Wednesday, November 29, 2006

me... short posting..

It's been a while.. Lotta things happened in the past few weeks.. But here I am.. as good as new.. at the end of November (almost the end, i mean) .. So far this November's been pretty kind to me.. I've got TONS of things to be thankful and to be celebrated.. Alhamdulillah..

Anyway, people keep saying that which doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger... Well, i think that's pretty much true.. Been there.. Done that.. And guess what, I'm alive.. Stronger than ever..

This is probably it for now.. I've got lotta assignments and research to do.. Post again later..

Saturday, November 11, 2006

me... leaving you for a while... =)


Jangan kirimi aku puisi
Aku jengah dengan kata
Tentang rasa
Tentang hati
Rasa yang bukan rasaku
Hati yang bukan hatiku

Jangan kirimi aku puisi
Terpejam sebelah mata
pun dapat kuraba
Rangkai bias tanpa arti

Jangan kirimi aku puisi
Imaji yang kulihat sejak melek mata
Sampai ku berkubang di dalamnya
Melekat walaupun sudah berkali-kali mandi

Kirimi aku bintang jika langit meminjamkan!!
Jangan kirimi aku puisi

-jtnangor, 9th November 2006- on my comfy litegreen-maroon room

Thursday, November 9, 2006

me... singing the same song over and over..

Couple days ago, i was at my friend’s car when he suddenly turned up the volume of the mp3 player and started to sing along.. I’d never heard the song before.. After following a line or two.. I started to laugh out loud.. It’s one of the songs from Pop Circus (the latest album from Project Pop) entitled Ngancem.. Since it’s Project Pop’s, I guess it’s supposed to be funny.. But this one, I found the lyric was so hilarious.. My friend kept repeating the song over and over.. and I just couldn’t stop laughing...

I’m posting the lyric here so you could picture it, though you’ve still got to hear the song your self... You might not find it that funny.. But I don’t know.. for me and my friend that night on the car all the way to Bandung (escaping the black out in this middle of nowhere called Jatinangor), the song was very funny.. Uhmm.. Probably because we associated it with one little story we’re kinda familliar with.. Hehehehehe.. Again, I don’t know..

Ngancem - Project Pop

kalau nanti kau jadi pacar temanku
hati-hati dengan kupingku
jika sampai ku dengar kamu selingkuh
hindari jumpa denganku

kalau nanti kau jadi pacar temanku
hati-hati dengan mataku ya
jika sampai ku lihat wajahnya murung
kupanggil orang sekampung

***aku sudah lebih dahulu coba jadi pacarnya
tapi ku ditolak melulu
cuma bisa jadi sahabatnya

kalau nanti kau jadi pacar temanku
hati-hati jaga dirinya
dia terluka
kau pasti merana

kalau nanti kau jadi pacar temanku
hati-hati dengan hidungku
jika sampai ku cium hidung belangmu
ku belahkan hidung aslimu

jika nanti temanku jadi pacarmu
hati-hati dengan matanya
kalau sampai dia nangis karna ulahmu
ku cukur sebelah alismu

jika kau bosan jadi pacar temanku
jangan coba kau buang dirinya

kembalikan dia kepadaku
kembalikan dia kepadaku
kembalikan dia kepadaku

Hmm... it still makes me laugh every single time..

Yesterday, after a very exciting class about Semiotics, I spent long hours doing the “take home” exam with my friends. And right when I felt I was about to explode, my friend Danan called (he’s the friend i’ve mentioned before at the beginning of this post__see..I write down your name on my blog.. ), he said he was bored to death and then we decided to go to Bandung.

First we thought we’d grab a fine dinner at Sierra. But half the way there, i suddenly felt like watching movie.. Hehehe.. So we went to Paris van Java, the new spot located in Sukajadi. I’d been there two times before, watching Departed and Devil Wears Prada. The place’s got Blitz Megaplex with its 9 big theaters and a very cozy atmosphere.. I really like it there..

Without considering Danan’s desire to watch Kuntilanak (hehehe.. sorry babe, you know i never like horrors), we watched The Guardian.. The story’s about United States Coast Guards, starring Kevin Costner and Ashton Kutcher.. Hmm.. Ashton Kutcher’s so damn pretty, huh.. (Lucky you, Demi! ) hehehe.. Overall the movie’s not bad.. We had quite a good time.. The movie finished past midnight and we both walked out the theater trying hard not to scream..HUNGRY!!!! Hehehehe.. We grabbed a bite at CabeRawit, the one in Ciumbuleuit, and then we went home.. Sleepy yet happy.. Hehehehe.. Thanks for the fine night,pal.. Hope it cheered you up..

Today was just fine... I went to an interesting discussion this afternoon, What Killed The Newspaper, it was basicly about the vanishing newspaper nowadays.. After that, i met few friends and then we went to eat.. I met somene who’s completely ruined my “just fine day”.. Someone who’s trying to cut me out of his life for a silly reason.. Hey, could you just grow up and be a man??

Enough from me.. I bet no one’s reading these craps anyway.. Da svidaniya!

Tuesday, November 7, 2006

me.. trying hard to keep my sanity..

This week’s just started.. but it’s already been a very busy one.. Tons of assignments to do.. *sigh*.. It feels like my head could explode anytime soon..

Not to mention since I’m about to resign from my work.. it’s my responsibility to train the new person who’s gonna replace me.. while doing my routines as well.. ughh.. It’s Tuesday and already I just can’t wait for Saturday night to come..

Hmm, at least being busy keeps me away from thinking about unimportant subjects.. Such as life, and how awful it’s been treating me lately.. huehehehe.. I’m not complaining.. It’s just like the new roadsign I’ve got on my car.. “LIFE ISN”T FAIR.. GET OVER IT..” I bought that solely because I thought it’d be cool.. Hope I doesn’t sound too cynical.. In fact, I do hate cynics..

Anyway, I've promised my ‘unbelievably annoying’ bestfriend (sorry for using that phrase, bro.. =p) that I will put the lyrics of these songs on my blog.. So here they are… ^_^

Five for Fighting - Superman (It's not easy)

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me
I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see
It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away…away from me
It’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
It’s not easy to be me.

James Blunt - You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
fuckiing high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Friday, November 3, 2006

me... missing him...

last night i had that dream
the same dream i had when you left
i woke up trembling and frightened
that was when i realized
i could never lose you twice..
(written in a loving memory of Thomas Rasja Farrez)

I'm wondering... bisa ga yah sahabat gw itu tau apa yang gw tulisin di blog ini dari alam nya yang lain di sana.. Karena gw pengen bilang sama dia kalo gw kangennnn banget sama dia.. i know it might seem unbelievably stupid.. but here it goes..

dear Thomas,

it's been.. what.. almost 3 years now.. and that's how long i've been missing you.. gw pengen cerita2 sama lo lagi.. gw pengen becanda2 sama lo lagi.. gw pengen cela2an sama lo lagi.. gw pengen sama lo.. tadi pagi gw ngeberesin kamar gw dan ga sengaja nemu fotolo.. foto lo, gw, sama adit di DUFAN.. gw nangis.. pasti lo ngetawain gw kalo lo liat.. pasti lo ngatain gw cengeng.. tapi tetep pasti lo bakal meluk gw kalo gw nangis.. kayak dulu.. iya kan?

eh kunyuk, lo tau ga.. gw sempet marah sama lo.. knapa lo ga crita semuanya sama gw? knapa lo simpen semua itu sendiri?? knapa gw ga tau apa2 sampe semuanya udah terlambat???

tapi sekarang ironisnya, baru setelah gw ngerasain berada di posisi yang nyaris sama kayak lo dulu, gw ngerti kenapa lo ga cerita sama gw.. gw ngerti.. karena lo sayang sama gw.. karena lo selalu sayang sama gw.. iya kan?? lo ga mau bikin gw khawatir kan.. lo ga mau bikin gw takut.. karena gw terlalu sayang sama lo..

nyuk, gw sekarang sama kayak lo dulu.. dan gw pengen banget bisa crita sama lo.. karena lo pasti tau persis gimana rasanya.. gimana takutnya ga punya cukup waktu.. damn, THOMAS!!! coba lo ada di sini.. skarang..

gw ga pengen ngerasa takut.. tapi gw takut.. bangett..

hmm.. gimana rasanya di sana? bodoh ya pertanyaan gw.. hehehe.. lo main2 dong ke mimpi gw.. atau kirimin gw postcard from heaven kek kayak judul lagunya Lighthouse Family.. hehehe..

Thomas.. baik2 yah di sana.. someday we'll meet again.. gw sayang dan kangen banget sama lo..

love, nisa.

Gw berharap.. somehow, dia baca tulisan ini.. konyol emang.. tapi gw ga peduli..