LOST

Was it you? Screaming out inside my head
Enormously loud but I could barely hear
Painful as if it were poisoning my blood
Desperate like there were no such thing as an end
Earthbound as all angels lost their wings

Was it you? Crawling in the dimness of my consciousness
Craving to be seen
Exhausted from the fight with the beast inside
Torn as the whiteflag I once refused to raise
Trembling but unwilling to surrender

Was it you?
Are you still there?
or have you given up?
I’ve made peace with myself
Are you still there?

-Jatinangor, April 22, 2006-

let me tell you how it feels

it feels

like

standing in line for a day, all psyched,

to get Alanis Morissette ticket

and two minutes after you had finally got it

they told you

that the concert got cancelled

:,(

Sara Melson - Never Been Hurt Before

This song has a magical healing power for me.. I love her voice as well..

doubutsu uranai thingy.. (hmm, whatever that means =p)

Aniysah
22/07/1985

• You are Blue Panther, who is cheerful, lively and light hearted person.
• You can keep reason and emotion at a good balance.
• You are gentle and peaceful too.
• You have deep and wide relationships with people, and there are some whom you would have a long relationship with.
• You possess fashionable sense and are well dressed that make people turn around in the street.
• You are not good at objective way of thinking.
• You rely on your preferences, and the instinct of that moment.
• Therefore you cannot accumulate plans.
• You are also weak on making quick solutions and coming out with conclusions through careful and strict analysis.
• You tend to not be able to find your life objective.
• You find your objective through the situation you are in, and by the support of the people around you.
• This makes your life divide into two sections, and there may be a possibility that you may lead a totally different life.
• You are extremely sensitive and possess natural sense of instinct.
• You think too much about people's opinion, and are always feeling unsettled.
• You are a romantic sort of person in that you lead your life according to your beliefs rather than depending on talent and capability.
• Even after you get married, you should keep your career that requires your good fashion sense.
• You will be a good but rather obstinate wife and a mother.

Get yours here.

sakit =,(

Hari ini tepar sajaaaaa di rumah. Hiks. Penyebabnya adalah hal2 di bawah ini:

• First day of my period, yang seperti biasa "dimeriahkan" dengan cramp super duper dahsyat bikin gw guling2an di tempat tidur seharian. Posisi kayak gimanapun salaaaaah aja bawaannya. Gw iriiiiiiiiii sama cw2 yang nyantai2 aja klo lagi having period!!! Period gw hampir selalu diramaikan dengan cramp yang gila2an sampe suka ga bisa ngapa2in gitu.. Dokter gw sih nyaranin untuk check ke spesialis obsgyn.. Tapi gw takuuuuuuutt.. Huhuhu..
• Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Beuhhh. Nyiksa bangeeeeetttt rasanyaaaaaaaaaaaa!! :(
• Fever. Last time I got checked, it was 39.5 degree Celcius.

Sudah minum 3 macam obat plus satu vitamin. So far sudah mendingan walaupun masih menunggu obatnya bekerja penuh (come on, hurry please!!!). Maunya sih tidur biar sakitnya ga terasa. Tapiiiii, seharian ini udah tidur LUMAYAN banyak, jadi sekarang ga ngantuk sama skali.. :,(

Hmm..

Get well soon, Me!!!

do nothing, please..

I didn't start all of this, you know..

I didn't.

I barely even knew you.

So.. let's just go back to where we did not know each other.

Everything was perfectly fine before the whole you're-trying-to-be-"nice"- to-me scenario, remember? Didn't anyone tell you that your little trick was such a lame-o, girly girl? Oh,well..

I admit, I was a bit pissed off.

But hey, I moved on.

And now..

I don't give a tiny rat's ass about you, dear..

I really don't.

And if I removed you from my friends list, that's because, let's face it, we're never friends.

As simple as that. Is it too hard for your pretty little head to understand, huh?

Do nothing would be your smartest move.

Do nothing.

DO NOTHING.

Can you do that instead of adding me back over and over again (even after I ignored you)?

Can you do that, dear?

lagi lagi..

Hmmm..

Lagi-lagi blog baru.

Entah berapa blog udah gw buat (dan kemudian tinggalkan) dalam beberapa tahun belakangan ini. Dari jaman masih pake seragam putih abu-abu lengkap dengan kisah cinta berjuta rasa khas abg labil. Jaman awal kuliah dengan euphoria nya sendiri. Jaman patah hati dan (sok) gak percaya sama yang namanya cinta. Jaman jatuh cinta (lagi). Kemudian jatuh (lagi). And the list goes on and on and on and on.

Yup, that's me.. Si anget-anget tai ayam, my mom calls me. =p

Dan hari ini, blog baru lagi.

Apakah akan bertahan atau bernasib sama seperti blog-blog gw sebelumnya?

Let's just wait and see.. (and hope ;) )