Showing posts with label insomnia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label insomnia. Show all posts

Monday, November 8, 2010

Misiii.. saya mau merepet dulu..

Sesuai judul postingan kali ini.. I'm wrilly2 in the mood for merepeeutt aka curcol gila2an.. eits, gak curcol juga siih secara panjang ya, bok!

Kalimat di atas itu adalah warning yaa, so kalo sodara-sodari hadirin-hadirot sekalian punya hajat yang lebih penting ketimbang baca repetan saya, disarankan buat close aja window nya..karena eh karena sumpah deh postingan ini rasa2nya kurang bermanfaat buat kemaslahatan umat..

Eh tapi kalo emang lagi segitu mati gaya nya ga ada kerjaan sih sok atuh manggaaa menyaksikan saya merepet..

Baiklah tanpa lebih banyak congcings mari segera dimulei.. Pusat permasalahan kehidupan eyke akhir2 ini rasa2nya bersumber di satu kata deh.. KAWIN! hahahahahaha.. (tertawa frustrasi) Maaak, umur udah lewat seperempat abad iniii.. udah masuk masa2 krisis pengen ngerasain kewong! Rambut pun udah mulei beruban satu dua helai..

Pujaan hati pun insyaAllah udah tersedia..udah mantep lah ini hati segala macem pokonya mah insyaAllah kami siapppp (dan ngebet..hahaha) lahir batinnn.. Keluarga punnn insyaAllah udah sreg di hati..saya sudah (pede) diterima ama keluarga sang pujaan hati..secara pendekatannya juga udah nyaris 10 taon.. dari adeknya masih esde sampe udah mau lulus SMA!! Lama yeee.. iye!

Nahh,,terus kenapa dong dong dong gak kawin kawin jugaa?? Pan katanya situ ngebet?? Huhuhu.. Masalahnyaaa, karena suatu hal berbau tradisi adat-istiadat yang krusial (buat keluarga, buat gw mah kagak!), sang pujaan hati eyke masih belum bisa merasakan apa yg saya rasakan dengan keluarga doi.. singkatnya, belum diterima. Kasiaan yaaa.. Sepuluh taun jek.. Kemane ajeee ente??! hahaha.. (terlalu banyak tertawa mengindikasikan perasaan miris yg ditutup2i)

Segala daya dan upaya rasa2nya udah kami lakukan deh untuk menggoyahkan kekerasan hati yang paduka raja padang pasir (baca: eyke punya bapak moyang), karena niscaya kalo hati sang paduka sudah luluh mah anggota kerajaan yg lain dijamin manut2 ajee.. Tapiii, ya apa mau dikata..namanya juga ujian yah..mungkin emang belum waktunya juga sehingga saya dan sang pujaan hati harus luar biasa sabaaaarrrrrrrrrrr..sembari menahan hasrat yg kian membuncah untuk membina bahtera rumah tangga.. ahuhuhu.. Tapi teteeupp haqqul yaqiiiiinn insyaAllah kalo saatnya tiba my daddy daddy bala bala akan rontok juga hatinya sama calon menantunya iniii.. Aamiin..

Hey Daddy, if you read my blog..percayalah tidak ada lelaki di luaran sana yang bisa mencintai, menjaga, membahagiakan, membimbing dan memimpin anak gadis sematawayang-mu ini sebaik dia!! =)

Sabar sabar sabarrr.. itu sihh inti dari perjuangan cinta kita berdua.. Caelah.. Dari mulai saya ditembak di depan lab kimia SMA kita bulan Januari 2001.. ahik..ahikk.. Terus ditinggal kuliah di luar negeri enam bulan sesudahnyaa.. Long distance lima tauuuunnn.. Dari mulai beda waktu 1 jam sampe 12 jam..udah tau rasanya! Teteupp mesti sabaaarrr.. hahaha.. Walopun akhirnya saya sempat cemen dan ngerasa lelah pacaran jauh2an yg berujung kita putus (di status, di hati mah gak pernah kali yaa??hahaha.. najis!)

Tapi insyaAllah kalo jodoh gak kemana2 emang.. setelah hampir 3 taun jalan sendiri2, ya kok bisa2nya di'pertemukan' lagi dalam kondisi yang rasa2nya terlalu menakjubkan buat dibilang kebetulan.. Prikitiiiwww! (Afterall, kita percaya nggak ada yang kebetulan di dunia ini.) Saat itu juga, we instantly know..this is it..we're meant to be together and nothing can ever come in between again, insyaAllah!

Eits, tapi emang ga boleh jumawa berlebihan..hahaha..pasalnya, sungguh ironis..beberapa saat setelah kita nyambung lagi ituuu, sang pujaan hati harus beremigrasi ke negeri kumpeni buat mengejar cita2nya menjadi ilmuwan dan menguasai dunia! Maaakk, ditinggal lagi doong eykeeee.. Halo, long distance relationship apa kabarmu..kita berjumpa lagii! *nangis guling2an tujuh hari tujuh malem!*

Ehh, apa tadi kuncinyaa?? SABARRR.. tuh ditulis gede2 di karton manila berhias glitter, ditempel di cermin samping tempat tidur biar tiap bangun pagi bisa terapi menghipnotis diri sendiri.. Lagipula, insyaAllah jauh2an kali ini nggak sampe selama dulu dongg.. ya iya kan pengennya cepet2 kawinnn.. huhuhu.. Segala daya dan upaya punn digencarkan untuk mencapai tujuan itu, terutama mendapat restu sang paduka raja padang pasir.. Tiada hil yang mustahal kalo atas izin Allah kan yaaa.. jadi insyaAllah penolakan2 beliau selama ini gak bikin kami gencar melainkan semakin kekeuh sumekeuhh..

Walaupun demikian, saya dan pujaan hati teteeup manusia biasa yaaa.. Kadang2 saya juga jiper, galau, stress, capek, nangis guling2an, apalagi ngeliatin orang2 pada kawinnn semuaaa..aaaa gw kapaann??!! Nanti giliran eyke yg udah sembuh, gantian sang pujaan hati yg sutresno.. ganti2an ajaaa gitu.. Tapi Alhamdulillah bisa saling menguatkan kalo yg satu lagi lemah, dia bisa menahan saya kalo pengen guling2an di rel kereta Lenteng Agung, dan saya juga bisa nahan dia untuk gak lompat ke dalem kanal di Delft sono.. Hihihi..

Teteuppp berdoa dan ikhtiar sekekeuh mungkin lahh.. Dan insyaAllah kalo kondisi kejiwaan ini memungkinkan, kita sekarang sih udah ga mau stres2an lagi mainannya..udah ga mau galau2an lagi meratapi nasib.. huhuhu.. Buang2 waktu dan enerhiii.. (buat yg belom tau, percayalah nangis dua hari dua malem itu jauhh lebih CAPEK daripada main dance dance revolution dua hari dua malem non stop!) Jadi, daripada nelongso mewek2an mengasiani diri sendiri, mariiiii kita semangattt '45 buat menyusun strategi menuju tujan yang diimpi2kan yaituuu..tak lain dan tak bukan adalah MENIKAH! Menjalankan sunnah Rasulullah saw, menyempurnakan separuh agama, membangun keluarga yang sakinah mawaddah warahmah.. InsyaAllah.. Aamiiin ya robbal alamiiin..

Semoga sesegera mungkin kalo bobo' ada dia yang nemenin..Hihihii.. Meskipun suara ngoroknya dijamin tidak hanya menggetarkan jantung hatiku..ihiiyy.. tapi juga tembok rumah tetangga!

Friday, October 15, 2010

Tentang Perempuan

Dia yang diambil dari tulang rusukmu.


Jika Tuhan mempersatukan dua orang yang berlawanan sifatnya, maka itu akan saling melengkapi. Dialah penolongmu yang sepadan, bukan sparing partner yang sepadan. Ketika pertandingan dimulai, dia tidak akan berhadapan denganmu untuk melawan tetapi dia akan ada bersamamu untuk berjaga-jaga di belakang saat engkau berada di depan atau segera mengembalikan bola ketika bola itu terlewat olehmu; dialah yang akan melengkapi kekuranganmu.


Dia ada untuk melengkapi yang tidak ada dalam laki-laki: perasaan, emosi, kelemahlembutan, keluwesan, keindahan, kecantikan, rahim untuk melahirkan, mengurusi hal-hal sepele; hingga ketika laki-laki tidak mengerti hal-hal itu, dialah yang akan menyelesaikan bagiannya sehingga tanpa kau sadari, ketika kau menjalani sisa hidupmu, kau akan menjadi lebih kuat karena hadirnya di sisimu.


Jika ada makhluk yang sangat bertolak belakang, kontras dengan lelaki, itulah perempuan. Jika ada makhluk yang sanggup menaklukkan hati hanya dengan sebuah senyuman, itulah perempuan. Ia tidak butuh argumentasi hebat dari seorang laki-laki tetapi ia butuh jaminan rasa aman darinya, karena ia ada untuk dilindungi. Tidak hanya secara fisik, namun juga emosi.


Ia boleh jadi tidak tertarik kepada fakta-fakta yang akurat, bahasa yang teliti dan logis yang bisa disampaikan secara detail dari seorang laki-laki, tetapi yang ia butuhkan adalah perhatiannya, kata-kata yang lembut, ungkapan-ungkapan sayang yang sepele namun sangat berarti baginya; membuatnya aman di dekatmu.


Batu yang keras dapat terkikis habis oleh air yang luwes, sifat laki-laki yang keras ternetralisir oleh kelembutan perempuan. Rumput yang lembut tidak mudah tumbang oleh badai dibandingkan dengan pohon besar dan rindang, seperti juga di dalam kelembutannya, di situlah terletak kekuatan dan ketahanan yang membuatnya bisa bertahan dalam situasi apapun. Ia lembut bukan untuk diinjak, rumput yang lembut akan dinaungi oleh pohon yang kokoh dan rindang.


Jika lelaki berpikir tentang perasaan wanita, itu akan menyita sepersekian dari hidupnya. Tetapi jika perempuan berpikir tentang perasaan lelaki, itu akan menyita seluruh hidupnya.


Karena perempuan diciptakan dari tulang rusuk laki-laki, karena perempuan adalah bagian dari laki-laki.. apa yang menjadi bagian hidupnya, akan menjadi bagian bagi hidupmu. Karena kau dan dia adalah satu. Dia adalah dirimu yang tak ada sebelumnya. Ketika pertandingan dimulai, pastikan dia ada di bagian lapangan yang sama denganmu.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

WHAT FOLKS ARE MADE OF

What are little babies made of, made of?
What are little babies made of?
Diapers and crumbs and sucking their thumbs;
That's what little babies are made of.

What are little boys made of, made of?
What are little boys made of?
Snips and snails and puppy-dog tails;
That's what little boys are made of.

What are little girls made of, made of?
What are little girls made of?
Sugar and spice and everything nice;
That's what little girls are made of.

What are young men made of, made of?
What are young men made of?
Sighs and leers and crocodile tears;
That's what young men are made of.

What are young women made of, made of?
What are young women made of?
Rings and jings and other fine things;
That's what young women are made of.

What are our sailors made of, made of?
What are our sailors made of?
Pitch and tar, pig-tail and scar;
That's what our sailors are made of.

What are our soldiers made of, made of?
What are our soldiers made of?
Pipeclay and drill, the foeman to kill;
That's what our soldiers are made of.

What are our nurses made of, made of?
What are our nurses made of?
Bushes and thorns and old cow's horns;
That's what our nurses are made of.

What are our fathers made of, made of?
What are our fathers made of?
Pipes and smoke and collars choke;
That's what our fathers are made of.

What are our mothers made of, made of?
What are our mothers made of?
Ribbons and laces and sweet pretty faces;
That's what our mothers are made of.

What are old men made of, made of?
What are old men made of?
Slippers that flop and a bald-headed top;
That's what old men are made of.

What are old women made of, made of?
What are old women made of?
Reels, and jeels, and old spinning wheels;
That's what old women are made of.

What are all folks made of, made of?
What are all folks made of?
Fighting a spot and loving a lot,
That's what all folks are made of.

Robert Southey (1774-1843)

Friday, May 7, 2010

question marks



Do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives or if the moments in our lives make us?

If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment, that you've always wanted back.

Monday, April 26, 2010

the same deep water as you

I've been re-watching early seasons of One Tree Hill these past few weeks.. And there's this one episode in season 4 where Brooke broke up with Lucas for good.. I don't know why, but I find the lines rather heartfelt..

BROOKE: "Listen, I know it’s been difficult for you lately, losing Keith and your heart condition and giving up basketball.. I feel like I’ve been keeping you close to me to try to protect you from those things.. like I’m hanging on to the two of us for you..but not for me."

LUCAS: "I’m sorry I kissed Peyton.. I should’ve told you."

BROOKE: "It’s not about that, Luke.. It’s not.. I thought that it was but this is not about her this is about me.. I love you, Lucas and I probably always will.. But we go days without having a meaningful conversation.. and I used to miss you so much when that happened.. But it never seemed like you missed me and I guess because of it I stopped missing you.. I mean, look at today.."

LUCAS: (v.o) I guess I should’ve said something, anything, I mean, for a guy who wants to be a writer it suddenly seemed like no words had ever been written.. but when someone tells you they stopped missing you.. you’re pretty much screwed no matter what you say.

BROOKE: "There was an accident and you..called me afterwards.. But making a mix with Peyton? Sharing a laugh with Peyton.. It shouldn’t be, should it?"

BROOKE: "..shouldn’t be like this, Luke."

LUCAS: "Brooke.."

BROOKE: "I’m sorry.. I can’t do this anymore."

LUCAS: (v.o) See but there had to be something, right? Something that no one had ever said in the history of the world.. something that could change this.

LUCAS: "Brooke.. I’m sorry."

BROOKE: Yeah, me, too.


Whoa.. It breaks my heart.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Someday


It's the biggest storm in years they say.
Couldn't take a plane so I hopped a train
I'd like to stay, in a stormy winters day
so I'll come back to you someday

As the states rolled by
its all so clear
I'm everywhere but never right here
It's always the same
constant change.
But I'll come back to you someday

So close so far
so long the world
spin me away

I drive all night just to see your face
The way you touch the way you taste
Even if only for a day
I'll come back to you someday

I speak the truth its all i know
As your tears fall to the snow
and we both know
That tonight I can't say that I'll come back to you someday

Monday, April 19, 2010

at the risk of being cheesy..

"Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores
you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you
still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry."


Been there, done that.

--
Sent from my mobile device

Friday, April 16, 2010

bold what applies to you, or so I was told

You like showers better than bubble baths. You cannot stand pop music. You have a sister. You are an only child. You have black hair. You have blonde hair. You have red hair. You have glasses. You wear contacts. You like TV more than movies. You don’t talk on the phone often. You like to shop. You like emo music. You are tall. You are short. You are average height. You have long hair. You have medium length hair. You have short hair. You use AIM. You use Yahoo IM. You have more than 3 pets. You like sushi. You love sushi. You are on a diet. You are currently on the second floor of your house. You have a small room. You are in high school. You have 1 little brother. You have an older brother. You are allergic to something. You have a boyfriend/girlfriend. You have a current crush. You have many crushes. You have been kissed. You have kissed another girl. You laugh a lot. You have lots of friends. You are lonely. You are depressed. You are listening to music. You are doing homework. You have school tomorrow. You are sick. You hate your teacher. You think your teacher is OK. There is drama in your school, constantly. You are wearing sweat pants. You are wearing socks. You are wearing a T-shirt. You have lost a loved one. You hate your school. You loved your school. You have been picked on. You have been yelled at. You have gotten in a fight. You have said a bad word. You shop at Abercrombie and Fitch. You play basketball. You play softball. You play baseball. You play soccer. You play football. You hate sports. You get manicures. You shop at Pac Sun. You go to the mall a lot. You are close with your family. You never fight with your parents. You have been grounded. You have driven a car. You are listening to your iPod. You are watching TV.You are watching a movie. You are listening to the radio. You are singing. You are happy. You are sad. You are blah. You are anxious. You are about to go somewhere. You haven’t been out of your house for over 3 days. Someone besides you is in the same room with you. You love your natural hair. You hate your eye color. You wish you were never been born. You write your own songs. You write books. You hate to write. You hate your hometown. You love your hometown. You are smart. You are average. You are dumb. You get good grades. You enjoy having people at your house. You love going to the movies with a lot of people. You like to go bowling with your friends. You have ice-skated before. You like popsicles. You think Vanilla is better than Chocolate.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

¡uʍop ǝpısdn s,ʇı ˙˙sssddoo

˙˙ɹǝʇɐן noʎ ǝǝs ¡ʍou pǝq oʇ ɟɟo

d= ˙˙ʇı dןǝɥ ʇ,uɐɔ ˙˙sʎnƃ ʎɹɹos ˙˙ɐɥ ¡(puǝıɹɟʎoq puɐ) puǝıɹɟ ʎɯ oʇ sןıɐɯǝ uʍop ǝpısdn ʇuǝs ʎןןɐnʇɔɐ ı ˙˙ןoן ˙˙ʍou ,ɹǝʌǝɟ ʇxǝʇ uʍop ǝpısdn, uo ʎןןɐʇoʇ ɯ,ı ˙˙ɯɯɯɥ

˙˙(ɹǝısɐǝ ɥɔnɯ sı sıɥʇ ʇnq ɹǝʌǝosʇɐɥʍ sǝpoɔ ןɯʇɥ ǝɥʇ ƃuıʎɟıpoɯ ʎq ʇı ǝʞɐɯ uɐɔ noʎ ʍouʞ ı ɥɐǝʎ) ˙˙ʎןʇuɐʇsuı ʇxǝʇ uʍop ǝpısdn sǝʞɐɯ ʇı ˙˙ןooɔ 2ʎןןɐǝɹ sı ʞuıɥʇ ı puɐ ʎɐpoʇ punoɟ ʇsnɾ ı ɥɔıɥʍ this site ʇnoqɐ ʍouʞ noʎ ʇǝן oʇ ʇuɐʍ ʇsnɾ ı ˙˙ʇsod ƃuoן ɐ ǝʇıɹʍ ɐuuoƃ ʇou ɯ,ı os (ʎןןɐnʇɔɐ 'ƃuıuɹoɯ sıɥʇ ɹo) ʍoɹɹoɯoʇ ʎןɹɐǝ ʎןןɐǝɹ dn ʇǝƃ ɐʇʇoƃ ı

Thursday, March 5, 2009

a thank you note ^^


dear you,

Cuy, makasi yaaaaaaaa lo dateng ke Jakarta di saat yang sangat tepat.. Di saat gw sangat sangat sangat butuh lo.. Atau mungkin lebih tepatnya gw harus berterima kasih ke bos lo karena udah nugasin lo ke Jakarta di saat yang pas banget sahabatlo lagi 'ancur2an' di sini.. Hehehehe.. Ya ya ya gw tau lo dateng buat urusan kerja.. Ya ya ya.. gw tau lo dateng cuma dua hari doang.. (hiksss.. coba sampe Senin depaaan!!!)Tapi gw teramat sangat bersyukur bangeeetttttttt lo dateng.. Dan gw bisa ketemu lo.. Dan gw bisa 'numpahin' semuanya sama lo.. Dan as always, lo bisa buat gw senyum (bahkan ketawa), di tengah semua 'kekacauan' ini.. THANK YOU!!

It sucks big time that you live far far away.. I miss you a lottttt! Gw (dan nyokaplo.. dan oma lo.. hehe) berdoa gila2an biar lo bisa ditempatin di Jakarta lagi as soon as possible.. Amin amin amin aminnnnnn..

Love you so much, best friend!! *hugs*

Thursday, February 5, 2009

doubutsu uranai thingy.. (hmm, whatever that means =p)


Aniysah

22/07/1985


  • You are Blue Panther, who is cheerful, lively and light hearted person.
  • You can keep reason and emotion at a good balance.
  • You are gentle and peaceful too.
  • You have deep and wide relationships with people, and there are some whom you would have a long relationship with.
  • You possess fashionable sense and are well dressed that make people turn around in the street.
  • You are not good at objective way of thinking.
  • You rely on your preferences, and the instinct of that moment.
  • Therefore you cannot accumulate plans.
  • You are also weak on making quick solutions and coming out with conclusions through careful and strict analysis.
  • You tend to not be able to find your life objective.
  • You find your objective through the situation you are in, and by the support of the people around you.
  • This makes your life divide into two sections, and there may be a possibility that you may lead a totally different life.
  • You are extremely sensitive and possess natural sense of instinct.
  • You think too much about people's opinion, and are always feeling unsettled.
  • You are a romantic sort of person in that you lead your life according to your beliefs rather than depending on talent and capability.
  • Even after you get married, you should keep your career that requires your good fashion sense.
  • You will be a good but rather obstinate wife and a mother.

Get yours here.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

new template.. no earthbound...

Still can't sleep.. :(

I've got a new template.. I'm kinda bored with the old template so I put this new one.. Actually I don't really like the colors.. But I love the picture of the angel above.. Mmm.. maybe next time I'll search for another template.. I wish I could make it on my own.. I've had tons of idea in my head.. Unfortunatelly I'm just too stupid to put them in html whatsoever.. TT

posted by. niSa..--<---<@

staying up all night..

Well..well..well.. it's 4.30 in the morning.. and I am not feelin' sleepy at all.. Err, I got up at 12 p.m yesterday.. Maybe that's the reason why I can't manage myself to sleep now.. While waiting for my eyes to get tired, here I am doing some blogwalking, filling out some craps at bulletin boards, and singing along.. huhuhu..

Here's one of the q/a thingy I found in one of my friends' blog.. So not important.. I don't even know why I'm posting it here.. Though none of my posts here is important.. hehehe..

1.Story behind your fv song?
foolish games.. mmm..just love it..
2. What month were you born in?
july
3. Where do you live?
jakarta-and this middle of nowhere called jatinangor


D E S C R I B E Y O U R . .

4. Wallet:
mmm..long..corduroy..retro printed
5. Dream car:
mmm ford ranger.. prefferably red..=p
6. Toothbrush:
oral-b
7. Jewelry worn daily:
rings
8. Pillow Case:
white with blue dots
9. Eyes:
mmm..little.. =p
10. House color:
uhhmmmm...mostly white, green, and the natural color of bricks
11. Love life:
perfectly fine =)
12. Cologne/Perfume:
mmm..now?? after sunset-peach
13. CD in stereo:
none
14. Piercings:
none

W H A T A R E Y O U . . .

15. Wearing:
skinny jeans, maroon t-shirt, dark blue sackdress
16.Wanting:
mmm..good grades this semester..
17. The last thing you ate?
caramel pop corn
18. Something you are afraid of?
rat, crossing the busy street
19. Do you like candles?
very much..
20. Do you like the taste of blood?
puhlease!!!come on...
21. Do you believe in love?
very much indeed
22. Do you believe in soul mates?
yup..
23. Do you like seafood?
very very very much..
24. Do you remember your dreams?
sometimes
25. Do you consider yourself a study freak?
nu uh.. not at all..
26. Do you like tattoos?
like to see it on other's body.. not on mine.. hehehe..
27. Do you believe in miracles?
mmm..sometimes i guess..
28. Do you burn easily in the sun?
yup.. my face will turn red like boiled crab
29. Do you speak another language?
mmm.. does body language count??
30. What's something you wish you could understand better?
people around me
31. Are you shy around your crush?
hehehehe... sometimes..
32. Got any plans for the weekend?
nope..just go where the wind blows.. hehehehe
33. Do you miss anyone?
yup.. my peeps..
34. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
nope..
35. Orange juice or apple?
definetely orange..
36. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with?
danan
37. What was the last text message you sent?
masih,... knapa?? kmu blm bo2?
38. Lucky number?
11/24
39. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
mmm..few months ago i guess..
40. Have you ever won a trophy?
yup..
41. Are you a good cook?
eerrr... not really...
42. Have you ever eaten a snake?
nope..
43. Do the Chinese really use cats in their food?
what?? i mean..really?? never heard of it.. i hope they don't..
44. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
yup.. from kindergarten til highschool..
45. What was the last movie u saw in the cinema?
blood diamond
46. Would you rather find true love or be a millionaire?
what if he's a millionaire??? hehehheh..
47. Do you believe in love at first sight?
well i thought i did.. but i don't anymore..
48. What is/are your favorite animal(s)?
dog,cat,horse
49. Who is the second last person to call you?
my mama
50.What do you like about yourself?
there's no other me.. ;)

Saturday, October 21, 2006

me... in the haze of the night...


Dulu gw selalu menganggap bahwa gw adalah seorang "morning person" alias lebih produktif di pagi hari .. Cukup logis juga mengingat biasanya pagi2 gw masih fresh.. Otak pun biasanya bisa kerja maksimal karena udah istirahat sejak malem sbelomnya.. Apalagi ditemenin secangkir kopi yang masih mengepul2 wangi.. nikmat.. Apa pun bisa lah gw jabanin di pagi hari..

Tapi.. ternyata sekarang gw berubah 180 derajat.. Now i'm definetely a night person.. Entah sejak kapan persisnya kebiasaan istirahat malem gw mulai terganggu.. Sedikit demi sedikit mulai jadi kebiasaan.. Sampai akhirnya.. kebiasaan itu sekarang udah jadi penyakit buat gw.. Gw ga meng-claim diri gw sebagai penderita insomnia.. Karena nyatanya gw bisa banget tidur dengan nyenyaknya persis kebo gendut yang kebanyakan makan keju (loh? kok keju? tanya kenapa...)* Cuma gw ga bisa lagi tidur di malam hari.. Paling cepet sehari-hari gw baru bisa tidur itu sekitar jam 5 pagi.. yah, ba'da sholat shubuh lah..

Sayang sekali saudara2ku... kuliah dan kerjaan gw ga mendukung pola waktu istirahat gw yang kacau itu.. Alhasil, gw sangat sering kesiangan kuliah pagi.. atau terngantuk2 waktu meeting sama orang.. Mengganggu banget.. Gw udah berkali2 nyoba ngerubah pola tidur itu.. Tapi so far, belum bisa.. Semakin gw memaksa badan gw untuk tidur lebih cepet.. Mata ini semakin bandel melek terus gak mau diajak kompromi..

Jadi.. sejauh ini yang bisa gue lakuin cuma mengoptimalkan jam tidur gw yang sangat minim itu.. dan juga mencuri2 waktu buat tidur siang kalo emang memungkinkan di sela2 kegiatan gw..

Mmm.. mungkin gw harus mempertimbangkan nyari kerjaan yang jam kerjanya malem kali yah.. Tapi berapa banyak sih kerjaan buat cw yang jam kerjanya malem dan gak berkonotasi negatif? hehehehe... Atau mungkin gw bisa coba2 ngelamar jadi satpam kali yeee.. Wish me luck!!!

*) kenapa?? biar keren aja...