Sunday, February 8, 2009


Was it you? Screaming out inside my head
Enormously loud but I could barely hear
Painful as if it were poisoning my blood
Desperate like there were no such thing as an end
Earthbound as all angels lost their wings

Was it you? Crawling in the dimness of my consciousness
Craving to be seen
Exhausted from the fight with the beast inside
Torn as the whiteflag I once refused to raise
Trembling but unwilling to surrender

Was it you?
Are you still there?
or have you given up?
I’ve made peace with myself
Are you still there?

-Jatinangor, April 22, 2006-