Ten

Whoever said that love is easy, must has never been in love;
Sometimes it's a land mine, one wrong step and it blows up;
A word, a look, lights a hidden fuse.

It's hard to see just what you have, when you're seeing red;
And it's easy to do something that you know you both will regret;
Better stop, think, count to ten before I leave.

One, I still wanna hate you;
Two, three, I still wanna leave;
Four, searching for that door;
Five, then I look into your eyes;
Six, take a deep breath;
Seven, take a step back;
Eight, nine, I don't know why, we even started this fight;
By the time I get to ten, I'm right back in your arms again.

Words thrown so callously like weapons when we fight;
But when they cut too deep, I wanna leave it all behind;
That I've to count to ten, before I cross that line.

One, I still wanna hate you;
Two, three, I still wanna leave;
Four, searching for that door;
Five, then I look into your eyes;
Six, take a deep breath;
Seven, take a step back;
Eight, nine, I don't know why, we even started this fight;
By the time I get to ten, I'm right back in your arms again.

You can lose what you're not thankful for,
I don't want that to happen to you and me,
Better count my blessings.

One, you still move me;
Two, three, you send chills right through me;
Four, you keep me wanting more;
Five, when I look into your eyes;
Six, you're my best friend;
Seven, that will never end;
Eight, nine, I don't know why, but thank God it happens everytime;
By the time I get to ten,
By the time I get to ten,
I can see how blessed I've been.

I'd chose you all over again...

(Jewel Kilcher)

Someday

It's the biggest storm in years they say.
Couldn't take a plane so I hopped a train
I'd like to stay, in a stormy winters day
so I'll come back to you someday

As the states rolled by
its all so clear
I'm everywhere but never right here
It's always the same
constant change.
But I'll come back to you someday

So close so far
so long the world
spin me away

I drive all night just to see your face
The way you touch the way you taste
Even if only for a day
I'll come back to you someday

I speak the truth its all i know
As your tears fall to the snow
and we both know
That tonight I can't say that I'll come back to you someday

you know, it's almost like... .

It's almost like you had it planned
It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said
"Hey, I'm about to screw you over big time"
And what was I supposed to do?
I was stuck in between you and hard place
We won't talk about the hard place

But I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life

It's how you wanted it to be
It's like you played a joke on me
And I lost a friend
In the end
And I think that I cried for days
But now that seems light years away
And I'm never going back
To who I was

Cause I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life

I think that I cried for days
But now that seems light years away
And I'm never going back
To who I was

Cause I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life

That life seems like light years away
Light years away
And that life seems like light years away
Light years away

(Light Years Away - Mozella)


There is definitely no other song that can possibly describe it all as perfect as this one, don't you think?

ps. I HEART Mozella so so so so MUCH.. Her voice simply blows my mind!!!!

straight jacket feeling

I remember a few months ago.. There was one windy night, me and some friends hung out together.. We wanted to cheer my broken-hearted friend.. We talked.. We laughed.. We sang.. Tried our best to make him smile..

From all of the songs we sang that night.. There's one song that I remember the most.. There's one that until now, everytime I hear that song.. I remember him.. My broken-hearted friend.. And I remember that night.. The night I saw true pain in his eyes.. Eventhough he finally smiled, he just couldn't hide the sorrow..

Here's the song... Straight Jacket Feeling from The All American Rejects..

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel


Try this on, straight jacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win

Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when the memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away

Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

Sadly, I've never seen him again since that night.. I don't know how he is right now.. Hopefully his pain's healed.. He's a good man.. I pray for him to find his true love.. I pray for him to be happy.. No matter where he is right now.. No matter what he's doing.. Simply because he deserves it..

posted by. niSa.. --<---<@

today is the day...

hmmm... today is absolutely the day.. i don't even know where to start.. well, let's just say that i'd been earthbound for quite a long time.. and now.. i'm officially spreading my wings to fly and soar above the sky.. above all my fears.. above all my nightmares..

i guess you don't get what i'm talking about, do you? hehehe.. sorry.. it's just too hard to express how i feel when all of the sudden i'm back up on cloud #nine.. *wink*

i said i was happy..but i lied.. i was much more than happy.. and i am much much much more than happy now..

hmmm... eventhough i've got cold and terrible headache.. eventhough i've only slept for 2 hours.. eventhough i've got tons of readings to catch up.. eventhough my assignments are waiting to be finished.. but i can't feel bad at all today.. happiness is without a doubt the only thing on my mind..

i'm feeling like posting a lyric here for someone tonight..


GOODNIGHT MY SOMEONE (Shirley Jones)

Goodnight, my someone, goodnight, my love.
Sleep tight, my someone, sleep tight, my love.
Our star is shining its brightest light,
For goodnight, my love, for goodnight.

Sweet dreams be yours, dear, if dreams there be
Sweet dreams to carry you close to me.
I wish they may and I wish they might.
Now goodnight, my someone, goodnight.

True love can be whispered from heart to heart,
When lovers are parted they say.
But I must depend on a wish and a star
As long as my heart doesn't know who you are.

Sweet dreams be yours, dear, if dreams there be
Sweet dreams to carry you close to me.
I wish they may and I wish they might.
Now goodnight, my someone, goodnight.

Goodnight! Goodnight!

well.. goodnight to you all..

me... singing the same song over and over..

Couple days ago, i was at my friend’s car when he suddenly turned up the volume of the mp3 player and started to sing along.. I’d never heard the song before.. After following a line or two.. I started to laugh out loud.. It’s one of the songs from Pop Circus (the latest album from Project Pop) entitled Ngancem.. Since it’s Project Pop’s, I guess it’s supposed to be funny.. But this one, I found the lyric was so hilarious.. My friend kept repeating the song over and over.. and I just couldn’t stop laughing...

I’m posting the lyric here so you could picture it, though you’ve still got to hear the song your self... You might not find it that funny.. But I don’t know.. for me and my friend that night on the car all the way to Bandung (escaping the black out in this middle of nowhere called Jatinangor), the song was very funny.. Uhmm.. Probably because we associated it with one little story we’re kinda familliar with.. Hehehehehe.. Again, I don’t know..

Ngancem - Project Pop

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Hmm... it still makes me laugh every single time..

Yesterday, after a very exciting class about Semiotics, I spent long hours doing the “take home” exam with my friends. And right when I felt I was about to explode, my friend Danan called (he’s the friend i’ve mentioned before at the beginning of this post__see..I write down your name on my blog.. ), he said he was bored to death and then we decided to go to Bandung.

First we thought we’d grab a fine dinner at Sierra. But half the way there, i suddenly felt like watching movie.. Hehehe.. So we went to Paris van Java, the new spot located in Sukajadi. I’d been there two times before, watching Departed and Devil Wears Prada. The place’s got Blitz Megaplex with its 9 big theaters and a very cozy atmosphere.. I really like it there..

Without considering Danan’s desire to watch Kuntilanak (hehehe.. sorry babe, you know i never like horrors), we watched The Guardian.. The story’s about United States Coast Guards, starring Kevin Costner and Ashton Kutcher.. Hmm.. Ashton Kutcher’s so damn pretty, huh.. (Lucky you, Demi! ) hehehe.. Overall the movie’s not bad.. We had quite a good time.. The movie finished past midnight and we both walked out the theater trying hard not to scream..HUNGRY!!!! Hehehehe.. We grabbed a bite at CabeRawit, the one in Ciumbuleuit, and then we went home.. Sleepy yet happy.. Hehehehe.. Thanks for the fine night,pal.. Hope it cheered you up..

Today was just fine... I went to an interesting discussion this afternoon, What Killed The Newspaper, it was basicly about the vanishing newspaper nowadays.. After that, i met few friends and then we went to eat.. I met somene who’s completely ruined my “just fine day”.. Someone who’s trying to cut me out of his life for a silly reason.. Hey, could you just grow up and be a man??

Enough from me.. I bet no one’s reading these craps anyway.. Da svidaniya!

me.. trying hard to keep my sanity..

This week’s just started.. but it’s already been a very busy one.. Tons of assignments to do.. *sigh*.. It feels like my head could explode anytime soon..

Not to mention since I’m about to resign from my work.. it’s my responsibility to train the new person who’s gonna replace me.. while doing my routines as well.. ughh.. It’s Tuesday and already I just can’t wait for Saturday night to come..

Hmm, at least being busy keeps me away from thinking about unimportant subjects.. Such as life, and how awful it’s been treating me lately.. huehehehe.. I’m not complaining.. It’s just like the new roadsign I’ve got on my car.. “LIFE ISN”T FAIR.. GET OVER IT..” I bought that solely because I thought it’d be cool.. Hope I doesn’t sound too cynical.. In fact, I do hate cynics..

Anyway, I've promised my ‘unbelievably annoying’ bestfriend (sorry for using that phrase, bro.. =p) that I will put the lyrics of these songs on my blog.. So here they are… ^_^

Five for Fighting - Superman (It's not easy)

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me
I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see
It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away…away from me
It’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
It’s not easy to be me.


James Blunt - You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
fuckiing high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Firasat

....Firasat....

-Marcell-



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kalo yang ini firasat hati gw... huhuhu.. kocak yaahh.. uuhh.. i miss him so much.. :'(

NEVER THERE (Cake)

I need your arms around me

I need to feel your touch

I need your understanding

I need your love.. so much

you tell me that you love me so

you tell me that you care

but when I need you baby.. "you're never there"

on the phone long long distance

always threw such strong resistance

first you say your too busy

I wonder if you even miss me

never there

you're never there

you're never ever ever ever there

A goldenbird that flys away a candle stick o' flame

to think that I held you yesterday

your love was just a game

you tell me that you love me so

you tell me that you care

but when I need you, baby..

take the time to get know me

if you want me why can't you just show me

we're always on this rollercoaster

if you want me why can't you get closer

never there

you're never there

you're never ever ever ever there

never there

you're never there

you're never ever ever ever there

near you always

huuuuuuuuuuuw.... seneng deehh!! senam kelas gw sukses :D sambutan penonton juga meriah.. hehehehe.. malah sampe guru2 pada ngasih selamet gitu katanya senamnya ips bagus.. huhuhuhw.. jadi maluuu.. :P trus ebta praktek yg lain2 juga Alhamdulillah banget udah dan lumayan lancar.. tadi mengarang bhs indonesia ama bhs inggris.. yang sisa tinggal ebta praktek lari ama lompat jauh hari minggu besok.. trus seninnya TO 4 deh.. hiks..hiks..

hmmm.. bout today... td tuh ebta praktek agama.. ternyata gak se"serem" yg dibayangin ama anak2 kls gw.. buktinya pada lancar2 aja tuh.. hehehhe. ga ada yg harus pake acara 'infaq'.. :P Abis ebta agama gw nyalon donks.. hehhehe.. cuma creambath doang siy.. tapi tetep aja yg namanya masuk salon tuh knapa yah gw ngerasa nyaman banget.. walau cuma cuci rambut skalipun.. hehehe.. sugesti kali yah.. udah gitu mbak eli,yg ngrimbatin gw, tuh enak abis mijetinnya.. hehehe.. sampe ngantuk2 gitu gw.. terbuai.. huhuhuhuh.. :P apa siy nisaaa... abis dari salon ke skolah lagi soalnya gw pengen liat senam nya kelas ipa A.. hehehhe.. lumayan kocak gitu.. esp. 'aksi tunggal' nya si Gede yg rada2 ga tau malu itu.. hehehhe.. eh iya, kan anak2 cowoknya pada pake iket kepala dari handuk putih yg digambarin tengkorak gitu di depannya.. eh.. si Magma malah digambarin mr.smile di depannya!! plis dong, mag.. hehehhee.. sok imut abiss :D

dari skolah gw dijemput nyokap ke RS. Mitra Keluarga nengokin sodara gw yg abis operasi usus buntu+kista gitu deh.. abis itu gw niatnya mau ef malah ke warnet.. :) ga tau deh, lagi males aja.. mudah2an besok2 gw gak males2 gini lagi deh.. blom2 gw dah pake 3 hari dari jatah bolos yg 'cuma' 6 hari.. :)

hmmm... gw mau nyanyi2 ahhhhh.... hehehehe..

Please don't say I love you,

those words touch me much too deeply

and they make my core tremble

Don't think you realize the power you have over me

And please don't come so close

It just makes me want to make you near me always

Please don't kiss me so sweet

it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow

And please don't touch me like that

makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow

Please don't look at me like that

It just makes me want to make you near me always



***Please don't send me flowers

they only whisper the sweet things you'd say

Don't try to understand me

your hands already know too much anyway

It just makes me want to make you near me always



And when you look into my eyes

please know my heart is in your hands

It's nothing that I understand, but when in your arms

you have complete power over me

So be gentle if you please 'cause

You hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth

And it makes me want to make you near me always

I want to be near you always

I want to be near you always

I want to be near you always

(Near You Always -Jewel)


ga tau knapa tapi akhir2 ini gw lagi sering banget nyanyi2 lagu ini.. hmmm.. Jewel tuw bisa banget siy kalo bikin laguuu.. :)