti baju yang basah sama keringat (tapi gak bau lohh..).. Bolak-balik kamar mandi buat cuci muka (walaupun bahkan airnya pun gak segerrrr!).. Rajin mandi.. (bayangin..gw??rajin mandi??).. Bolak-balik buka pintu kulkas buat ngadem... Hhhh.. ABCDE!!!! Aduh Bo' Capey Deee Eyke... (njrittt.. apa2an nih gw mendadak dangdut..)

Tapi terlepas dari panasnya Jakarta (iya iyaaa.. masih lebih panas Neraka kok..) .. yang lebih mengganggu adalah NYAMUKKKKK... Nyamuk banyak banget dimana2.. Sumpah nyamuknya udah kayak setann... Jangan2 gara2 selama bulan puasa katanya semua setan dibelenggu.. Setan2 itu mengutus nyamuk2 untuk ngeggantiin mereka mengganggu umat manusia di muka bumi ini... Ughhh, tidaaakkkkkk!!!!

(postingan gw makin ke bawah kok makin gak jelas yaaa...???)

me... in the haze of the night...

2006-10-21T00:31:00.001+07:00

Dulu gw selalu menganggap bahwa gw adalah seorang "morning person" alias lebih produktif di pagi hari .. Cukup logis juga mengingat biasanya pagi2 gw masih fresh.. Otak pun biasanya bisa kerja maksimal karena udah istirahat sejak malem sbelomnya.. Apalagi ditemenin secangkir kopi yang masih mengepul2 wangi.. nikmat.. Apa pun bisa lah gw jabanin di pagi hari..

Tapi.. ternyata sekarang gw berubah 180 derajat.. Now i'm definetely a night person.. Entah sejak kapan persisnya kebiasaan istirahat malem gw mulai terganggu.. Sedikit demi sedikit mulai jadi kebiasaan.. Sampai akhirnya.. kebiasaan itu sekarang udah jadi penyakit buat gw.. Gw ga meng-claim diri gw sebagai penderita insomnia.. Karena nyatanya gw bisa banget tidur dengan nyenyaknya persis kebo gendut yang kebanyakan makan keju (loh? kok keju? tanya kenapa...)* Cuma gw ga bisa lagi tidur di malam hari.. Paling cepet sehari-hari gw baru bisa tidur itu sekitar jam 5 pagi.. yah, ba'da sholat shubuh lah..

Sayang sekali saudara2ku... kuliah dan kerjaan gw ga mendukung pola waktu istirahat gw yang kacau itu.. Alhasil, gw sangat sering kesiangan kuliah pagi.. atau terngantuk2 waktu meeting sama orang.. Mengganggu banget.. Gw udah berkali2 nyoba ngerubah pola tidur itu.. Tapi so far, belum bisa.. Semakin gw memaksa badan gw untuk tidur lebih cepet.. Mata ini semakin bandel melek terus gak mau diajak kompromi..

Jadi.. sejauh ini yang bisa gue lakuin cuma mengoptimalkan jam tidur gw yang sangat minim itu.. dan juga mencuri2 waktu buat tidur siang kalo emang memungkinkan di sela2 kegiatan gw..

Mmm.. mungkin gw harus mempertimbangkan nyari kerjaan yang jam kerjanya malem kali yah.. Tapi berapa banyak sih kerjaan buat cw yang jam kerjanya malem dan gak berkonotasi negatif? hehehehe... Atau mungkin gw bisa coba2 ngelamar jadi satpam kali yeee.. Wish me luck!!!

*) kenapa?? biar keren aja...

me... biting the bullet...

2006-10-20T15:54:00.001+07:00

Nyanyikan aku lagu

yang merapal perih

Sebuah ironi

dalam bahagia yang tak nyata

Bacakan aku sajakmu

yang meredam tawa

Ke dalam kebisingan jiwa

tiada habisnya

Adakah kau ditiupkan angin padaku?

Ataukah hanya kegelisahan tak berkesudahan

yang menanti untuk diakhiri?

***here i am...biting the bullet***

me... again..

2006-10-19T21:59:00.001+07:00

here i am.. back in to this whole blogging things.. ternyata gw memang butuh sesuatu untuk mencurahkan pikiran & prasaan gw.. and share them with the world.. terlepas dari apakah dunia mau tau apa yang gw pikirin dan gw rasain.. hehehehe.. i don't care..

hmm.. malam ini gw ngerasa sakit.. entah kapan terakhir kalinya gw ngerasa sakit seperti ini.. rasanya perih banget.. tapi yang lebih menyakitkan adalah.. gw tau ga ada yang bisa gw lakuin untuk ngilangin rasa sakit ini... karena sakit ini akibat dari perbuatan gw sendiri..

dalam ke-"putus-asa"-an gw.. tangan ini ternyata ngambil handphone.. tik..tak..tuk.. ketik sms..

-- write new

"ternyata ga enak yah sakit hati.. mending sakit maag aja deh gw.. :'( "

--send

--message delivered

--new message

"sakit hati knapa? ada apa nis? ya emang ga enak.. tapi jgn sakit maag jg.. apalagi gara2 mnm kopi :).. lo kenapa?"

--reply

dan sms demi sms pun terkirimlah.. sampai seorang teman itu mengirimkan kata2 yang membuat nafas gw terhenti sebentar.. sedetik.. dua detik.. tiga detik... fiuhh...

"Pedih itu dihapus saja,

jangan biarkan diendap dan dirangkul di hatimu.
Hidup seperti kertas penuh isi.
kertas yang dinoktah berbagai tinta penuh warna..
Aku ingin kau hiasi kertas itu..
Agar tak tergores sesak dengan rangkai tak terbaca..."

Subhanallah gw punya teman sperti itu... dan lagi2 sms demi sms dikirim dan dibalas.. pertanyaan-pertanyaan terjawab.. dan rasa perih ini seperti ditempeli bongkahan-bongkahan es batu.. sejuk.. gak menyembuhkan memang.. tapi membuat nyaman..

Padahal ironisnya, sebelumnya belum pernah skalipun gw curhat sama dia.. hubungan kita cuma sebatas becanda-an dan saling ngegodain aja.. Gw rada takut untuk dekat sama dia.. karena seorang teman gw ini tipikal sosok yang sangat idealis dengan pemikiran2 yang rumit dan kadang nyeleneh..

Ga pernah kpikiran sama skali.. di saat gw ngerasa down sperti ini.. ternyata gw justru sms dia.. gw justru 'ngadu' sama dia.. dan ajaibnya, dia berhasil buat gw tersenyum..

seperti dua kata terakhir yang jadi penutup di sms terakhirnya malam ini

"tetap tersenyum"

Malam ini.. ternyata bukan cuma gw dikasi kesempatan lagi untuk ngerasain rasa sakit yang gw udah nyaris lupa gimana rasanya... tapi gw juga dikasi kesempatan buat menemukan persahabatan.. di saat yang sama sekali ga pernah gw bayangin sebelumnya.. Grazie!!!

bikin kue yuks...!!

2003-11-22T22:28:00.001+07:00

Wah.. gak kerasa bulan puasa udah mau abis.. yg artinya Lebaran udah di depan mata... Huhu.. Pastinya repot banget di rumah.. Ditunjang oleh faktor pembantu gw pada mudik juga tentunya.. Yang ada jadi bagi2 tugas sama nyokap dan adek2 gw untuk urusan bersih2 rumah, bikin kue, masak, dsb... Gw kbagian job bikin kue taun ini.. Nyokap gw bener2 udah 'lepas tangan' dan paling banter cuman bantuin nyicipin doang!! huhuhu... Jadilah gw ampe begadang2 bikin kue seminggu terakhir ini...

Nih gw bagi2 resep kue kering favorit gw... Rasanya?? Hmm... Coba aja bikin.. Dijamin enak deh! =P Atau maen aja ke rmh gw kalo mau nyicipin.. ;p

cookies kopi rempah

Bahan2:

1. 200 gram campuran margarin dan roombutter Wijsmann

2. 250 gram tepung terigu

3. 150 gram gula putih halus

4. 2 sendok makan kopi bubuk instan

5. 1 sendok makan bubuk kayu manis

6. 1 butir kuning telur

7. 2 sendok makan susu bubuk

8. mentega buat ngoles secukupnya

Cara bikinnya:

- kocok bahan nomor 1-7 sampe rata

- ambil 1/2 sendok makan adonan, buat bentuk persegi panjang tipis di loyang yg udah dioles tipis2 pake mentega

- jangan terlalu rapet2 nyusun kue di loyangnya, soalnya kuenya bakal melebar stelah mateng

- buat garukan garpu di atasnya

- panggang di oven sampe kecoklatan.

Nah, gampang banget kan bikinnya?? At least dibanding kastengels,nastar,dan kue2 laen yg gw bikin, ini termasuk yg paling simple buatnya.. =D Btw, ini jadi kue favorit gw ya gara2 gampangnya itu! Hehehe.. gak denk.. =P

my soul type

2003-11-22T00:34:00.001+07:00

my soul type...

*katanya si kelly2 ini sihh_huhu siapa dia yaks!!*

I am truly passionate.

Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.

am i passionate????? huhuhu.. gak bangeeeetttt!!!=P

Firasat

2003-11-18T00:17:00.001+07:00

....Firasat....

-Marcell-

Kemarin kulihat awan membentuk wajahmu

Desau angin meniupkan namamu

Tubuhku terpaku

Semalam bulan sabit melengkungkan seyummu

Tabur bintang serupa kilau auramu

Aku pun sadari ku segera berlari

*Cepat pulang cepat kembali

Jangan pergi lagi

Firasatku ingin kau 'tuk

Cepat pulang cepat kembali

Jangan pergi lagi

Akhirnya bagai sungai yang mendamba samudera

Kutahu pasti kemana kan ku bermuara

Semoga ada waktu

Sayangku kupercaya alam pun berbahasa

Ada makna di balik semua pertanda

Firasat ini tanda rindukah ataukah tanda bahaya

Aku tak peduli ku terus berlari

back to *

Dan lihatlah sayang

Hujan turun membasahi

Seolah ku berair mata

back to *

Aku pun sadari engkaulah firasat hati

kalo yang ini firasat hati gw... huhuhu.. kocak yaahh.. uuhh.. i miss him so much.. :'(

poto cw2 sakit jiwa..

2003-11-17T00:39:00.001+07:00

Huhuhu.. Tumben2an gw mosting poto yaks.. Ini poto gw ama temen2 gw anak FIKOM Unpad di Bandung Super Mall.. Gaya mah udah sip dah.. Brasa jadi finalis covergirl majalah abege aja! huhuhu...

-dr bwh ke atas- line 1: Uwhie; line 2(ki-ka): Tiwi,Shinta; line 3(ki-ka): Diyan, gw, Cita; line 4(ki-ka): Uty, Novi.

Ada yang minat??? huhuhu.. iklan! Tapi yg masih available tinggal Cita, Novi, & Tiwi... yg laen udah laku..!!! huhuhuh =P

enaknya di rumah

2003-11-15T22:47:00.001+07:00

wah.. udah 3 hari gw di rumah.. rasanya enak banget!!! mulai dari dimasakin macem2 makanan fav gw sama nyokap yummmieee!!!, bisa bangun siang, ketemu sama sahabat2 gw.. smuanya menyenangkan banget deh!!

kemaren malem gw pergi ke Kafe Tenda Semanggi sama Shita, Pipiet, Lani, Jack & Alfred.. tons of story to share with 'em.. Kita makan sambil chit-chat di Cina Box.. gw baru pertama kali makan di situ dan ternyata lumayan yummie juga makanannya.. Seneng banget ketemu mereka lagi.. dan kita yg cw2 dah ngerencanain buat nginep bareng minggu depan.. hmm.. kebayang deh serunya smaleman ngobrol2 & bcanda2.. gak tidur.. perang bantal.. gelitik2an.. dsb.. Baru nyadar selama ini gw bener2 kangen sama mereka.. huhuhu..

Hmm kalo hari ini gw ngapain yahh.. tadi pagi bangun tdr ceting sama Wawa.. trus mandi n pergi sama tante gw.. beli kulkas terus nyari2 kancing sama renda yg lucu2 buat bikin baju boneka (tante gw jago bikin boneka_red).. Trus sore2 Thomas nelp dari New Haven.. Udah lama banget gak ngobrol sama si kampring satu itu.. Kasian dia gak bisa pulang pas Lebaran.. hehehe..

Dan barusan aja gw dapet sms dari Pipiet, ngasi tau dia baru aja putus sama cowoknya.. Mudah2an emang itu yg terbaik buat dia.. untung gw lagi di sini jadi bisa nghibur dia dan nyemangatin.. buat cari cowok baru!! hahaha.. just kiddin'..=P

-tenang aja, Piet.. kalo kata tetangga gw, "masih banyak ikan di empang.. eh.. di lautan!!" saaahhh.. gedubrakk! =P-

Yasu, mau bobhok nihhh... hhhhhuuuaaaaammmm *critanya nguap*

i guess what i wanted was...

2003-11-14T23:41:00.001+07:00

I guess what I

wanted was

to hear

you'd stay with me always.

I guess what I

wanted was

to see

those hands vowing

never to leave my own.

I guess what

I wanted was

to know

I am not loving in vain.

A poem by Jewel Kilcher

from A Night Without Armor

"abang-adek" is it for real??

2003-11-13T00:20:00.001+07:00

Hmmm.. lo smua pasti pada tau kan model sobatan kyk judul di atas itu.. Yup, intinya sih antara cowo ama cw sobatan dgn memposisikan si cowok sbg "abang" dan si cw sbg "adek", meskipun mungkin jg sbaliknya.. Biasanya juga disertai dgn embel2 panggilan "abang" dan "adek" itu td..

Gw pribadi ngerasain dilemma ttg masalah itu.. di satu pihak, gw pernah ngerasain model sobatan kyk gini yang buntut2nya bikin gw kecewa bgt karena si "abang" ternyata gak pure sobatan ama gw alias ada udang di balik tong sampah..

Tapi itu udah crita lama.. Dan skarang.. gw sobatan sama seorang cowo, sebut aja X, udah lumayan lama dan kita cukup deket,curhat2an,cela2an,sgala macem deh.. through good & bad times.. Dan suddenly, sikap X ke gw mulai brubah jd lebih protective dan pratian dari pada sbelomnya, tanpa ba bi bu dia jadi manggil gw dgn embel2 "adek".. gw gak tau angin apa yg bikin dia gtu.. Yah, intinya tuh dia nganggep dirinya sbg kakak gw gtu deh yg kudu ngejagain gw dll...

Lain halnya kalo misalnya emang dari dulu dia udah b'sikap kayak gtu sama gw, mungkin gw ga bakal terheran2 lagi.. Masalahnya dulu2 tuh X gak gtu2 amat ke gw.. duh jadi bingung..

-kalo ini siy emang abang-adek beneran kali yahh?? hehehe.. abisnya mirip.. =P -

Sebenernya gw rada gak nyaman dgn kondisi kyk gini, mnurut gw kalo emang niatnya sobatan ya udah lah gak usah pake embel2 macem2.. Tapi gimanapun juga gw ga tau 'isi kepala'nya X dan gw ngerasa gak fair kalo gw men"generalisasi"kan smua hubungan "abang-adek" bakal berakhir sperti crita gw di jaman dulu itu..

So... gimana dong?? *bingung mode*

ini hari kamis,loh..

2003-10-16T12:40:00.002+07:00

so what,yah!!??

Aduh gw lg sumpek nihhh... tugas2 banyaaakkk skaliiiiiiy... hiks..hiks.. Wahai bapak+ibu dosen2ku tercinta... knapa siy kalian doyan beneeerrr ngasi tugas.. Padahal uts dah di depan mata.. Kapan blajarnya dong kalo waktunya kepake buat ngerjain tugas teruss?? Fiuhhh.. ayo Nisa ga boleh ngeluh teruss!! ayo semangatttt.. inget yahhh.. semangattt!!!

Kmaren wawa-ku ulang taun ke-20.. Wah.. sudah tua yaaa!!! hehehehe.. =P Knapa yah slama ini gw mikirnya kalo udah umur 20-an ke atas tuh kayaknya dah tuaaa gitu.. haha.. Padahal dua taun lagi juga gw 20 taun.. Brarti dua taun lagi gw udah tua dong??!!! Huaa.. No!! Ugh.. Apa siy gw aneh banget ga jelas.. Maap,yah.. Mungkin stres gara2 pusing ngerjain tugas.. ^^Y *piss*

Hmm.. hari ini adek gw,Shaugi a.k.a Ogie, ulang taun yg ke-15.. Met ultah ya, bro! Wish you all the best deh pokoknyah... Jangan kbanyakan maen n ngegombalin cw2,yah.. cukup sudah daftar panjang cw2 'korban' ke-playboy-an lo! hahaha..

Hmm... Yasu lah.. Mau berkutat dengan tugasku lagi... Biar cepet selese ngumpulin bahannya trus kluar dari warnet cupu ini.. huhuhuw.. Abis ini mau ngedatengin warung2 rokok pinggir jalan buat ngisi questionaire pengembangan usaha kecil... wismilak!! *^_^*

story from the middle of nowhere

2003-10-03T18:48:00.001+07:00

Haiiiiiiiii... tampaknya gw mecahin rekor baru terlama "nyuekin" blog gw ini yah... huhuhuhw.. Untuk berbagai pihak yg udah rindu.. maab2 niy.. =P Bukannya gw kagak cintee.. Cuman emang sikon udah beda.. Slain gw emang masih dlm tahap 'adaptasi' sama smua-muanya yg serba baru.. Warnetnya ga ada yg se'pewe' Obelix,warnet ksayangan gw di Jakarta.. Yah maklumlah.. di desa gini.. hehehe..

Ga terasa juga udah lewat sebulan gw terdampar di middle of nowhere ini... Udah lumayan 'feels like home'.. At least udah pewe ama tempat kost gw.. Kamar gw yg kecil n didominasi warna kuning ama biru.. Kamar mandinya juga kecil.. yag tapi cukuplah buat mandi dua orang skaligus.. huwaaa.. emangnya mau mandi ama sape gw! hahaha.. kacaw.. jangan dimasukin ke ati yahhh bapak2 ibu2 skalian.. bcanda gw..

Skarang 'bout kampus gw.. Fyi, Fikom Unpad itu satu2nya Fikom yg ada di PTN di Indonesia.. Di Univ negri laen Ilmu Komunikasi tuh cuma jd salah satu jurusan di FISIP.. Trus gw bangga gtu?? Gak lah.. Biasa ajah.. hehehehe.. Tapi sumpe deh Fikom tuh anak2nya yg paling gaya se-Unpad.. hahaha.. Kuliah aja dandanannya pada kayak mau ke mall gtu.. Gak smua kyk gtu siy.. Contohnya gw.. hehehe.. Gw siy biasa2 aja lah yg penting enak dipake n gak ngeribet2in gw pas kuliah.. Tapi tetep mslh gaya juga jd pertimbangan sih.. huhuhuw..=P

Trus Fikom itu fakultas yg paling produktif bikin acara2 esp acara panggung musik gtu (bukan dangdut tapi_red).. Hampir tiap bulan pasti ngadain acara begituan.. Datengin band2 dsb.. OSPEK AJA ADA PADI... asli bneran gw kaget pas lagi OSPEK tiba2 ada band2 (after sunset,dll) dan trakhirnya ada PADI.. Pliss dong.. Ospek doang gtu lohh.. Tapi seneng juga sihh.. haha..

Trus dosen2nya lumayan ok lahh ngajarnya walopun ada bebrapa yg suka rada2 error.. hehehe.. Cuma yg gw heran kok pada hobi banget ya ngasih "oleh2" buat di rumah alias tugas.. Sjauh ini dosen favorit gw itu yg ngajar mata kuliah Pengantar Ilmu Hukum.. Enak banget deh ngajarnya.. Sayangnya hari ini dia digantiin ama dosen laen yg asli beda 180 drajat banget cara ngajarnya.. huhuhuw..

Jajanan... Hmm.. Sejauh ini sih jajanan fav gw di kampus itu mie ayam ato bakwan malang.. Lumayan enak walaupun rasanya agak2 ga konstan tiap harinya.. Kayaknya sih sesuai suasana hati abang2 yg jualannya aja kali yah.. Trus ama rujak deh.. Hampir tiap hari gw makan rujak.. Gak bosen2 deh pokonya.. Rujak, i luph u.. Apa siy gw kampung!! huhuhuw..

not gonna get us...

2003-08-15T19:58:00.001+07:00

(fyi,judulnya ga nyambung sama isinya lohh.. =P)

Hohoho.. Ngeblog lagi niiihhh.. =) Mau cerita2 ah kegiatan2 gw bebrapa hari trakhir ini... Boleh dooong... ;)

Hari Rabu tgl 13 kmaren gw ke Bandung ama nyokap naek mobil.. critanya mau medical check up sama ngambil formulir gitu deh.. Jalan dari rmh jam 5 pagi, nyampe bandung jam stengah 8.. Mayan cepet jg siy soalnya masih pagi dan bukan wiken kali yahh.. Nyampe bandung bukannya langsung ke kampus UnPad di Dipati Ukur malah makan bubur ayam langganan gw kalo di bandung.. hehehe.. namanya bubur ayam mang oyo' gtu deh.. kalo ke bandung mampir ajaaa.. hehehe kok malah jd promosi =P

Bistu br deh ke UnPad, ktemu ama Nophe disana.. untung deh ga cengo sendirian.. Lumayan lama sih ngantri medical check up nya.. Sempet lah berhahahihi sama sesama anak baru di kanan kiri yang baru kenalan.. =D Abis itu dah ga ada kerjaan deh sharian.. check in di hotel n muter2 bandung ama nyokap.. biasalah cw.. =P Sorenya ke stasiun kreta jemput bokap gw yg nyusul ke bandung (sempet nyasar waktu mau ke stasiun!uh,malu.. =P) bistu ke Dago 347 mau ke Flashy critanya.. eh sampe sana taunya Flashy pindahhh.. uhhh.. nyebelin.. trus nyari2 lg ga ktemu yasu lah balik k hotel aja.. ngisi2 formulir n tidurrr..

Hari Kamis,tgl 14, pagi2 bener gw dah ke UnPad Dipati Ukur, balikin formulir sama ngurusin administrasi n kawan2nya itu lah.. Huw,lagi2 ngantrinya panjang bener.. untung disediain kursi buat duduk.. Pas udah beres n mau pergi dari situ eh ktemu Bilal.. sempet ber"hi"2an sebentar. Bis dari situ langsung meluncur ke FIKOM di Jatinangor (kalo lewat tol dr bdg skitar stengah jam) buat interview. Tadinya gw pikir bakal di interview ama orang2 fakultas gtu.. ga taunya sama senior! huhuhuw.. pasang tampang lugu aja deh biar aman.. =P Lumayan lama di Jatinangor skitar 2 stengah jam.. Bistu ke kos ngambil kunci kamar.. huw... kacaw deh kamar kos gw cat temboknya kuning tp jendela n pintunya warna PINK!! huahahaha... Udah deh bistu balik ke Jakarta... Bgitu nyampe lgsg tidurrrrr.. capek banget!

Rencananya tanggal 25 gw pindahan ke Jatinangor.. Hari itu juga ke Unpad Dipati Ukur ngambil jaket.. Trus tanggal 31 ada psikotest.. Tanggal 1 ospek universitas.. n tanggal 2 mulai ospek fakultas.. huw.. denger2 siy ospeknya FIKOM lmyn parah.. huhuhuw.. jd ngeriiiyyy... :s

Hari ini gw di rumah aja... sempet ada acara tidur siang sgala..=P hehehe.. Sore2 ke rumah Lani sbentar balikin The Sims, trus ke Video Ezy.. nyewa vcd n pulang deh..

Hmm.. sgitu aja deh critanya.. mau nonton vcd yg td nyewa nih... bubyeehhhh.. ^^

NEVER THERE (Cake)

2003-08-09T19:37:00.001+07:00

I need your arms around me

I need to feel your touch

I need your understanding

I need your love.. so much

you tell me that you love me so

you tell me that you care

but when I need you baby.. "you're never there"

on the phone long long distance

always threw such strong resistance

first you say your too busy

I wonder if you even miss me

never there

you're never there

you're never ever ever ever there

A goldenbird that flys away a candle stick o' flame

to think that I held you yesterday

your love was just a game

you tell me that you love me so

you tell me that you care

but when I need you, baby..

take the time to get know me

if you want me why can't you just show me

we're always on this rollercoaster

if you want me why can't you get closer

never there

you're never there

you're never ever ever ever there

never there

you're never there

you're never ever ever ever there

=)

2003-08-04T16:14:00.001+07:00

oughh...

pengumuman spmb udah looowh..

gw dapet

fikom unpad

alhamdulillah..

*^_^*

see me rambling

I wish you enough

Super (Romantic) Hero

(I've had) Enough

Ten

Misiii.. saya mau merepet dulu..

nyuwun pareng

Tentang Perempuan

JUNE OH JUNE!

WHAT FOLKS ARE MADE OF

Re: something special

the moment of truth

old and boring

menangislah!

question marks

The Comet

kangen kamu.. :'(

the same deep water as you

Someday

blast from the past

at the risk of being cheesy..

bold what applies to you, or so I was told

i don't share.......you.

!!!$$###!!^##!

(those aren't) Happy Tears

Easy.. =)

Demi waktu

Kedondong instead of Kepompong

ketika Bokap gw kelilipan..

as blue as my fingertip.. ;)

Love In The Time of Cholera - A Major Disappointment

The boy who jumped into a cathole.. =D

faith..

¡uʍop ǝpısdn s,ʇı ˙˙sssddoo

Earth Hour '09!!!

Earth Hour 2009!

sekarang tolong jelaskan..

Guy "Phrases" (Translated) *wink*

you know, it's almost like... .

a thank you note ^^

Pick another song, Cupcake!

My bail is $295.. =p

sleeping beauty

Are You Making Judgements.. or Being Judgemental??

LOST

let me tell you how it feels

Sara Melson - Never Been Hurt Before

doubutsu uranai thingy.. (hmm, whatever that means =p)

sakit =,(

do nothing, please..

lagi lagi..

facts about my fav songs (part 1)

what is your irrational fear???

The New Look.. *Yaaaayyy...!!!!*

for your eyes only... ^_^

i'll think of you 'til then.. 'til we meet again..

i'm a pro?? hehehe..

in those hands of Yours..

craving for existance, huh??! =p

straight jacket feeling

little low..

new template.. no earthbound...

staying up all night..

panic! is my middle name..

if only i could write a song..

today is the day...

the day of quizes... ;)

2007 has come... *wink*

me... counting down...

me... being girl.. o^_^o

me... being such an ass..

me.. and my super fantastic mom...

me.. talking about my baby..

me.. denying...

me.. and my so-damn-sexy voice...

me.. on a high..

me... short posting..

me... leaving you for a while... =)

me... singing the same song over and over..

me.. trying hard to keep my sanity..

Guy "Phrases" (Translated) wink

The New Look.. Yaaaayyy...!!!!

2007 has come... wink

wah.. udah 3 hari gw di rumah.. rasanya enak banget!!! mulai dari dimasakin macem2 makanan fav gw sama nyokap yummmieee!!!, bisa bangun siang, ketemu sama sahabat2 gw.. smuanya menyenangkan banget deh!!